Confessions about 'Bu'

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I hate carmen, well put it this way my dad hates her. and I don't want to know her.

Abuse, Hate

I can't wait for my grandparents to die I can't wait for my grandparents to die, as bad as it sounds. I have already been mourning their deaths in therapy, because at one point I was scared to come to the house and find one of them dead. But they seem to be getting healthier and healthier. I have lived with them all of my life, have tried to move but financial issues have plagued me. Now I realize what has to be done, but I have basically become their primary caregiver/go-to person when they need things because I'm here. Also, I lost my job at the start of this year so right now I'm unemployed but seriously on the hunt, and have let them know I will eventually be working, and getting out of this house. My dog also died last month, after being diagnosed with an illness the same week I was fired. That almost destroyed me and I will forever be sad about my dog than I would about them passing at this point. The week after my dog died, my grandfather wrecked his car, again, driving like an idiot, and part of me hoped he was gone when I had to drive to the scene. He was fine, and I was angry because of it. He no longer has a car and I have to drive everywhere for them, mainly because my grandmother demands everything despite what others have to do and will cause people to make unnecessary trips. She will also guilt trip you if you try to tell her how much sense it does not make and if you try to come to a sensible resolution. She will also critique the things you buy, but will not come with you to do her own damn shopping. She is not crippled, just lazy and wants to rule from a chair. She also has a shrill voice and stays calling my name and I HATE it. I also resent her for accusing a family member of molesting me as a child, which is totally false. She only said it out of spite because she is angry with the person for something that happened between THEM years ago that she won't forgive. So I will definitely be glad when her evil ass is gone. Also, I have an amazing boyfriend who understands my situation as he also helps to take care of an elderly family member. He is way more patient and calmer than I am, bless him. But he has seen firsthand the crap I've gone through and he does get it and many people won't. My bf wants to eventually get married and have kids, but sometimes I don't even want kids because my grandparents f****** act like them and I know I will need time to decompress before taking that step. There's other family that can help out and have offered to help, but my grandparents do not want to ask anyone else but me. I don't even want anything from them when they're gone. I just want my freedom so I can live my life like a normal adult, so my anxiety and depression levels can go down, and so that I can get a full night's sleep without my grandfather banging on my door (he doesn't know how to knock) whenever he wants something.

I can't wait for my grandparents to die I can't wait for my grandparents to die, as bad as it sounds...

Abuse, Hate

I have a terrible confession. I hated all my friends and relatives from the time I was a child to today, and I thought I was better then all of them and still do. I always believed I deserved more good things in life then they do, and still do.

I have a terrible confession. I hated all my friends and relatives from the time I was a child to to...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I am sick of being treated less and with disrespect.

Abuse, Hate

human chainsaw turd.

Abuse, Hate

i hope everyone drops out so i can sell the tickets to julie and her friends cuz i originally asked my cousin and her mother took over and said karen doesn't deserve it and i don't want to mix with karman and not happy how the whole things has gone. i am not doing this again with them. its like my brother calling all the women in my mothers family trannies, ugly dogs! they are fire hydrants? etc. sick of peoples rudeness. my aunty saying her granddaughters are violent boyish and mental and as some joke. its not funny. i am sick of people saying shit at me.

i hope everyone drops out so i can sell the tickets to julie and her friends cuz i originally asked ...

Abuse, Hate

I have a bad failure phobia, I sometimes avoid doing exams and take days off school due to fear of looking stupid. we get so bullied for not being perfect and right all the time by teachers and classmates.

I have a bad failure phobia, I sometimes avoid doing exams and take days off school due to fear of l...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

i hope they cancel and i can get a refund or they take all the tickets and pay me for them. I don't really want to go now and I need the money more then loose wasters. not that I am saying she is that sort of person but i dont even know the other one. just had it will false crap.

i hope they cancel and i can get a refund or they take all the tickets and pay me for them. I don't ...

Abuse, Hate

Never quite good enough After keeping myself out of the dating pool for over three years due to betrayal and pain of a previous relationship, I finally put my toe back in. I dated a couple of different guys, and really connected with one. We went on several dates, and seemed to be getting serious...and then he said he met someone else. This is all mundane, and stuff everyone goes through, but it brings back all my feelings of hopelessness, I just want to meet someone better now, while I am fresh, let go of embarrassment of how much I have been abused and hated and wronged, and never being good enough. I don't understand why people love dating, I HATE everything about it, because it makes me hate myself.

Never quite good enough After keeping myself out of the dating pool for over three years due to betr...

Abuse

My wife has maxed out her credit cards again. Then she gets angry that we don't go to fancy dinners, fancy vacations or anything else. I don't want to lose our house over her reckless spending. I do everything I can to cut bills, and live on a shoestring, paying mostly for only things we need (like monthly bills). Is this why people get divorced..to protect themselves from being destroyed b things like this? This is so exhausting to deal with.

My wife has maxed out her credit cards again. Then she gets angry that we don't go to fancy dinners,...

Abuse

people say tony fights from the gutter, so stop it gutter trash.

Abuse, Hate

I Am The World's Beautiful and Terrible, so everyone tells me. So what? Full of pride and lot of ego about my young body at a sweet age of 20 and the prettiest girl on campus. I am a girl who is a freshman year in college. I have a wonderful family, good friends, a great education, and a fantastic life overall and both my parents are the best in the world. I am aware of this and of the opportunities that I have had over the years. Yet every day I feel both overwhelming joy and overwhelming sadness. The world is so foul, so disgusting, and people can be so hateful. My room mate is a racist and other people around me seem so bigoted and cruel. I have met many people here in the past few weeks, but they all seem so superficial and only care about appearances. I am a natural beauty and been modelling since the age of 3 and I have been told I have a great modelling career ahead of me and sometimes I prefer that to school. Some people seem sweet and down to earth, but they are hard to find especially at school and worst in modelling they are much crueler. At the same time, I see so many caring people who try to do good. It leaves me so confused. So many people call them losers for being nice and good people. I go to the park for a jog and I see a lot of sad lonely single young people, single older people and we all live single lives now. My friends and college and work friends rarely mix other then for competes. I want to talk to someone about these feelings, but I can't because when I have tried to voice them, no one seems to understand who I am supposed to be. I know that almost everyone thinks these thoughts, and similar thoughts, so I don't see why people can't talk about them. Like why is life so unfair and lonely and like when you are pretty you are bullied and picked on and left out too, or friends are just using and hurt me after they better me. I feel so out of place, and weird. The guys that I am friends with here clearly think that I am strange but hot and chase me then let me down, and I'm afraid that no guy will ever like me again seriously or notice me unless I go naked so I am considering doing some nude modelling for artists and painters at the near by school of arts. Would any of them notice me, let alone love me beyond what they see and the money is great but my friends say its like being a prostitute but I don't care cuz I have done that since the age of 13 and its great money for sideline things. I had a serious boyfriend in high school and we were deeply in love but once he found out about my Other side/my other personality who when I dress that way and act that way I am another person the prostitute , and I fear that I will never get that again, that no one will think that I am worthwhile. so long as the money comes in for a drug addiction I guess what does it matter. I don't know who to talk to about this stuff. I know that I should just appreciate my incredible life, but sometimes it's hard.

I Am The World's Beautiful and Terrible, so everyone tells me. So what? Full of pride and lot of ego...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

Married Woman Wants My Baby in 2018This fine, tall,28 year old, skinny, married woman asked me for friendship on Facebook weeks ago. I have about 35 friends on FB and majority of them are relatives. I decided not to accept her friendship, but chatted with her. I was born in her native country, and she and I speak the same language. She told me the friendship request was simply a mistake because she does not know me. Upon finding out that she is married, and has one 2 year old son,I decided to seduce her, and asked her to secretly have a baby girl with me. She doubted me at first but after long discussions,she agreed. I have 5 kids by 3 women;two of them are grown,two are under 10 years old and one is an infant.I am not married but live with a gf(she is not the mother of any of my kids),her kids are grown. My plan, for the last few years,has been to have secret kids with married women. I find the idea to be erotic,while at the same time convenient for me. This summer,I am going to take a vacation in her native country and spend time with the mother of my infant child. While there, I would have liked to get the married woman pregnant for sure. But she told me the other day that she does not want to get pregnant till 2018 when her older son starts school.I will patiently wait;maybe she will have s** with me this year. I will support the child financially( I do it for the other 3), but discreetly. I want her husband to unknowingly raise the child as his. The woman has promised to get off the pill when the time comes,and to say nothing to anybody about the nature of her conception or child. I am so turned on and can't wait to accomplish this intimate task. So risque!

Married Woman Wants My Baby in 2018This fine, tall,28 year old, skinny, married woman asked me for ...

Abuse, Hate

I am a woman and I am sick of violent women attacking me for speaking up! or they sexually attack or verbally attack because they seem to think you want their stupid man when you don't. I am really getting sick of this bullying woman who keeps stalking me over a guy I think but not sure. she keeps bullying me, just because I talk or write doesn't mean I am competing with this stupid bitch, can you see how nuts she is and insecure, she is the one getting engaged and married not me. I am allowed to talk about what ever I want. Its not even like I want to know her because I don't. she is so, well, fake and brat and has a very comitted bullying team attacking people for no apparent reason. if you are so confident in your relationship and trust your man stop bullying me you disgusting crude thing! stop bullying me stupid insecure slut!

I am a woman and I am sick of violent women attacking me for speaking up! or they sexually attack or...

Abuse, Hate

self blame! you can't win ken carey stop copying my doctors and vets and using colours to hold on to nothing. how could I even love someone I never had time to know? stop stalking me. police are out to get you. police are going to get all the stalkers and attackers who have abused me. ken carey and joyce poorter and sarina russo etc. your only satanic losers. police are going to get you and punish you. stop stalking me. you have too many people who tell the same story. you can't get away or get out of it. stop stalking or police will get you. no one here wants to know you.

self blame! you can't win ken carey stop copying my doctors and vets and using colours to hold on to...

Abuse, Hate

anne helps husband ken carey to rape virgin women. own up before god punishes you. there are other victims they have spoken to me. we meet up and talk about you. we have our own club. we are everywhere.

anne helps husband ken carey to rape virgin women. own up before god punishes you. there are other v...

Abuse, Hate

ken carey is a killer! blue and yellow cancer wish on victims has been noted. he has victims everywhere while his wife anne raped young males. do not trust this dirty couple who are old ugly and can't turn a tap on let alone a person. they rape and attack victims everywhere. they are into satanic occult evil dirty ways. anne have some balls and own up to your faults and what you did wrong and how you wronged all the women your husband raped and attacked. there are more I have met them. own up anne and ken. your bad news. no way you can get away from what you are and do! your crazy and sick and demonic. your dirty and you are violent and no one wants to know you here. this couple work as a pair abusing victims he told me he has raped heaps of other women and she is in on it. she knows and she helps him. own up. face your guilt!

ken carey is a killer! blue and yellow cancer wish on victims has been noted. he has victims everywh...

Murder, Abuse, Hate, Sex

killer

Abuse, Hate, Sex

self blaming!

Abuse, Hate

so I am not gonna put a ticket in things I don't like. i mean i don't want to live an endless summer to begin with. I like winter more. I hate summer. its all about timing and locations and worth it or not. I don't just enter any holiday prize or other things. it has to something I want otherwise what is the point.

so I am not gonna put a ticket in things I don't like. i mean i don't want to live an endless summer...

Abuse, Hate