Confessions about 'Bu'

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if you don't like you don't like me, I don't have to like anyone and I learnt to turn feelings on and off like switch. just exchange the emotions and play the game. I know most people have never liked me. i still have to live my life.

if you don't like you don't like me, I don't have to like anyone and I learnt to turn feelings on an...

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someone said to me, "shit catherine I wouldn't want to get on the wrong side of you" after I yelled at his train guard but I sort of shocked myself it was just impulsive acting from adreneline the fear that the doors were going to slam on me and the train go and the fact that dad fell out of the train and she failed to do her duty first and formost which is to maintain the integrity of the safety of passengers I went for her and she knew she did the wrong thing. I mean I know I lost it. but I was so angry at her. how is a passenger supposed to know "Oh the whistle was just to entertain a child of 2" like you could have made a public announcement you stupid cow! "oh sorry passengers but ignore the whistle about to go off its just to entertain a child its not a real one" like am I in the twilight fucking zone or what? its like the day the dumb dick at the shops in the rain has mats and wet floor everywhere someone was bound to fall on slipery tiles and maybe the duty of care lies with the shops to not have slippery tiles near a entrence to avoid risks. makes common sense to me. stupid idiots, so I gave them a nice little genuflect when I fell and a finger full of grace when a cab driver got abusive to me. loving moments with me !

someone said to me, "shit catherine I wouldn't want to get on the wrong side of you" after I yelled ...

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i have a low rise to anger the taoist chinese style and get people from behind and wait. i'll get you from behind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tuAkdlLhTE I am still the same cat with those green evil eyes, sometimes green sometimes grey eyes. yeh, I am half evil and half good! human!!!! if you got sense you will stay away. watch out! i don't have feminine ways! i have brehon justice eyes.

i have a low rise to anger the taoist chinese style and get people from behind and wait. i'll get yo...

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i told my mum on the cruise ship when they wanted to search her bag thinking she had alcohol and all it was was a shampoo, I said "mum your not incontrol here on the ship they can say and do what they like and they give an order and you take it and do as you dam well told or they can kick you off, you can get mad all you like and tell them you know there is no alcohol in their but they are just doing a job and they are going to demand you open it up to search it" they are the C's I said, the bastards that rule and dictate bark orders and you have to be gutsy enough to take a order and shut the f up and take it. i spent most of my childhood and life doing that, having law teachers barking at me, and mum had a job of management too young, whereas I know how to take orders and take it. I have had ambulance officers yelling at me, one literally screamed violently at my face inches away to move during expo 88 and i only had about 500 people behind me who wouldn't move so I don't were the whore thought i was supposed to go. I just took it and I could crumble but what is the point. I often cry alone later. you have to get over being bashed and kicked and barked at. see I know how to play the underdog so well unlike so many people around me. but i can give orders and politely and i can take control and demand an action from workers to when i feel its appropriate. i like to get people from behind.

i told my mum on the cruise ship when they wanted to search her bag thinking she had alcohol and all...

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i think accidents in rail way should call ambulance to be on the safe side if a man of 70 or even anyone really falls over they could have had a stroke, a seizure or have injuries later after the shock wares off and to me, it should help cover their ass as well as the passenger, and its one thing to be embarrased over falling over but I wouldn't feel embarrased about something as small as that I have fallen over a few times and just get back up. i mean you have to give up part of your embarrassment and humility to allow others to serve and help you in those situations. and i heard one guy tell the abulance they don't know their profession enough and he has been through what I have being told to stay away so you stop getting help and suffer it out alone and you soon learn when your a bother to others, and I don't think that is a good thing especially when there is a complete hospital grounds going to waste at wynnum that should be used to its maximum capacity and as a normal hosptial with emergency and operating theatres and build up on it to make it bigger to cater for population. I don't understand the state govt. its just madness. I look at common sense!

i think accidents in rail way should call ambulance to be on the safe side if a man of 70 or even an...

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my doctor told me to tell sally off, so I gave her all I had and ripped into her. I didn't like doing it. but it let out some pent up anger in me over old women like her shutting me down all my life and making me feel less and stopping me getting with men i like. so I gave it to her as my doctor told me to. I just did want he said to do. i don't know if it was good or helped me. i even told people to F off, i mean at 43 to be telling choir conductor i admired for her talent only not for the awful person she is, was contriversal and hard but I was about survival not about ego which all of them were about making their CD and I liked making the CD choir religious songs a lot. I just occassionally get angry. like the night the stupid railway woman blew the whistle for the child. i mean railway protocol is that the whistle be blown on when it is ment to be not for a child indulgences and besides she should have seen my father fell out of the train. so I yelled at her i had to to get her to hear me. I had to be strong and i got cranky. a rule is a rule for a reason and no other reason. that is what i was taught in law. i have some eye and hearing problems and yet my general vision pre-dervision or what ever has a wider expressive stance to her and I am ultra alert and hyper-vigilent to awareness and what is going on around me, I should have been a cop or security person cuz I can see in the corner of my eye, you learn to have eyes in the back of your head when you on alarm for danger most of your life. I had to make my point clear to someone who should not be holding down a job, you do it right or you don't do it at all. I could do the job better but I don't care to as I have never had a role in a job with power to give orders and I am a humble person basically. but don't get on the wrong side of me.

my doctor told me to tell sally off, so I gave her all I had and ripped into her. I didn't like doin...

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a-dunny coal mine. I love my sarcasm, that is about all that dull premier can sell she is a used dunny saleswoman. hahaha.

a-dunny coal mine. I love my sarcasm, that is about all that dull premier can sell she is a used dun...

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lauraine is an old bagger who is too old to even have a need or be cared about. someone should shoot it and put it out of its misery. stupid old bag, my mum hates radio people like i hate them and i hate footballers too. I think hate is great. it makes you so strong. and like someone said, "they want your love, dear and you don't want to give it to them, good for you, teach em the lessons they taught you and don't be shy about it" ! I hate everybody but I am a good actor when I sure look like I care. the world taught me to hate and not care. its fun anyway.

lauraine is an old bagger who is too old to even have a need or be cared about. someone should shoot...

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sick of getting passed on over to pssst weak when I want job and someone better.

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I can't stand most of the people in my support group. they are all complaining losers. why can't the issues be solved quicker and easier. if it does for others worse off then us why can't it for us?

I can't stand most of the people in my support group. they are all complaining losers. why can't the...

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I didn't like the place much and I don't want to go to the xmas party. already I can see TM is sick of R hanging around him. he makes that loud and clear. and she has such selective senses like hearing and so on. maybe at a better place then that old fogey joint.

I didn't like the place much and I don't want to go to the xmas party. already I can see TM is sick...

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some things really do go around.

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we don't want them here.

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shows you the blitch the chook cookie is. doesn't even want to have her brother in her house yet the other brother has and cookie is a lazy oaf of a thing. god should never have put breath into. cookie the chook is evil. she can't even help her brother get here and prefers him to stay in asia in her house resort she frauded off burnie the burning arsonist. yeh, great family you have there. and all because of useless alex who thinks he is better then everyone and he should be helping his wife's brother get here. why can't they all fuck off back. she is still just using burnie the burning arsonist for money and house - they are probably having a threesome as we talk right now. evil mental cookie the chook up to her no good stealing other peoples families and homes and welfare cheque. dirty woman. very dirty sick pathetic old women who should be burnt at the stake like the witch she is. only used burnie to get here and take his money. that is clear. fraud witch.

shows you the blitch the chook cookie is. doesn't even want to have her brother in her house yet the...

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shar ways shattered

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my mother is using me. she is taking my money and not honoring me.

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if you are so slow you haven't worked it out yet, my mother does like anyone. and I mean anyone. she is mean to people. I can't blame her however. she hates outsiders and most people.

if you are so slow you haven't worked it out yet, my mother does like anyone. and I mean anyone. she...

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myob nigga

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i was never expelled from school or college or university or sacked from work. so you can say what you like about me but i was super loyal and honest to people and wonder why i have ended up so hurt and left out. like what did I do so wrong hey? look at yourself before you pass judgment on others is what i believe. and keep your noise out of other peoples business and don't bother then with stupid crap they don't want to be part of.

i was never expelled from school or college or university or sacked from work. so you can say what y...

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my mom is a mongrel head witch. she attax me with objects and hits my head against walls and I covered it up for too long. my dad molested me and i was afraid. now i am afraid of this new group at the centre and think they are bad.

my mom is a mongrel head witch. she attax me with objects and hits my head against walls and I cover...

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