Confessions about 'Bu'

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some people are rainbows and others are drainbows like doctors.

Abuse, Hate

I am so sick of all these Dr Drainbow people who are just so annoying and dull and boring. seriously. isn't there more to life, I hate them. dr drainbows.

I am so sick of all these Dr Drainbow people who are just so annoying and dull and boring. seriously...

Abuse, Hate

you are all going to get the punishment coming to you!

Abuse, Hate

My life. My step mom Shelly told me that as a christian that being a lesbian is wrong. I'm 17 and the church means everything to me. I'm in the choir, youth group and do regular bible studies. But Shelly believes that me being a lesbian is harmful and sinful. Her daughter Amy agrees with her. In fact the rest of the family including her husband, David believes that they should take me to church and have several male members correct me. Such as corrective rape. Shelly has come to my room lots of times trying to convince me to willingly go with her to the church. She said that she would also consider drugging me. Like putting sleep medicine in my juice to put me to sleep. She told me if I don't let them help me or if I run away I'd be making it worse on myself. She told me that hypnosis is also a last resort opportunity too. I'm scared because I don't want to be raped because of who I am. I was surprised that I could even use their computer to write this. :(

My life. My step mom Shelly told me that as a christian that being a lesbian is wrong. I'm 17 and t...

Lie, Abuse

joyce spent years judging the crap about everyone around her. skited about fucking other women clients while married and also gossiping about her clients to other clients and anyone which is a breach of all forms of confidentiality and professionalism. I dont have to be professional I choose to have some ethics about me, but for sure I will speak up when people slag on me. if you want to follow a mental idiot go ahead. don't say you were not warned, she has a lot of people she has hurt. I know cuz they have talked to me.

joyce spent years judging the crap about everyone around her. skited about fucking other women clien...

Abuse, Hate

I have a problem. I have had many girlfriends in my life, but I only ever passionately fell head-over-heels in love with one. We met 15 years ago, when I was in my late 20s and she was in her early 20s. We were simply perfect for each other, we loved each other, and we would definitely have got married if it wasn't for one major problem. She was already married and had a small child. When her stupid religious parents learnt she was pregnant, they forced her to marry against her will. This was to save face and stop their family being shamed. By doing that, her parents ruined her life, and maybe mine. We were only together for about one year, but what an intense and passionate year for both of us. We were best friends. We made each other laugh. We made love incessantly, it was the best sex I had ever had and to this day it still remains the best I have ever had. I begged her to leave her husband and come to me. I promised her the world. I would have had no problem being a father to her child. Money shouldn't be a problem no matter how rich or poor a couple is, but I was actually quite well off, so money was definitely not a problem. I told her I would do whatever it took to be with her. We could start again in a new city. I could completely change my life. I didn't care, all I wanted was to be with her. Actually, I was a little bit too desperate. Ok, maybe quite a lot too desperate! But I had never felt such passion before. She very nearly did it. We even looked around at houses and child care. We talked about it. But the family and religious pressure was too strong. Her parents (and her husband's parents) found out. They had a "meeting", like an intervention, and threatened her. It shits me that no-one (except me) cared about her happiness, they only cared about "what the neighbours will say" and how they look to their friends. Talk about fucked up priorities (excuse the language). She disappeared. I desperately tried to find her, but she ran away from it all. After we broke up we had no absolutely no contact for a few years, but then somehow it started again. Now we see each other about once or twice a year, but when we do we almost always end up making love passionately. I don't penetrate her, but we do everything but. Maybe that's my way of convincing myself I'm not doing something wrong. It's the best sex I've ever had. There's just something about her. She's not the hot little thing she was 15 years ago, but she's still very attractive and I just don't care what she looks like. She gives me the most intense orgasms I've ever had, and I do the same for her. She literally screams out loud, grabs the sheets and curls her toes when she cums. We joke that we "use each other for sex", but we know it is a joke. I feel this might go on our whole lives, our attraction is so strong. Maybe I'll still be making love to her when we are in our 60s? Who knows. My feelings when I am with her are just as strong as they ever were. Strangely, when I am NOT with her, I don't think about her much, I have a completely separate life to lead. She is still married to this dweeb who got her pregnant all those years ago. Their marriage is totally loveless. Apart from her shitty "husband", who treats her like crap, I'm the only man she's ever slept with. Other guys chase her and she's had a few dabbles, but she says she's already had enough drama and problems in her life, so she doesn't go through with it. She "sleeps" with her husband but she just grins and bears it as her "duty". She hates having sex with him. She says it hurts. They actually sleep in separate beds and are like housemates, not husband and wife. They now have three children. At one stage she thought the middle child could be mine, but it isn't (much as I sometimes wish it was). I know it's very wrong, but we both fantasize about him somehow dying. But that would be taking away the kids' father, and I wouldn't want that. This is not my only problem. There's more. I met another girl, and very very slowly over seven years we have become boyfriend and girlfriend. She thought were were in a relationship from the start, but for me it took a lot longer. But now, today, I think she's lovely. She's wonderful. She does everything you could possibly ask a girlfriend to do. BUT - there's something missing. A spark, a passion. I don't know what it is. But it's missing. This girl ticks all the boxes, but doesn't tick the X-factor box. She hasn't got the je ne sais quoi. But we're really close. We understand each other, she knows everything about me and I know everything about her. We've been through a lot together. We go places as a couple. We ARE a couple. Maybe I am being unfair and way too picky. This girl has done everything right and I was actually not that nice to her at the start, but over time we become very very solid together, and my feelings for her grew. My feelings for her are somewhere half way between those of a boyfriend for his girlfriend, and those of a brother for his sister. I know that sounds creepy, but all I am trying to say is that there is a strong element of platonic friendship and protection there, as well as a healthy dose of sexual attraction. But not the unbridled passion I experienced with the first girl. After seven years, and now that I am in my mid 40s (God that sounds so old), it's definitely time to ask the second girl to marry me. It's overdue in fact. She wants kids, and so do I. I know I'll never be with the first girl. But I'm stuck. I don't know what to do. I still secretly see the first girl once or twice a year. Seeing her while I am boyfriend with the second girl is the act of an asshole, I know that. But seeing her while I am married? Way worse. I SHOULD end it with the first girl and marry the second girl. But I am terrified the passion associate with the first girl will return (or never leave). I don't know what to do. I'm wracked with guilt.

I have a problem. I have had many girlfriends in my life, but I only ever passionately fell head-ov...

Adultery, Pride, Abuse, Violence, Marriage

I am cheating on my wife. I am 49, she is 6 months younger than I am, we have been married for 20+ years. The first 10 or 12 years were good. We had sex 3-4 times a week and usually more than once at each sitting. Then she started going through menopause early at about 32 years old. Sex fell off to about once a month if I pester her enough. I started looking online for at dating sights and CL. Real relief came from a co-worker. I would have lunch with her once in a while, she wasn't happy with sex at home, I wasn't happy. We get together once a week for an extended lunch or tell our respective spouses we have to work a little late and spend a few hours at our hiding place and have wonderful sex. I don't feel guilty, I am just getting my needs taken care of by someone who wants to be intimate. I wish the situation were different because I love my wife but she doesn't appear to be interested in my needs.

I am cheating on my wife. I am 49, she is 6 months younger than I am, we have been married for 20+ ...

Adultery, Abuse, Marriage

problematic elite complex and carefully crafted community that bugsy and other scum have done, its being caught up in "narc" and I knew I had to let go on so many people to tell them off out of my life because of their toxic overloading ! one day you stop believing in people, in the system and royals and fantasies and you grow up from their toxic drain overload cosemtic crafted worlds of the who is in and who is out crowd and I don't give a dam about anyone but me. you taught me that. so lets move on.

problematic elite complex and carefully crafted community that bugsy and other scum have done, its b...

Abuse, Hate

like gurrrl the lies your able to sell are priceless, joyce! cuz I never heard one new thing out of your mouth for years of so called 'therapy" same old comforting lie til I was shaken out of it but a friend.

like gurrrl the lies your able to sell are priceless, joyce! cuz I never heard one new thing out of ...

Abuse, Hate

i never wanted to come on the net and say all this but had to as I have had no other support at all for the last 17 years, i had my first holiday in 17 years because i am so financially struggling most of my life and others make out their so poor but are the poor rich bugger me sydrome people. like ros, poor rich millionaire bugger me ros!

i never wanted to come on the net and say all this but had to as I have had no other support at all ...

Abuse, Hate

all joyce wants to do is act insane and wanting to be jail raped in marriages after marriages like a stupid cow stealing other peoples stories and nightmare/dream journal is pretty low and wanting to live shit out is really sick. yeh you are more sick then you know joyce. seriously. and you can stop the torture games at me when your the biggest fake ass user of your clients, your just out there for yourself to be the sex godess all the time and never give someone else a go and you try to push really nice girls off to retarted ugly spastic unintelligent men who you think they were worth and you like making your female clients who came to you with more going for them before they met you as look useless and I was warned about you by a male therapist at raby bay before I even met you. and I can see why he said what a low life scuz you are how you steal other girls victimology as part of your psychodrama therapy and then call it your own history for sympathy and pity and part of your narcisstic personality and disrespect for other women and real victims of long term complex abuse that you have no understanding of because all you care about is the power to say "oh this woman doesn't deserve this money or house or clothes or job or man because ...bla bla bla" and then you run to some chink in the congo or where ever to somehow you think you are teaching lessons to women that you decide are just sorry for themselves and can't differentiate individual cases and you discredit people to make most of any of your clients that stand up against your "guru godess" status you want as crazy and hatespeak people when you are the most abusive person and its only afterwards people realise they have been scammed by you. I knew nothing about you but my guess is you knew more about me and you read diaries with that mongrel pig painter who is the scum shit of the earth who should die in the hell he has created screwing in peoples spiritual realm and playing other teens sanity messing with someones mental health is low act and all he wants is sex and power italian marfia style and about wanting to demise me, out of jealousy and piggery. so yeh if you go with that way of life and what diana and others like bugsy did to me, but I chose to distance myself and never be sucked in and I can't support you, you don't treat people like this, you don't treat anyone like this. and this is your lesson to learn. not mine! your just playing in other people's sanity for your hollywood fun which is sicko stuff. what you project is what you will get back is not about reading a kids private diary and dream journal and using it against them. like go take your shit abuse on others and do some soul searching and I have been told i deserve infinity love from better people who show more respect and who dont terrorize people with what their nightmares are about. seriously you wake up! and you can't abuse and harrase and threatened women and victims of crime and if all you have on me is what i did as a 4 year old or 10 year old compared to your scuz shit well you will get the truth bombs at you!!! you don't treat people like that and say "oh , but I care" you stand up and say it face to face and try to understand if your paid to as a therapist not rattle peoples brains out with your alpha complex power play toxic shock-arama-dramas!!!!!!!!!

all joyce wants to do is act insane and wanting to be jail raped in marriages after marriages like a...

Abuse, Hate

back story, you can stick that barmaid townsvile tart hair dressor fertility whore hooker who if I see that dog ever again I wish to slam her face in. we are not going there again. dirty animal she is. she is going to ruin that business because she is nuts and a old 60 year old scuz dog! who abuses people and cunting shred she can stick up her ass that is on her face! unreligious sick woman.

back story, you can stick that barmaid townsvile tart hair dressor fertility whore hooker who if I s...

Abuse, Hate

leigh morris was soliciting and manipulating putting rubbish in quest entrants girls heads - like what ken did to me would have been her idea of a hot night because all she can see is her own skanky toxic cunt needs and things its everyone else;s. I met skanks like this. she had no way of know which girls were virgins who was not and the fact is here she was a woman of 50 been married bonked round like a tooter rooter whore everywhere and what she did was wrong, like I think some people , serious some people sicken me so bad. how they live with themselves and leigh you have 1 mouth and 1 cunt to shut it up more and 2 ears and 2 eyes to use them with integrity which you lack deeply and your assing off all your hot air on ship at pretty young woman of 19 -28 to do be with foolies who you think are hot cuz you can't see you have different needs then those girls and me. your skank ass like sally and joyce. freeloading skank manipulating and playing games. what you need to learn and what men need to learn is how to step aside for single men to have a go. i never wanted to be with a spastic retarted scuz like ken. you mental toxic useless dog. people know where i stand with this and the harm you had no right inflicting.

leigh morris was soliciting and manipulating putting rubbish in quest entrants girls heads - like wh...

Abuse, Hate

prison vetran hardass in the officers mess but server agraphobic stealing other peoples history has to be the lowest thing and that was when i disrespected you all joyce. your over. a facebook vapor trail master manipulator joyce who cons her way through life like a skany assed whore. cant cut the cheese in the real life and why she has no long term places other then what she knows where she knows she can scam.

prison vetran hardass in the officers mess but server agraphobic stealing other peoples history has ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

all i saw from db was a insecure guy who pushes down kids and then uses his fans to cover his ass and like 'oh I should be afraid of your fans' well I am not. i never asked to to fuck in my life, i can say what i like about any one, truthbomb that is it. lowsey and lundsy know better. I learnt to take a hit with dignity which you never did and its got nothing to do with dory fish drunk tank and her hard ass attackers I never asked for your bs. and karen is going to come down for any lies she has faked out about me. she is all about persona and cop dick swinging with daughter for cock ros-cock and bull gay girl mother of hers anyway.

all i saw from db was a insecure guy who pushes down kids and then uses his fans to cover his ass an...

Abuse, Hate

too alfa too beta too delta to be worth my time or heart or your level of consciousness.

Abuse

for all the money i paid you joyce and other therapist scum what have you really done for me? i went out of my way to meet you, and work on myself to be better. i can name a few things i have done for you and we will get into them soon but, i put in hours into improving my self with support group after support group, self help books and courses and just because i reject some poofter wooser yes wooser ossser! drunk married old pig from the navy, I am a peaceful with myself, but people i can't hold it in any more that you kunts are just keyboard salad and not a good bloke. two faces and serious shades of scum! i own who I am but do you? i spoke to a friend about this and she told me to rise above it don't stoop to the fakery of others at the top!

for all the money i paid you joyce and other therapist scum what have you really done for me? i went...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i am not virtue signalling this is me, I care about abused women who can't find love and work. so sorry if that rubbs you up the wrong way but that is me. i don't have the marfia mind joyce is about and how she hurts women selfishly and she has no courage what she does on the net to do in real life. trying to be someone your not and making money out of victims of crime !!!

i am not virtue signalling this is me, I care about abused women who can't find love and work. so so...

Abuse, Hate

the way you conduct yourself is why i lost respect for you joyce and i am not accountable for what or how others used my diaries they stole, if they abused you its because your a toxic bitch who pulls this cunt shit of "you only give yourself what you think your worth" well darl, what have you really contributed ? your a fraud with your bank and should be in jail for all your fraud games that is non-stop. your making a mockery of therapy and you don't know any justice. your a scum rotten person. manipulator bitch dog! you jealous of me being on unemployment and on disability pensions and not like it is any of your business what did you ever do joyce? liar scammer, always was this ego shit fame facebook bullshit.

the way you conduct yourself is why i lost respect for you joyce and i am not accountable for what o...

Abuse, Hate

i will talk all you like but I won't fight! I don't do violence. but enough watching others psycho dramas now and then for a laugh at others egos and let everything go. I lost respect for heaps of people ages ago. I walk away from most things that have been important to me due to others abuse. look at my content. and also you learn in life nothing matters. I learnt that at 25 nothing matters. and the biggest insult was when my nephew gave me a mothers day present adding insult to injury even though I'm guessing or give him benefit of the doubt that he ment well but I am done with people and I love watching others egos burn and jokering ! cuz there are a lot of jokers, scammers and people who never show up to their human side like I have. I am the girl no one ever knew and i will be that til the day I die. you don't know me. I resonate with no-one. just making my own sense. just smash in my fitness and myself. but unlike most selfish whore dog sluts who have been fucked and whored everywhere by husbands and men, I long for human company. the most powerful thing happened to me the other day when this model like blonde professional lady hugged me and later I cried cuz she was so nice and she has no man can't find a man like me. i don't want to talk about it. its personal. I am not gay. but sometimes I think i should be. but I am not. there were things we said to each other and shared some stories and I get hurt seeing great women being let down by the world, you don't cut your friends and family like that. or my friends, that is why i lost respect for all my relatives and brother and other people. so lost and manipulated fake ass games, and I am not perfect never said I was, that was why i always went to therapy and got help which was actually the worst thing i ever did. lets go through them. all the scum therapist that have taken me down. and serious, the people who are getting sex and relationships and weddings and babies and jobs are the people who just take constant action multiple lovers and its the idiots who go to therapy, the action people who just fuck and make money and walk over people full of toxic vagina and dick, because they just go one and move on. its all about heat. leaving your own heat. its honest losers who go to therapy and get help and the therapists dump on you and call you a dog and turn on you and i wish i had listened to the warnings by other therapists about joyce. cuz she has a lot of haters. i honest to her and she fucked me around like a skull of meat for her to eat out of. projecting and its what you get back. the people who have hated the people who abused me. they wonder why? I am much more careful about the company I keep now.

i will talk all you like but I won't fight! I don't do violence. but enough watching others psycho d...

Abuse