Confessions about 'Bu'

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I hate my fanatic religious grandmother, right. Today, my very religious grandmother walked in on me masturbating. She's sending me to bible camp.

I hate my fanatic religious grandmother, right. Today, my very religious grandmother walked in on me...

Abuse, Blasphemy

Another World: Epilogue ...nothing far-fetched. Many of those who invested themselves into this... joyride... wouldn't have the chance to redeem the life they abandoned for the sake of discovery, for the sake of... knowledge, perhaps. Frankly, the motives of the volunteers just don't make any sense. They abandon, literally, everything... just for the sake of experiencing the life as alien beings on the planets that proved to be extremely hostile to the very definition of diversity. But then, the growth, "the upgrade" their energy blueprints receive after such experiences... make them nearly invincible, make them equal to gods, in a way. They become, as the beings from the twin planet formulated it aeons ago, the particles of existence. They could, as these beings claimed, become the masters of the observable universe. But, given their refined nature... the volunteers are not interested in any kind of "power", except the power to create. They become Architects. The beings working with the timelines, in the most scrupulous way. They cannot operate within the lower-dimensional realm any more, so they are forced to do the maintenance work either using the new volunteers, or... taking over the biological systems that are suitable for the tasks within their to-do lists. Would you like to become a god? Then prepare... "...to embrace the unseen and unforeseen. The motto of The Gateway project. Farewell the Red Star... and greetings, Sol. Frankly, projecting to Gaia is a very risky business, due to enormous interference of the area enveloping the star system. But, what choice do I have? The point of no return was passed after I gave my explicit consent to The Gateway. Now, everything I have to do is wait..." You are to become one of the Architects. You, Ez-Kha-Nu-Kha, the resident of the Fairlight urban area, gave your consent to The Gateway for manipulation of your energy blueprint for the purpose of projection, as well as for all the purposes described within the customized procedure for the projection. You are given the right to opt out of the participation in the transmission as well. Before the initial stages of the procedure are commenced, you are free to leave the Red Star system in order to explore the observable universe in the vehicle provided to you, if you wish so. The procedure will commence upon the registration of your return to the Fairlight urban area. "...of course, I took full advantage of my rights, given that I might never get such a chance again. I travelled quite a lot. There will be a proper time for the revelations about my trips and about my true motives for the projection as well... right now I must prepare..." *** The gaps between the relay systems widen and close, moving south. The gas giants of the Red Star system drift lazily without any destination or purpose, leaving transitory patches of pink in the orange sky of the urban area. Nothing in the atmosphere of the new day in Fairlight reveals that the Antares routing centre reported about massive deviations within The Gateway procedures. It is currently unknown whose procedures were affected most. Due to the procedures being extremely rigid, the setbacks within the schedules could put the entire procedures in jeopardy. "...I was informed about the deviations, but I didn't have any choice. My time has come. The implants restricting telecommunication abilities, including telepathy, were activated the very same day. The preparations for the projection went by flawlessly. I started to prepare, as they say, for the unseen... and for the unforeseen as well..."

Another World: Epilogue ...nothing far-fetched. Many of those who invested themselves into this... ...

Lie, Abuse

i want to find a new doctor that specializes in my issues, I see a specialist who doesn't ask the right questions and is not helping me. I need to find a new one. afterall its been several years seeing him by now my life should be better if he is that good and worth the money the spends on him. so I was told to find someone better, someone young and more specialised in my area of issues. he doesn't know how to help right.

i want to find a new doctor that specializes in my issues, I see a specialist who doesn't ask the ri...

Abuse

ken the rapist has tried this dirty mania "lovebombing" is as bad as a crazy terrorist, at me and anyone can see through it. other times he is just out and out bullying. if he wants me to be enjoying my life it means him removing himself away and not going on the sites i go on. i don't love him and never did love him and never could love him. he made it clear to me he didn't love me and he would never leave anne, his wife. I am not anne. i don't love ken and never felt a positve feeling about him. the whole time I was around him it was disgusting and he made me sick. what he has to understand is, I don't want him love. it means nothing to me. its not because i can't let in love, I want someone elses love. someone better suited to me. you can't rape a woman and go away for 17 years and make out your mad in love with her when you didn't even get me any medical treatment when I collapsed and needed medical help. if he really loved me nothing would stop him coming to my door every day and every night. i just couldn't love someone who was as dirty as him. it was not nice sex. it was awful, and now he wants to championship me, that is a joke coming from a criminal that he is and his defiant personality disorder he clearly has had all his life and all this stupid sick dirty rapeo champion lovebombing is all part of the abuse cycle I was told by a counsellor. that he will not change. he can promise he is a better man and he has changed but he has not changed and he will only get worse. he doesn't love you, the counsellor/lawyer said to me, and if he got with you he would commit domestic violence on you, it all about powerplay for him, the lovebombing is part of the cycle difiant disassociated reference schiztos do, the doctor said, he will never treat you right and you cant even compare the time with ken with other real men and by no means can it be a real romance in past or present or future tense. he is a rapist. he does this to many women. I don't feel less, I don't get there saying to myself "I don't feel like oh, if I had more self confidence I could believe a man like that could love me", a man like that? well what sort of man was he? he was fat, skinhead ugly, weird teeth, he stank, he was terrible at all sex acts infact it made me sick. he was just vomit, its not like he was good looking or caring, he had no warmth, he was a cold slab of cement personality. we had nothing in common at all. I never wanted a military man and I don't ever saw myself being with one. i can't relate to their way of thinking. they are taught to kill, they ambush lovers, and people don't like that. they don't get that because they are locked into a mind set that is about force and power. he was boring, controlling, I was not allowed to hum to music on the radio, I was not allowed to have a past or talk about my past before meeting him. he was a control freak loser. i was not allowed to talk about the death threats in the parcel. he actually thought i was crying when he left in melborne. when infact, i couldn't wait for him to leave so i could shower the smell of him off me. and i loathed his dirty slimely ugly stinky sperm. that made me want to puke. I hated this body odour and aftershave. I hated his skin and unshaken prickly face. I didn't like his personality. he was boring and dull. he was a knowall, thought he was teaching me something, and wanting me to believe he was helping me advance my confidence to get on a plane, as if he should care and as if it helped me? i mean if he wanted to be so helpful why wasn't he around when my mum had cancer and my sister was having shock treatment again and I had illness and injuries? the con job has gone too far. no one will believe this loser and retard. he couldn't even sexually give me what i needed, he didn't sexually turn me on. he was annoying, leigh m was the one who forced and pushed the whole thing and she is the bad person here. leigh had a duty of care to me, and she wronged me, like everyone else. it wouldn't matter what money ken had, what car or what he looked like, no married man with kids should ever rape a virgin and user her the way he used me. its so immoral. I liked frank way better I wish i had of met frank before rick and ken. but i was afraid i had hiv aids from the rape with dirty ken. I didn't get with frank due to kelly axis or something colleges not giving me my diploma. because if frank and i had got our diplomas and graduated together i would have been able to keep up with him, but the college let me down. then I met other guys i really liked, ken has to understand i want other men sexually. i want romance and affection from other men. i never wanted ken as a friend or as a sexual partner. i felt i deserved better then ken. i was single and pretty and i deserved my own fresh innocent lovely romance with someone amazing, it wouldn't worried me if i had got with a virgin male. i liked a lot of guys since and ken has to learn to let go so i can find the love I deserve, the life i deserve that does not include him in it! he gave me nothing but illness. I was afraid of him and i even thought the death threats came from him as a con game to make me afraid and then he was telling me to shut up about it and so was doret. then over time i thought about a lot of things being alone and not having work , its been frustrating as i have wanted to work and be married back decades ago. i wanted to be a mother and the film group and ken and joyce and doret were forcing their value systems on me that i didn't want. i wanted a love of my own that is not about ken or rick or anyone from my past who were so abusive and stupid. I had a standard and rick, russel and ken and a lot of men didn't live up to that standard. and i have never been allowed in the social circles to meet the men I want to met, stopped from having income and a career and friends, and that is not going to make me love ken any better. it just makes me worse. my parents are not going to ever like ken just like they don't like rick or russel. i would have gone out with a nice guy who was a servant or anything if he was a nice person and ken never was a nice person. i was pushed with him and I don't want to be pushed with someone like him ever again. i want to be with the men i like. i want to be around the men i like i want the body i want. i was thin and pretty i wanted a man who was the mirror image of me in 1999 and 2000-2005 or even in 1990. not the opposite. i am sick of weird men being pushed on me that i have nothing in common with. age differences too far apart and that just won't work. i want to be around people who value what i value. like what i like, it doesn't have to be in all things it just has to be in most things. i don't want to be around losers and criminals and uncoathe people anymore. that was never me in the first place!

ken the rapist has tried this dirty mania "lovebombing" is as bad as a crazy terrorist, at me and an...

Abuse, Hate

I am turning 40 years now married but my wife does not want to exploit sex, I am always frustrated and never enjoyed sex.. I am always longing for experience women to fuck and have an awesome some.. and that is pushing to go out but I just it does not seems alright.. I am so confused.. tried to engage a sexual debated she shuts me out and seems never interested. harb dark bits for sure. for sure for sure!

I am turning 40 years now married but my wife does not want to exploit sex, I am always frustrated a...

Abuse, Hate

i hate boy george and I was never a fan of his, he was up on a charge for straping a man attacking him, and the guy is a cunt loser pig bully faggot. gays are some of the worst bullies as are black people and married people who are the "ooca" types. but gay men can be violent just like lesbians. I can't stand ellen show. she looks a violent woman. i bet she bullies women into her lesbo seductions and if they resist she attacks them. I don't like boy george for what he did to a person attacking them like that. I don't like boy george music at all. I am so sick of hearing that song "I want someone to love me" and how it goes on "no one is going to save my life" I wouldn't expect any cunt slut selfish whore on this planet to give a ace fuck about my feelings ! I wouldn't expect a dirty whore niggar or any fuckface mf bastard on this earth to care about this old dog! but stop playing music from a violent satanic freak who doesnt deserve to be on any radio or show or subjecting audiences anywhere hearing that sort of shit from a dirty violent criminal who was guilty of attacking some S&M violent act he did to some person. NO I EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT BOY GEORGE. BUT I WOULDN'T EXPECT ONE FUCK DICK OF CUNT OR NIGGERYPOOP SKIN OR ANY WORKING ASS RICH CUNTHOLE MALE OR FEMALE TO FUCKING SAVE MY LIFE BECAUSE YOUR TOO SELFISH TO. I SURE AS HELL WOULDN'T EXPECT A DIRTY UGLY SPOILT LAZY RUDE ROYAL TO SAVE MY LIFE. YOU JUST ALL NEED A KICK UP THE BUM AND SOME BASH UPS AND TO BE IGNORED TO SHOW YOU HOW IT FEELS TO BE LEFT OUT AND HAVE NO MAN, I AM A WOMAN AND NOT A MAN. BUT WOULD YOU GIVE A FUCKING CARE ABOUT MY FEELINGS? NO! SO DON'T EXPECT ME TO CARE ABOUT YOUR APE ASS NIGGAR FEELINGS AND DOG SLUT CUNTACTION WHORING. YOU DIRTY WHORE DOGS FUCK WHORE HOLES. YOU WANNA BE A BULLY GO AHEAD AND TAKE IT TO YOUR COFFINS ANYWAY. IDON'TWANTSOMEONETOLOVEMEIFYOUPLAYTHESEGAMESONME.

i hate boy george and I was never a fan of his, he was up on a charge for straping a man attacking h...

Abuse

"no ones gonna save my life " boy george, well I wouldn't expect any royal slut kate to save my life she is so selfish!

"no ones gonna save my life " boy george, well I wouldn't expect any royal slut kate to save my life...

Abuse, Hate

incest is a primary school teacher bullying

Abuse

please ban this site its full of bullies. http://rantrampage.com/index.html secretsannon.com rawconfessions.com noteful.com all troll bully sites people bully for no reason on these sites and they don't help anyone. many people have been campaigning to ban these sites as they are full of trollpower who think "victim generation" is a real thing rather then bullying as wrong. so that says something! the bullies are winning. the bullies even seem to want to be loved more and sexed up, with a take pity on the bully campaign . why should a bully be sexed up and pandy poxed to??

please ban this site its full of bullies. http://rantrampage.com/index.html secretsannon.com rawcon...

Abuse, Hate

teacher and adults would not help a girl getting bullied. So my little sister use to talk to this guy and they became really close friends. When he started catching feelings for her, she didn't see him as a "bf" type so she would friend zone him. He got mad and started spreading rumors and talking bad about my sister to these other people to get them onto his side. They all went to his side and started bullying my sister but one day this girl and her friends of the guy desided to push my sister and basically harassed her. They all took turns pushing my sister and i found out when i was picking her up, i saw her crying and she told me what happend. I got so mad i went up to the front office of the school and decided to take matters into my own hands. I went into the front office and a lady came out and ask what can she help me with. (at this time, i looked really lazy and ugly like i had on tights and a baggy shirt) so i told the lady oh can i speak to the prinpile plz and she said y and i said because my sister is getting bullied at school. TELL ME Y THIS LADY DID NOT ASK IF MY SISTER WAS OKAY OR ANYTHIGN SHE LITERALLY SAID ARE U THE PARENT OR GAURDIAN? i said no but i am her older sister so can i talk to the principle or not? she goes on to say "u cant talk to the principle if a parent or gaurdian isnt here so come back here next time when u bring an adult with u". that right there struck me so hard because 1. YOU'RE A TEACHER/ADULT AND I RMR THAT IF SOMEONE IS BEING BULLIED YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO TELL AN ADULT, 2. how are u gonna brush it off and not take into consideration THAT A STUDENT FROM THIS SCHOOL IS BEING BULLIED 3. it deosent matter who i am to her wat matters is ur not being serious aboout this and someone can get really hurt. I didnt want to start a scene because there was alot of teachers and parents in the office already so i looked at her and said "okay ill see u on monday". Idk if it was because of my background or because i didtn look professional or old enough but that shouldnt matter because wat matters is the child getting bullied. She basically kicked me and my sister out of the school. Idk if i should email the school district about this lady or just let it slide because i really do want her to get fired TBH. What she did is so messed up and irrational. Like how would u feel if ur kid is getting bullied and the school basically said we cant help u because of the way u look. I want to tell the school disrict but i dont want to cuz such a huge scene where it will consits of a lawyer or police or something like that.

teacher and adults would not help a girl getting bullied. So my little sister use to talk to this g...

Abuse, Hate

firsty, I am nothing like doret, she had 4 or more kids when I met her and was an expereinced whore slutting pig, she didn't teach me massage or reiki or anything other then showing me her selfishness and inability to have genuineess or empathy for her clients/friends so she was a lot like joyce in that way. A USER who went off smerking and taking advantage of me. I keep worrying to think when will this stop, I wanted to get back to university and move on to better things but like sally and emma and katy these women are so selfish so self driven they abused me. I wish I had a friend like fat fuck bec who was prepared to lie and attack and threaten me for katy's sake to get a man. I wish I had a friend like that alison my sister had who helped convince david to marry her. if only I could find the perfect man!

firsty, I am nothing like doret, she had 4 or more kids when I met her and was an expereinced whore ...

Abuse, Hate

waste money and I want to stop wasting money and time when so many other valuable things could be done.

waste money and I want to stop wasting money and time when so many other valuable things could be do...

Abuse, Hate

i have no life. tried to join a social group and they said no one wants to mix with each other. what stupid group!

i have no life. tried to join a social group and they said no one wants to mix with each other. what...

Abuse, Hate

my friends are assholes One of my closest friends is an asshole, lets just put it at that. When they want something, they ask me ever so nicely, and me being the person I am, I'm much too afraid to say no, so I just do what they want. Yet, when I need something, or a small favor done, they stick up their noses and say something along the lines of "Why? It's not like you do anything for me." Like, I do so many things for you, and now you won't even help me once?? My other friend is not as selfish as the first. I help them, they help me. Simple as that. However, they are better, but not that much better. They come from a rich family, and have a large house, much larger than my own. They basically have all the new technology. If a new iPhone comes out, they have it, while I'm stuck with an older Samsung. Yes, I'm grateful I even have a phone, but I wouldn't mind so much if they didn't act so spoiled. They have a super expensive laptop that was given to her just last week and when I asked them about the price, they were like "It was only $! Can you believe it?! It's so cheap! I can't believe my mom bought me something as bad as this." (Yes, her parents bought it for her). I just wanted to punch them so badly because while they're complaining about an amazing laptop, I only have a brand that I've kept in good condition for the past two years. She also refuses to do any housework. Whenever I go over, her place is a mess, and she tells me to do clean her house up because apparently 'she doesn't want to ruin her skin'. And I actually do it because I can't stand how dirty her place is. There's one thing in common with my two close friends though. Gifts. I know I shouldn't make such a big deal out of this, but I've known the two since elementary school to now. And not once have they ever gotten me a gift for Christmas, or my birthday, despite being friends for more than a decade. I've gotten them gifts ever since I've met them back in Grade 2, and the one time I didn't they were like "Wow! [Name], you didn't buy us stuff for Christmas?! You're such an asshole." Why am I even friends with them?! Well, I have one thing to say to you guys. Fuck you.

my friends are assholes One of my closest friends is an asshole, lets just put it at that. When the...

Abuse, Hate

Goodbye SAMSUNG crap Was chasing down a trackpad issue on a Chromebook with Samsung since November. I gave up. Samsung won. My final rant to Samsung Support is below. Please share my experience. The adds on TV are compelling but who uses that crap. You are saving much hassle avoiding Samsung products in my opinion! To Samsung Support: I love the fact that no one cares that I'm had an issue with a Samsung product that was under warranty. It now is not. I take this as a sign that I should LAUGH when I see the Samsung attack commercials on TV. Go Apple. I got rid of my crappy Android Samsung phones this month in favor of iPhone 5C. Go after FEATURE benefits all you want. At the end of the day Apple gets the EMOTIONAL benefits a product must have. It must work right the first time, be easy to learn and use, and have a long trouble free life. Why aren't your commercials talking about that - OH BECAUSE YOU DON'T OFFER THAT EXPERIENCE. Goodbye Samsung Android phones (all 5). Goodbye Samsung Chromebooks (all 3). Google Chrome runs amazingly well on the five new iPhone 5c and the three iPads in the house.

Goodbye SAMSUNG crap Was chasing down a trackpad issue on a Chromebook with Samsung since November....

Abuse, Hate

i know you are an incest freak but could you stop bothering others with it please.

Abuse, Hate

#WIRE MOTHERS OF THE WORLD# HUMAN WIRE MOTHER SYNDROME# #WIRE NUNS# #WIRE TEACHERS# #WIRE MEDIA# #WIRE LOVERS# #WIRE FIRE# #BARBIE WIRES# https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OrNBEhzjg8I https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_O60TYAIgC4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFsHSHE-iJQ All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles it's a very very mad world mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy birthday, happy birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles it's a very very Mad world, world Enlarge your world Mad world #WIRE MUSIC# #WIRE WIRE#

#WIRE MOTHERS OF THE WORLD# HUMAN WIRE MOTHER SYNDROME# #WIRE NUNS# #WIRE TEACHERS# #WIRE MEDIA# #WI...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

i have requested over and over I want a no contact policy with royals and that means I want the media to not talk about them around me, like i shouldn't have to put up with them on the radio or tv at gym or constantly in the news when they have abused me so much. its not nice having to see over and over people being rewarded for being bullies and abusive and rude towards me. and i doubt i am the only victim of these scum royal dirt bags. i don't like kate and william or the queen or harry or charles and andrew and the whole uk royal dirty lot and i don't have to like their whores! they marry when they are just tax bludging users and rude evil people. the queen and william are a dirty pair who and diana was a nutter and evil and they won't be my king or queen and i won't respect them and my parents don't respect or like them. i used to respect and like them and have souvenigners but since they abused me for all these years I think they are the lowest scum and there is no question in my mind that harry and william and the queen got ken carey to rape me from hms melville and joyce poorter to abuse me in her therapy. they refuse to acknowledge that i was the victim of child sexual abuse and rape and assaults and illness and stalkers like bunnypoeta and I find that disgraceful. I don't want to know these awful scum scam people as a result of this abuse from them.

i have requested over and over I want a no contact policy with royals and that means I want the medi...

Abuse, Hate

yeh well when you talk about the "wet n dry" effect I have to say I met a italian boob woman who had obvious wet baby milko tits yet was passing herself off as a single woman and clearly I questioned if she was a daughter of a catholic priest in rome I knew as a child and non of it added up. whats more is this broads boyfriend was dubbing himself as "youmebest" on makefriends.com and so was des's ian and trying to con me into a fake relationship making out he lived in england. i could see some game. that women i met who went to rome gave birth to a baby the bests gave it away. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75rwgewoDBA and bayside family church was behind this shit and how much furnish looks like colm o'murchu a sydney director with an irish accent. hmm. wet n dry! some like tits wet and others like em dry! gave birth to a baby. hmmm!!!!!

yeh well when you talk about the "wet n dry" effect I have to say I met a italian boob woman who had...

Abuse, Hate

the names are very telling- the uk queen is a killer murdering freak alright and so is this one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_turP238OM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcR2egSCCL4 you can see the scam on the world so clear. these people are evil satanic occult sex magik nutters. time will show it! all hoaxes all of them turd uk queen and other freaks in royals etc...

the names are very telling- the uk queen is a killer murdering freak alright and so is this one htt...

Abuse, Hate, Violence, Sex