everyone else around me is moving on, starting new things and having fun, and I am just trudging around doing the same things. I'm very grateful to have a job and a house and friends, But I hate it when I try to open doors to new things they just seem to slam back in my face. Everyone else is getting married or starting new relationships, getting promoted, buying a house, moving away and generally seeing the world. I hate my job, my family is screwed up, my love life is non-existant and it's not for want of trying. Why is it that my life seems to be going nowhere? I hate being the only one who comes home to the same boring routine, same job, same EVERYTHING. The worst part is i'm losing confidence to strike out and change things because I've had so little success. I don't understand. I'm talented and good at what I do. Why does no one want me? I want to blow raspberries at the world. Maybe I will do that. Just blow raspberries.

you know like in rake talking to david- trust me, that little jury of 3 queen and william and kate or whoever, have heard all the bullshit out. naturally they will see anyone they want as a loooser and laugh at them and to them we are worse then pathetic. I mean seriously give me a break, look at that priest and what a retard he thought I was he was trying hard to pull the wool at me, I thought the hide of you. I wanted to see a priest ages ago like 15 years ago when I was sick and no one wanted to know. ricky had to wreck everything has he always does for dear fucking poverty shits in south america bunch of cunts. they are evil breed of germs not even people. anway, this fucking preist had this tude like "you want to give something back to the church" ? not really , they never gave me much but insults and put downs the whole time I was at school there. so no, I thought the hide of you to expect me as a single never been married, never had a job, don't own a house no friends or boyfriend, no ego to flaunt around with genuine friends like other women I see with their hubby and bubby being so loved and cared about and fussed after and their egos on high! their egos are their orgasms lets face it. and I am like, no! I am jealous so so so so jealous of all of them sluts you helped get nice husbands, what was your critera anyway to fit in here in this hell whole church anway? see that is why I call catholics "dirty little cum squats" that is all the females are tauht to be they play evil for sex and power and that ring on their finger and they will earn every penny of it when all their friends backstab them as most usually do somewhere.

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it sounded like the person over the road was shot with something I mean I started to wonder was this...