Degeneración....

rosemary takes all her problems in her marriages and life out on me. so the more filipino sister in-law picks on her then she picks on me. she has been doing this her whole life when friends or things didn't go right. then I realised others were doing to me as well, other relatives and neighbors and work people and just anyone I started doing it back occasionally.

rosemary takes all her problems in her marriages and life out on me. so the more filipino sister in...

i sleep in piss and shit everynight on the bed. i don't get out of bed most days afraid and terrified of neighbors.

i sleep in piss and shit everynight on the bed. i don't get out of bed most days afraid and terrifie...

I'm ashamed to be a human. I wish I had been born anything else, even a worm. I feel like a failure, I don't know why but I don't even have the tears to cry. It's as if I ran out of them. In others eyes, I'm always the second choice. Asways ignored, like an extra in a movie. Humans do nothing but destroy everything around them. They only know how to consume like a parasite. If we were more advanced, you can bet we'd be colonizing other planets and leaving them once all the resources are used up and it become another Never noticed. I suck at sports and Theo oh good thing I am at is grades. All I actually have to accompany me is a piano which I vent my anger and sadness on.overpopulated trash heap like this planet is becoming. Humans are so pathetic that they can't handle anything or anyone that's different. Right vs left, liberal vs conservative, men vs women, countries vs countries, etc. The list could go on forever. I feel really inferior around people and I always duck my head down as if submitting to them. It's so humiliating to me but my brain insists that I do it. It's as if I am purposefully destroying my dignity and sense of self-worth. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?

I'm ashamed to be a human. I wish I had been born anything else, even a worm. I feel like a failure,...