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i don't know why i go looking up degrees and diplomas and nursing or health because i know i don't have to confidnece to bother. 1- i am too old 2- i can't cope and i can't understand the strict demands of accreditation courses in australia in health they are all too hard which is why i dropped out of a dental course because it seemed just too complicated trying to get 100% pass rate in everything and not much teacher help or classroom time. i don't understand the marking system at tafe for certficates and diplomas and i don't want the stress of a degree and worrying about how to afford it all and cope with exams, when i have already done a degree and inbetween one anyway just in arts which is the lowests iq level you can get into cuz all the other courses are just plan too hard for dumbos like me. i don't want to pay back course debts later when i have been on disability and really just need to have a holiday and find a relationship then over trialing myself over rubbish like health and morbid courses that will only add to depress and a deep sense of failure i already have at dropping out of a business degree and so on. i dropped out of university at 24 after being assaulted wanting to find a realationship and get married but no one was interested. everytime i have tried to pass a degree someone fucks it up on me and others fuck up my plans for relationships. either way i am just not ment to win at life. no job, no money, no honey! aint no loving caring heart here! I hate this world.

i don't know why i go looking up degrees and diplomas and nursing or health because i know i don't h...

i have better things I want to do that look up all the prego whore slut cows asses in this place and their dirty milking pig tits and looking at dying fuckers everyday of the week. its hard to appreciate death and I just don't like people talking about it around me now, i don't want to know all I want to do is live and party, its hard to do much else when you have never been allowed to live life enough and do all the things you wanted to do, let alone wait after some fat old milking sore pig whore cow breeding or some dying duck! when no one cared about me when I was sick or needed anything.

i have better things I want to do that look up all the prego whore slut cows asses in this place and...

I often worry about our house burning down, ever since a child of 4 at my grandmothers place burning down and seeing that happen there that day and the morning aftershock pieces still smoldering I have understood depression and anxiety, I am always living in fear of it. it makes it worst when my mother says she wants to burn it down when she is angry, I take it as a serious threat of worry. she causes me panic and overwhelm.

I often worry about our house burning down, ever since a child of 4 at my grandmothers place burning...