I worry about ben because what I see is a healthy young man who looks gaunt and thin and terribly unhealthy. one photo he looks like a homosexual ridden with hiv and an intravenous drug user. I worry for him that he is not doing things rationally. I hope he is on the straight and narrow with someone who can give him love and healthy life. I told him I did not want to ruin his career although my love for him is strong and I thank him for that he was trying to help me, so he says. I hate the way that world of music, seduction and temptations are there for him.