Confessions about 'Hate'

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like police said to me, "if it looks or sounds too good to be true then it probably is" about money, and life and men and everything you can apply this to. I am past needing happy ever afters now and babies. as much as it would be nice to think it could happen logic tells me it can't and won't. and I am sick of people expecting me to believe their lies and bullshit!

like police said to me, "if it looks or sounds too good to be true then it probably is" about money,...

Abuse, Hate

I'm sick of bitches putting fake hope of marriage and motherhood on to me when I've been told its too late for kids for me by the church and gynos. so what is the point of forcing my body to do something it would struggle to do now when I wanted to all that when I was young and healthy? the risk of heart problems and stroke and other hormonal things with my neurological problems hardly makes it worthwhile. I don't understand people who give fake hope to a lost cause. its like whipping a dead horse or expecting to live to 500 or 200. its not likely without a lot of medical advancement and if when I was beautiful I couldn't attract men how can I now older and uglier and boring and I am someone who will not tolerate fools and I have a lot tolerance to everyone and everything really quickly so you don't want to tick me off as I could have the capacity to get violent with men or anyone with all the weight lifting I do and I don't go out of my way to harm others but if you thought I was hard to get on with years ago I am worse now and I am not a nice person to everyone and I don't want to be around losers from my past who I would easily kick. I have dedicated my life to study and myself because no one good enough dedicated themselves to me. and I am not accepting the old shit I accepted years ago that was pushed on me that I didn't like. I wouldn't tolerate richard anymore or ken or another keith or anyone like that, not another michelle or another Sheryl or another maria or relatives or jobs. I have changed and I am grumpy and cranky like my mother, father and sister a lot. Its a bother to be nice to most people when I would like to kick them out of my way even just going shopping. I won't tolerate much now.

I'm sick of bitches putting fake hope of marriage and motherhood on to me when I've been told its to...

Murder, Hate

I got carried away on tinder and now I want to f die I'm 17. I'm very introverted. I joined tinder and I fell into many serious online relationships, but would not meet up with people as I'm dependent on my parents and being on it would land me in trouble with them- it was my little secret. I was in deep with this. So when the person would get distant, I would panic and send them nudes on snapchat to hold onto them. The first time wasn't serious. just physical attraction. The second was a lot more intense- I fell in love. But he treated me badly and we drifted apart. I was heart broken. So, so, so heartbroken. I didn't know how to cope. I wanted to rebound. I was talking to a couple of people- as you do. these two people both fell in love with me really quickly- and I with them Both. They both wanted to meet up with me, I told them I couldn't. By this stage I grew so numb to the seriousness of sending pictures- I didn't think it was a big deal at all. So I did that. With both of them. Consecutively. Which is scummy. I was just really really emotionally numb, I wasn't thinking straight. All of a sudden the severity of it all hit me like a tonne of f bricks. I had to confess what I was doing because I was convinced that they would find out somehow later down the line anyways. One of them was okay with it- we're still on good terms. The other wasn't. He was really hurt, and I've lost him forever now. I look at his Facebook sometimes and f** kill myself over how I lost such a great person. What I did still haunts me. I'm so paranoid. I know screenshots weren't taken, but I'm still scared shitless of that now. What if pictures of me get leaked? What everyone finds out? What if This comes back to haunt me? What if I get publicly shamed for what I did? I feel like my life is over. Am I a cheater? Am I an evil person? Can I move on from this? It's haunting me. I can't seem to forgive myself. I feel like I am scum, to my core. When it gets really bad, I honestly feel like I'm better off dead. How can I move on? Please help

I got carried away on tinder and now I want to f****** die I'm 17. I'm very introverted. I joined t...

Hate

they have been abusing me again. ear bums.

Abuse, Hate

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a friend to anyone cuz friends are bad news. friends are not what they used to be. no point having them. I have pets and I been hurt too many times now. I just have pretend friends now. everything is about self care self care self care in therapy today. I just get my treatments and pay for what I can afford and go. cuz I know anyone I get close to will wrong me. friends are expensive to have, time wasters, they are all about them, they won't help you when you need it. they want you to help them be great and then all therapy today says "well this is a world we have to walk over each other and moe everyone down in our path to get what we want and we move on then and ask them to forgive us and if they don't we set god bothers after them with threats of hell and then if that doesn't work we send the devil himself to punish them for not forgiving us" so my advice is do it back to every bitch you ever met you wronged you. when you get the chance attack everyone who has ever wronged you in anyway at work, school, family, friends - believe me friends are the first to harm you. clever people have less friends. when your friendless you learn to be independant and you can leave when you want. you don't have to go drinking when you don't want to, you can go spend your money on yourself or pets. you don't have to worry about your friend being prettier then you or stealing your man! cuz they will. its the nature of the beast in women to want to be superior in everything now with friends and lovers and partners. when you have no friends be careful cuz professional people like medical doctors and business women you visit will likely attack you and want your syncronistity and want to steal your life progress and future good things from you. so keep a look out men do this too. they are money hungry demonic monsters after money and your money, your time, your man and your everything. who needs a friend when you can get to know yourself better have quality time with yourself. whose the winner I ask you? being friendless!!!! you save money and time and heartbreak. cuz no woman will be a true female friend to you, this bbf and you put a man in it the scenario and guess what, she will be working on him and want to steal him from you. she will want your job and church and all the people you know and take you down cuz she is jealous of you. men do this too. just a warning from someone who has experienced it all. from mad murdering famous people as a kid to mad police and mad amublance abusive medical people. everyone is out to moe you down so beware. that is the way of the world a female therapist told me at lifeline. so don't complain to them. you can't win. just don't have friends. have invisible pretend friends and pets as friends. they won't let you down, but your real friend she will, so will your man, have an invisible pretend lover/husband/wife s/he will never let you down. that is the way of the world, its all virtual mind warping now.

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

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Hate

she is too quiet, beware of that quiet one they harm people.

Abuse, Hate, Violence

richard kicked me several times and got women to bash me to make his ego feel big to have women fighting over him so I just said "have him whore" as I always do. I did that with kelly as well and other bitches, who were on tv as well with other people and even bands. we were told to stay away from taxiride so we did. and I said to mum I think it was ken and his open marriage arrangement and how he raped me, never asked me if i wanted sex or if was a virgin or not or what i liked sexually he just went at me like a animal. and it was awful. and I am now with vaginal problems because of the rapes he did for 16 hrs and the stroke i had afterwards, and after the surgery I am a virgin again and the doctors can't even put a pap smear spatular in there. and I am just so traumatised over that and MRI's on my brain and back and blood tests with veins collapsing. I am still traumatised over the hospitals and ambulances. I don't like seeing them at all.

richard kicked me several times and got women to bash me to make his ego feel big to have women figh...

Hate, Violence

my mum says men are bloody useless, she said dad was like is still like having another child to raise but with adhd and their both got a form of autism. it runs in both families without a doubt. I have seen it for years and I even told a therapist I felt I had some of it. my dyslexia and panic disorders and can't settle anywhere in a job, can make or keep relationships, and most of that is when I was young I was very forgiving but I am not now. something can't be forgiven and that is that. I only care about forgiving myself and that is all that I concern myself on that topic. its up to others to live with themselves and to forgive themselves its not up to me to forgive people who have harmed and wronged me. god will sort them out.

my mum says men are bloody useless, she said dad was like is still like having another child to rais...

Abuse, Hate

after what jordan did to me, its made me see how bitchy and abusive men are the games they play that was like the last blow earlier this year and I didn't like him that much cuz I learnt worse from the games of richard in 1999. I have few feelings left. he tried to kill me that american faggot.

after what jordan did to me, its made me see how bitchy and abusive men are the games they play that...

Abuse, Hate

when I get what I want like heaps of money and love then you can get forgiven until then forget it. and even if I do get what I wants I won't forgive much. and I don't forget.

when I get what I want like heaps of money and love then you can get forgiven until then forget it. ...

Abuse, Hate

mum said "you should have said to joyce, yeh I will leave home but you do know that means I won't be able to afford you sorry loser ass anymore with rent and food and bills and moving so goodbye whore house witchbitch. mum said she had no moral principles either to me as her client and putting my feelings and needs first when I was paying her and she should have known your character and personality but she was always bitching and putting me down to others and then only around at events I invited her to she would go on with crap about "oh I am so protective of c" she would say to my mum and my mum knew she was a liar. joyce is a terrible evil liar. I seen rose move out with some real spastic nasty asshole people including her husband and she would always come home and they were abusing her because of her depression and calling her mental and crazy or dead, people did that to me too, and even calling me a alcoholic when I rarely ever drank. never took drugs and I find it insulting. rick was always saying I was a alcoholic and druggy and he didn't even know me and what friend does that?"

mum said "you should have said to joyce, yeh I will leave home but you do know that means I won't be...

Abuse, Hate

we are sick of people throwing eggs and mud at the house and wanting to burn signs on the fence for all the wrongs john did.

we are sick of people throwing eggs and mud at the house and wanting to burn signs on the fence for ...

Abuse, Hate

all karon and john knew how to do was make fun of others and talk about headjobs and liking pussy and shit from her ass at family bbq's which insulted the rest of us in 1999. and how "poverty" they were but they heaps of money to run a car and her brother was doing drugs and drunk all the time and with some old hag and they thought it was cool to be seen snorting drugs infront of a bus load of kids and we thought all this was abusive and it was upsetting us. then she went mental and abusive towards me and my family and after that we wanted nothing to do with her. she said she didn't like our old cat smelly house and dad hugging her and I found her mother to be the most rudest bitch out. she made comments about my weight that were to upset me refering to me being a fat slob at my brothers wedding and how I had lost weight and I knew she didn't like me and wanted to see me abused and raped and fat. I picked that up about them. so after that mum and dad told them to keep their money and stay away from us.

all karon and john knew how to do was make fun of others and talk about headjobs and liking pussy an...

Abuse, Hate

karon looks like a female version of Jimmy Savile its so creepy never showed any religiousness in her when she was around us and was evil , if she is at church grounds its her gaming and ego not because she has morals she is a liar tramp whore because she has no religion or belief in god when I met her and was proud to be anti-religion and we were stupid for being christian she said. fake christains my brother and his whore if they were at any church it would be a hells church they were so evil and abusive to us. karon and john are not mentally normal, we all noticed it years ago how evil they were and their shop lifting and breaking my car and attacking people with eggs driving around in cars and then people were throughing eggs at our house because of what they did.

karon looks like a female version of Jimmy Savile its so creepy never showed any religiousness in ...

Abuse, Hate

dad said the nuns who ran the job employment were as rude as patties pigs to him in 2000 and it was reported by others as well from the carmelites how rude they were to unemployed people.

dad said the nuns who ran the job employment were as rude as patties pigs to him in 2000 and it was ...

Abuse, Hate

junkie hall jerrycan & funnels or funeral Murdoch murduck what ever, pair of complete fucking stupid spastic old bags anyway. I got this dog living next door to me I hate my dad doesn't even like her i don't know why the stupid bitch waves to him. he doesn't even like her. i hate them. I enjoy hating people. its something at least I can do well.

junkie hall jerrycan & funnels or funeral Murdoch murduck what ever, pair of complete fucking stupid...

Abuse, Hate

we don't bother wrapping xmas or other gifts anymore cuz its a waste of paper and the trees in the environment. we just throw them in a shopping bag or a christmas pillow case or material bag and recycle them. we used to recycle xmas paper but then the poor animals now. like its too upsetting for words. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYyEEJ5hTTE that is why I won't make my story into a paper book now. bugger the bastards and filipino book companies. bugger the bastards.

we don't bother wrapping xmas or other gifts anymore cuz its a waste of paper and the trees in the e...

Abuse, Hate

when some guy who was a pedo was on the news putting his name on a baby sitting job I took down my nanny/baby sitting profile cuz I thought the media were directing the insults at me as the murdering murdunce Murdoch and slag dog Junkie Hall, or whatever it is? do that to people a lot. and I remove a lot of people off my fb or any site or on youtube when they don't say things that are fitting to my values. I will block people for no reason to just to let them feel how it feels to be rejected. I am over sensitive a lot and I have been taking offence for the last 27 years really.

when some guy who was a pedo was on the news putting his name on a baby sitting job I took down my n...

Abuse, Hate

rose said that if they got rid of all the soap opera she would lose her lifes fun. she doesn't know how she will cope with her filipino monkey coming here cuz she likes her own private time in her unit alone and doesn't want to share or give or change and roslyn says the same thing and mum dad and me feel the same way. you just get stuck in your ways. after years of abuse you learn to keep to yourself and avoid people and don't even look at most people like I was at a performance thing recently and I didn't know if I should talk to the woman next to me and I answered her when spoken to but that was it i didn't even look at her and I do that a lot to people now for years.

rose said that if they got rid of all the soap opera she would lose her lifes fun. she doesn't know ...

Abuse, Hate