Confessions about 'Hate'

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katie likes playing god declaring who needs lessons and lot like joyce who needs kicks up the bum and harsh lessons, who gets what is coming to them, who should suffer more. very much like rick and enjoy playing god but can not face god themselves! hmm.

katie likes playing god declaring who needs lessons and lot like joyce who needs kicks up the bum an...

Abuse, Hate

I am not katie dogs lazy crazy basket that pigdog bitch dog!!!! I took other peoples advice not pigdog katie opinionated bigotbum fakie- hatie-katie!

I am not katie dogs lazy crazy basket that pigdog bitch dog!!!! I took other peoples advice not pigd...

Abuse, Hate

i block people acting silly dancing and showing off and doing stupid things now. once people start acting over zany fun I block them even on youtube as I don't want to be associated with that personality assumption. once people start being stupid I just up and block them.

i block people acting silly dancing and showing off and doing stupid things now. once people start a...

Abuse, Hate

I have told mum I don't want her speaking to any of her family to teach them a lesson for abusing me. mum agrees and so does dad, rose never liked them more then me, rose has hate for them all. we won't go to weddings or parties or baby things as a statement of how they abuse me, I told one cousin she did nothing to help what so ever, the whole time never offered to help get work or social support to meet people and it was clearly obvious that with my father without a job we had little social connections all those years and they did nothing, and Its clear I am the ugliest and most unsexy woman that ever existed and we never wanted to be around the men that were pushed at me most were not right for my personality or interests at the time and were too old and boring when I was young and I never wanted to be near ken and couldn't love a fat ugly dog droppings of a dirty rapist that couldn't even get medical treatment to me when any honest person would have. I never loved any of the men because most of them were too slow and would not make the first step and show interest in a timely fashion in a way that suited me, russel and ken assaulted me as did a few other loser deadbeat uglies, frank was a bully and the only half way normal guy i liked at college, the ones I really liked never looked at me and I was afraid to even look at them or they were abusive cuz some spastic told them to abuse me which made me hate them real quick. I can hate so quick and hard as i can like. and once i dislike i am like my mum we don't give in. and we are self disciplined and expect others to be. and with me you have to jump within a short range of time if you don't go through the loops quick enough your gone! do one thing wrong your gone! I grow to hate most people like my parents have as well. they hate everyone they knew. so does rose. she is the biggest hater out! people don't want to jump to my tune and i don't want kids as much as i used to because its a statement about being rejected. when women are rejected by society and men they turn sour on everyone. I can hate anyone and not care! i only have to answer to god no one else i was told in support group.

I have told mum I don't want her speaking to any of her family to teach them a lesson for abusing me...

Abuse, Hate

i feel guilty about the food i have eaten today breakfast i had 1/4 cup of oats and berries (because i am fat) morning tea i had a maderine lunch i had a crumbed sausage and some yogurt and madarine, afternoon tea i had some crispbread and vegimite dinner i had lean steak and veg and fruit pudding and custard and I feel guilty like a gormandising glutton. i feel guilty for every bit of food i eat, last night i had a small roll with herbs and felt guilty. water is the only thing i don't feel guilty about, or tea with milk.

i feel guilty about the food i have eaten today breakfast i had 1/4 cup of oats and berries (becaus...

Abuse, Hate

you will find rose and dad are worse then me and mum we are the family of the "no fun police" no one has fun here! the most excitement we had was a few years ago midnight mass and one new years eve was looking at the psychic channel and no alcohol we were so bored senseless and a bunch of more the debbie downers here, rose beats all the debbie downers out. dad is in bed by 7pm and read a lot do exercise equipment and the place is a mess. how could it be otherwise with no help. I have to do it all and go to support group to learn how to be human again.

you will find rose and dad are worse then me and mum we are the family of the "no fun police" no one...

Abuse, Hate

I can't get excited about doing this silly design degree no matter how much I try, I am too practical. I spoke to a priest about ideas and he has more of a idea of what I am interested in than that frivolous rubbish of design. I take my mum to church and the ballet and high teas and massages and gym for something to do, we raise money and help out a few charity groups and i need more help then I can give right now. I am so tired and stiff in the back from the rain on my slipped discs and neck aching and all I could do was get home from the wet rain to have some old brandy dark fruit christmas pudding and custard cuz I don't care what people think of me anymore. I rarely wear make up and hit my eye today putting on silly eye liner and those things are just all filled with poison that gets into the skin. I go to boring church or support group meetings and I am a dull person. I don't even drink soft drink or cordial or even juice much - just water or teas, I have a wide variety of teas as does my dad and we all like them, we have a capincino machine we opened at xmas and all these coffee no one uses. I am worried about my persian cat she could have urinary tract infection and my black/chocolate cat is clearly an allergy cat which is stressing me.

I can't get excited about doing this silly design degree no matter how much I try, I am too practica...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

all people ever thought of me was -"oh you don't need anything from anyone now, that you have your own brick house" and it was not even my house.

all people ever thought of me was -"oh you don't need anything from anyone now, that you have your o...

Hate, Sex

people at support group don't understand why I don't want to go night clubbing right now. I am tired, sore and in pain and worry. I like going to bed at 6pm and reading or having one of my cats cuddled up with me. I prefer more cultural stylish entertainment, I don't watch tv and doing courses is entertainment to me. i exercise and try to eat carefully. I like to enjoy a restful holiday over rowdy noise. I don't understand why people don't get it we all change with age. I am now 46 still childless and no husband or boyfriend and given up, I rarely look in the mirror or only to see if i am working the weights at exercise right. I don't care about looks anymore, just feeling fit. I like massages and facials and relax time over nightclubbing I gave up that short stunt of fun in 2003 when I didnt get what I wanted I stopped giving people what they wanted and just turned cold on everyone. I have to go to support group to learn how to be human and out of the nazi death camp zone.

people at support group don't understand why I don't want to go night clubbing right now. I am tired...

Abuse, Hate

Memories All of my memories I love Past. Present. Future. I would never trade. Change. Exchange or want to be anyone else's mocassains. I am the Co Creator with Divine Creator of my true divine Destiny. Stories and Memories are Twisted and Turned but it is up to the individual to stand your ground and speak only the Truth that is in your heart. It maybe a lonely path to your Trueself but you will finally be Free of distortions. I wish humanity would get to a point where they were responsible for themselves and stop expecting Marty's, saints, divine and holy angels and other divine celestial beings to bail them out and take on their negative Karma. It is an honor and privilege to be on Earth and no one should have to babysit humanity. Especially them who try , assist, or have ascended and worked very hard to become the individual the true divine Creator insisted that they become on Earth in their present incarnation. Other planets are looking good now… However, I am happy to serve assist humanity within the divine talents. skills, and abilities the Divine Creator endowed me with ( Amun RA)

Memories All of my memories I love Past. Present. Future. I would never trade. Change. Exchange or...

Love, Hate

:( gargle bubbles at back of mouth

Hate

i am getting sick of having to be perfect and everyone else is allowed to make mistakes and glaring mountain mistakes not just little ones, but i am not allowed a day of spitting the dummy and say "well bugger you i have had enough you spaz, grow up!"

i am getting sick of having to be perfect and everyone else is allowed to make mistakes and glaring ...

Abuse, Hate

need more money. suffering on limited income and want to work. frustrated.

Abuse, Hate

no more family i love any of you's to anyone!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSkboTTTmpg https://www.udemy.com/how-childhood-and-family-history-affect-our-happiness/learn/v4/overview

no more family i love any of you's to anyone!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSkboTTTmpg https:/...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

stop stalking stop bullying me k not interested go die!!!

Abuse, Hate

looking for new doctors these ones simply can not be trusted. all bad eggs!

Hate

gave up on relationships years ago woke up god was against me and everyone was against me having a relationship that ment something to me. Letting go I'm letting you go. I can't tell you, but I'm letting this whole relationship thing go away from my life. You've hurt me just way too deeply and I don't want you anywhere near me. I'm hoping to leave this place as soon as I get the chance. I'm planning everything confidentially. You won't have any idea. Soon you won't see my presence forever. I'll settle somewhere else with someone else. I hope I forget the abuse that you've put me through. I'm done and I'm sorry, but you need severe help. I'm close to moving on from this whole thing. I can't stand how much all these people have done to us. They all created misunderstandings between and that made you abuse me and it made me doubt you to the point where I wont' trust anyone anymore. I refuse to be with you and refuse to be with someone else again. I'm better off alone. I hope whoever has created misunderstandings between us lose the love of their life forever too. They all will go through this pain that they've put us through. They all will! It's a cruse that won't go away until they realize their own mistakes in a deep level.

gave up on relationships years ago woke up god was against me and everyone was against me having a r...

Hate

i wasn't asked i was told to help other peoples careers and love life, so i did what i was told and didn't answer back, just put my head down and know my place like i had been taught by everyone around me who had micro-managed me.

i wasn't asked i was told to help other peoples careers and love life, so i did what i was told and ...

Abuse, Hate

hate parents hate school hate work hate teachers, just like my buddy who smokes peppermint

Hate

went fishing instead of school with buddy and not coming home.

Hate