Confessions about 'Hate'

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we hate bcra bayfm. we hate you. we hate hate all of you. my father hates you. I hate you. my mother hates you. my sister hates you. your dirty animals. we hate.

we hate bcra bayfm. we hate you. we hate hate all of you. my father hates you. I hate you. my mother...

Hate

stop stalking me dirty dorey, stop stalking me bayside church. stop stalking me ! I don't like you. I enjoying hating. I hate hate hate hate. that is all my family know is how to hate. hate hate. we hate you all. hate hate hate.

stop stalking me dirty dorey, stop stalking me bayside church. stop stalking me ! I don't like you. ...

Abuse, Hate

stop stalking me ken carey. no one here wants you around. i blame william and harry who were on hms melville. someone should charge them for it and leigh morris. their the real rapeo dirty crims of the world you dirty animals. stop stalking me scum scamm freaks.

stop stalking me ken carey. no one here wants you around. i blame william and harry who were on hms ...

Abuse, Hate

gillian is ugly and user! all scammers.

Abuse, Hate

stop bullying and abusing me gillian I don't know you, I don't want to know you. your all evil sick disgusting people. your rude ! rude rude rude dirty scum people my parents should never had around. they should have asked better people younger people to be my godparents rather then old fart user scum nutcases and scammers. the world is full of scammers today. scammers rule the world. liars and scammers and idiots. people with no morals unlike us. if your a druggy your great ! but if you J walk your bad, what a world we live in. I refuse to speak to those people and that dirty grubby plain clothes cop pig! scum! I only talk to quality people, I hate people. I hate so many people for the joy of hating! like people did to me. what you give is what you get back from me.

stop bullying and abusing me gillian I don't know you, I don't want to know you. your all evil sick ...

Abuse, Hate

don't bully me and act like you don't you!

Abuse, Hate

I guess healthcare is overrated For the last 3 days, I've sat alone in my apartment. At first I'm tired, and sore after sleeping poorly. As the day goes on my eyes won't open all the way and feel heavy like my eyelids are iron sheets. I eat a bunch of food. My stomach hurts. I watch movies. I cry a bit. Curled up in bed. I sit around for awhile, Stare at the wall. No thoughts. and suddenly, I'm going to fix everything. It's all going to be ok. – So I google different subjects – for hours. My shoulders hurt. I can fix this. But I'm realizing more and more that I'm not ever going to be rid of this. A few months ago I saw my doctor about getting help with these mood swings. This has been going on for years now. For a few days I'm fine, then a week later I feel like I'm on ecstasy- I can do anything and I'm THE best. I spend money I can't afford to spend- I make crazy unobtainable plans for getting in shape and getting this all under control. That lasts maybe 4 days, 5 tops. Then I nose dive into the bitchiest, angriest, most pessimistic person you've ever met. I eat everything; an entire pizza, plus a liter of soda and chips and dip and chocolate and white cheddar popcorn. I feel satisfied afterward, but disgusting. I get on the treadmill, I take a shower. I feel a little better- slowly the cycle starts back up and I'm climbing that rollercoaster again. That's not normal, right? Doctor tells me "Well, It does sound like you might be bipolar, but let's try birth control to see if it balances out your hormones- that could be the problem" (-_- She says this because I mentioned that sometimes the mood swings coincide with PMS symptoms) I take the birth control for ~2.5 months, things only get worse. On top of everything else the birth control makes me feel like I'm in a fog and very fatigued. I start taking it at night instead, hoping to sleep through the symptoms but it doesn't help. I try emailing my doctor to ask about other options and she referrers me to her assistant who in turn refers me to the lifestyle and weight management clinic. WTF?! I mean I mentioned I want to lose some weight (like ~40 lbs) but I hardly think that's the main focus here? I scour my healthcare provider's website for mental health doctors. ALL of them require a referral by another doctor or other healthcare persons. I email my doctor again, she doesn't reply for 3 days, so I email again "Did you get my email?". No response so I call the office; she's busy. I email again and this time she finally replies with "You need to make an appointment if you want a quick response. I don't have time to answer every email" I quickly discontinue listing her as my Primary care physician and find a new doctor on the website. New doctor is friendly, and kind. I talk and she listens. She gives me some tests- blood and verbal, and says in her opinion it is likely that I have bipolar disorder or have a personality disorder but I would need to see a psychiatrist to confirm. I ask about my options. She refers me to mental health services dept. I call the number. They ask my symptoms. I explain, including an episode where I yelled at my boss the week before (thankfully I wasn't fired) and SHE LAUGHED AT ME (wtf…) she rattles off information about group therapy and a new referral to a different doctor's office but says she must go because she has another appointment but that my appointment is scheduled for about 3 months away. I will not be able to see a psychiatrist for nearly 3 months. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING Let's just say that I snap, right? Go totally bonkers and lose my job, my apartment etc. How in the hell would I ever be able to do ANY of this and keep any of it straight if I go totally off the rails? It happens all the time– Someone is barley managing their symptoms until one day they break and hurt someone or something. How would a schizophrenic person do any of this? Would they have to hurt someone or damage property to get proper healthcare??? What magic words do I need to say to get help? Avada kedavra??? Do have to be suicidal to get their attention? (I'm not, by the way.) I mean, ok, I'm not dying. I don't have a terminal illness. But doesn't quality of life count for anything? I haven't gone on a date in 7 years. I have only a handful of distant friends. My family likes me ok but we fundamentally disagree on 95% of our world views. And yes, I will eventually get to speak with the psychiatrist. But what am I supposed to do in the meantime? Hope things will go ok? I mean ffs. I'm just saying how the !@#$ are people who have mental illnesses supposed to jump through all these hoops when the only thing I want is to feel better? ugh… idk… halp…

I guess healthcare is overrated For the last 3 days, I've sat alone in my apartment. At first I'm ...

Hate

i am being stalked by someone on this site and I don't know what to do. they found me on fb, and snapchat. like what is there problem? really!

i am being stalked by someone on this site and I don't know what to do. they found me on fb, and sna...

Abuse, Hate

I never got your messages i don't have a mobile phone, you fake insulted feelings but I can say then "how fake are your emails, is that all lies too!" you keep working out what your insulted over and what your on a mission for, and who your taking down and whose husband your taking this week and what drugs you take and how you stole from the bank a wopping $4million keep making up excuses but your still fake ass!

I never got your messages i don't have a mobile phone, you fake insulted feelings but I can say then...

Abuse, Hate

Sex With the Minister's Wife Beverly is a sexy looking woman in her fifties, at least that is what I think. Our relationship started a few months ago with little flirtations. I run the sound systems in our church and one day as I was working on it, Beverly came into the church to get something. She was wearing a yellow print low cut dress. She came over to see what I was doing and as she leaned over to look at the sound board, I was given a clear view of her small pointed breasts. She whispered; "Shouldn't you be looking at the board instead of me?" I looked up and said to her, "Yes, but you are so much better to look at and I think you are so sexy looking." "Oh I don't know about that," she replied and continued. " I'm too old to be sexy looking." From there we moved to a classroom in the back of the church. She quickly moved into my arms, kissing me and grabbing at my groin. We made love in that room and later we would meet at different places where we would have passionate love. Am I wrong to love a woman who is several years older than me? Sometimes I feel guilty and other times I feel good because I am giving her what her husband can't. What should I do? emmo'sconfessions.

Sex With the Minister's Wife Beverly is a sexy looking woman in her fifties, at least that is what ...

Hate

old toads on ikes emmo!

Hate

don't you bully me and act like you don't know !

Abuse, Hate

I don't have a husband. never been married.

Hate

SCN I fucked your husband in every room of your house, made sure his balls were always drained so he wouldn't be fucking your fat ass, as well as sending him back to you with my pussy on his breathe. I know you know a little bit but one day i'll tell you all of it, and when I do, I'm going to do it again. that's what you get for being a stuck up fucking snob to me in high school! you never thought I'D fuck YOUR man did you?

SCN I fucked your husband in every room of your house, made sure his balls were always drained so he...

Adultery, Pride, Love, Lie, Hate, Stealing, Marriage, Sex

i was silent abuse being sexually abused because everyone was silent allowing it to happen who knew what he was. I should have my own order! but what? I have never fitted in anywhere. I belong nowhere.

i was silent abuse being sexually abused because everyone was silent allowing it to happen who knew ...

Hate

I didn't choose this, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwXpVWD_zGE

Pride, Hate

and this is some game you want to play rather then asking me what I want! don't sound cool to me!

Abuse, Hate

so what is this the part I am supposed to believe that you are trying to help me get with some guy you think is right for me, without asking me what I want, and you bully and backstab and don't help at all, with a cliche ending of "see what you could have got if you had done x,y,z" if I knew what your x,y,z was supposed to be anyway?

so what is this the part I am supposed to believe that you are trying to help me get with some guy y...

Abuse, Hate

I have given up on believing in love or the hope of having a baby or normal life. I gave up 2002 really or maybe it was before that?

I have given up on believing in love or the hope of having a baby or normal life. I gave up 2002 re...

Abuse, Hate

i hate you that is all everyone needs to know. hate!

Hate