Confessions about 'Hate'

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I hate hypocrites! Don't you just love it when people do things to you that they would be PISSED at you for doing to them, yet they expect you to be okay with it when they do them to you? They always then follow it with "Oh, you don't understand, this is different", when in fact, it's not different at all. The only thing making it "different" is that they live by a different set of rules than everyone else and expect to be excused for the same things they would flip shit over if anyone did them to them. For example, the atheists or religious people who try to shove their views down other people's throats, yet become enraged at even the thought of someone doing it to them. It's not okay to tell them to believe or not believe in something, yet when the tables are turned and it's them doing the preaching, you're expected to be okay with it. Speaking of this religious/anti-religious crap, why don't people just believe what they want and shut the hell up about it? I don't even understand why people become so irritated by other people not having the same beliefs as them and not being a bother about it. No one is forcing them to change their beliefs. Also, people who continually arrive at places exceptionally late (think 30+ minutes), yet ring your phone off the hook and flip their lids on you if you are running five minutes behind. They have every nonsensical excuse in the book for why it's okay for them to be late, but they'd be pissed at you even if you had a valid reason for running a few minutes behind. Then there's the political hypocrites. The ones who try to shove their political views down your throat, even when you ask them to stop multiple times, yet become infuriated if someone does it to them and feel like they're being oppressed. My personal favorite, however, has to be the people who want the freedom of spouting off their opinions and preach tolerance and acceptance, yet want to silence anyone with differing opinions and are anything but tolerant and accepting of anyone with different beliefs than them. I mean, it is one thing to not be okay with someone who condones things like rape, murder, animal abuse, etc., but when it comes to things that aren't absolutely extreme, there's no reason to condemn someone based on their beliefs and then expect everyone to accept you regardless of yours.

I hate hypocrites! Don't you just love it when people do things to you that they would be PISSED a...

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Bad Boss Today my incompetent boss tried to blame me for something she didn't understand..she corned me and threw a piece of paper at me …and then a second manager tried to make a quiet team member look bad and I stood up for him now after both events I feel I've placed a target on my back..Monday's going to be a blast

Bad Boss Today my incompetent boss tried to blame me for something she didn't understand..she corn...

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Unpopular Opinions One thing I hate about myself is my ability to play people. Like, if I want you to like me, you can bet darn sure that I’ll get you to at least not dislike me. I’m so good at reading people, knowing what reaction to give to make sure that I make a good impression, that I feel like I erase myself in the process. I also never allow myself to get too close to people. At least not for a good long while. You can't dislike a person you barely know, right? That's why I stay to the sidelines. I hide. My mom once asked my dad’s dad (legit one of the wisest and kindest people I have ever known) “Which is more important: honesty or diplomacy?” My grandpa thought about it for a while and then replied: “it is more important to be kind”. As a woman of conscience, I know that there needs to be diplomacy in things. Words need to be phrased just so for them to be acceptable. You can’t just say whatever you want. It does no good to insult or push people away. As a woman of science, I understand the value of complete and total honesty. The world would go to pot without honesty. And there was a time when I would say that I’d rather everyone be 100% honest about everything than ever try to hide a thought. Even now, I’m pretty sure I won’t post this because I don’t want to offend people. Let me just say this to myself and to anyone else out there who has a problem with this kind of behavior: You will never know true happiness until you let go of the need for everyone else to be happy. I struggle with depression, but I was born to make people happy. That’s why I’m here. It’s not an opinion, but a statement of fact. I was born to depressed parents (hence the depression now in my twenties) but I was born to make people, them, and others, happy. From a young age, I learned what I needed to about people to make them smile to make them happy. Now I’m a mess because I never give my real opinions. I just give what people want to hear. Let me start now, here are my opinions that I tend to keep to myself for fear of hurting them: I’m against gay marriage. I think marriage is between a man and a woman. I want everyone to be happy and I don’t want to begrudge anyone finding love, but this is what I believe. I’m a Christian and I have friends who are bi and gay. I have friends with opinions that I don’t agree with. I have friends with habits I don’t agree with. I don’t like licorice. I think it’s gross and I don’t understand why they sell it at movie theaters. I think pumpkin spice is over-rated. I love it, but I find the hype really annoying. I like Korean Dramas. It’s like a soap opera with cultural references I will never understand. I like love stories. Pure, simple love stories. The story of how your grandparents met or how your parents met. I love hearing about people in love. I am a Christian, a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, a Mormon. I believe that I am saved through Christ. I also believe that Christ’s original church has been reestablished in these last days before the Savior’s second coming. I don’t really like animals because I’m allergic to them. If I ever say that I like one certain type of animal over another, chances are it’s because I know that you like one over the other and I’m trying to be on your side. I really like flowers. I think they’re pretty even when they’ve been dead in a vase for three months. I think Jane Austen’s Emma had a better love story than Pride and Prejudice. I don’t like the movie “The Titanic” I’m afraid of being rejected so I run away a lot. I’m afraid of being forgotten so I try to forget first. I recognize these as unhealthy behaviors and have, as yet, done nothing to correct them. I think grits are gross. So is coleslaw. And the smell of pulled pork makes me sick. I like buying DVDs instead of digital copies so I can watch movies in different languages. I think it’s okay to break gender norms, but not okay to change your gender. I believe gender to be a divine part of you, but it doesn’t necessarily need to dictate everything about your behavior. I actually like green smoothies, even though I never eat them anymore. I can, apparently, make a very long list of opinions that may or may not be problematic. I don't blame anyone for being angry or hurt over my opinions or beliefs. I'm sure I wouldn't agree with everything you believe either. I hope we can still get along despite that.

Unpopular Opinions One thing I hate about myself is my ability to play people. Like, if I want you...

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Prom asshole So I'm not with this guy or anything. But we hooked up once and he's apparently really liked me for a long time. So I gave him a shit and we went on a date. On my end, it didn't go well. Him idk. But Long story short I wasn't interested in him romantically at all. However, while he never really got the balls to talk to me at school, his friends still insisted that he liked me. Prom is not to far away. And all his friends kept on convincing me that he was gonna ask me to prom. Telling me not to worry and that it would happen soon, etc. Anyways, on a side note, one of my best friends passed away this weekend and it has been very hard on me and many others in my community. Today, we organized a ceremony for him in the gym to honor his life. But, the dude who was into me thought now would be a perfect time to get back at me for not "showing interest back". He asked another girl to prom. Not that big of a deal right? Especially since I wasn't interested in him that way. But he intentionally asked this poor girl out just too piss me off. And that's what's making me sad. Had he just wanted to go with her because she's cool and pretty, I would be totally fine with that. But it's the fact that he actually wants to hurt me and makes me sad. Especially when I'm already hurting from the passing of my friend. Maybe I'm being over dramatic. But I honestly think this just goes to show how petty and mean this guy is for wanting to intentionally hurt me when I'm already in pain.

Prom asshole So I'm not with this guy or anything. But we hooked up once and he's apparently reall...

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Fuckin games Warning I will probably say fuck way more than needed but Im angry and that is what tends to come out when Im this pissed and upset. Ok so how the fuck is someone supposed to feel when they are ignored? If you make it seem like you dont wanna fuckin talk to me Im not gonna waste my fuckin time and talk to you. Then you start yelling at me sayin its my fault and that all Im saying is lies like BITCH NO how can I tell lies when I dont even know the fuckin truth anymore. You wanna make it seem like there is someone else and that you dont love me anymore and all this bs and then try to make it my fault cause I dont know what to do or say. You fuckin know I have mental problems. Personality disorders, depressions out the ass, probably fuckin bipolar. You know I have all this shit wrong with me and you claim you give up like no you dont just do that to someone with these problems. It makes them all worse. For fucks sake Im sorry that Im not perfect but neither are you so dont expect me to change in the blink of an eye. Hell the only changing Ive done over the past 3 years is get worse cause no one is willing enough to help figure out whats wrong and what can be done to fix it. I would never fuckin leave when there are things you need help with. Thats why my uncle killed himself because his pig of a wife left him when he needed her most. I try my hardest every day to be perfect and do the right things but my brain has a mind of its own that fucks with my attempts and tells me that nothing I do is right and that Im just gonna fuck up and that no one loves me and that Ill never beloved, never get married, never be happy. Like its hard enough to keep myself alive cause all I wanna do is give up but then I look at my parents and best friend and dont have the heart to put them through that pain. I know how it feels I know it sucks. Ive gone through it 3 times. And then there is you who Im not sure if youd even care. You dont care enough to tell me you love me. Or call. There is only so much that a 17 year old girl can do on her own and it isnt much. I dont know jack shit about life. Im about to graduate school and start lifes real bs. But I sit here and fight with my heart and brain cause they both want to give up and not be a part of life anymore. Im scared shitless to live. To be alive is one of the scariest things for me. Not dying. Im scared to fuck shit up, to ruin peoples lives, to make everyone miserable. Like I already have. I laughed for the first time today in a while. It was a real laugh too. But not even an hour later I go back to being upset. Crying, wishing things were different. And its because of no matter what I do Im not good enough. And you make it clear every time we fight that Im not good enough for you. And I fuckin beg like my last breath depended on it that you stay cause Ive never loved like this before. And you fuckin stay. But each time its as if I drain a lil bit of life out of you each time and thats what I dont want to do. Thats why Im afraid to be with you. Im afraid to be with you because Ive already ruined so many others lives I dont want to fuck yours up and make you regret being with me. There isnt anything in this world I want more for you than to be happy and half the time I feel like that wont happen if youre with me but I love you too much to leave cause I dont want to be alone and you know me and you know how I act like no one else does. I dont even know what else to say. I keep crying. All I want to do is just disappear out of life and erased from peoples memories so they wont miss me. Cause Im sure even leaving Id fuck something up in your life again. FUCK. I dont feel any better but I had to be said. One way or another. This all needed to be said.

Fuckin games Warning I will probably say fuck way more than needed but Im angry and that is what t...

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i hate you i hate you. i hate you for all this shit you've caused. yeah, your little friend group hates me, that's cool. the fact you won't fucking drop it is mentally draining me. i hate you.

i hate you i hate you. i hate you for all this shit you've caused. yeah, your little friend group ...

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he doesn't know what he is say. I don't know what he is saying. harry hardway hardass!

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yeh fat tony! its fun isn't it! who else would like to go next with me? here's a game I like to play with my parents called "whats my gay fat opinion?" seeing my mother boastful gayly said to me when I was 22 "oh your father probably thinks I turned you into a dyke" well I went and did it back for the dirty fuckholes. now dad wants to be gay and they both believe in gay marriage and I am now glad I have made them gay for making me look gay, what you give is what you get back haters and fakers. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3QDKVxpuCE"

yeh fat tony! its fun isn't it! who else would like to go next with me? here's a game I like to play...

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dirty doctor dirty doctor dirty doctor

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katy, sally, emma, anita dr wig is white privilege These f stupid ass b that got famous off of a leech scheming in her face, is now f white af. She owns everything a white girl has and more cock cock cock cock cock. dirty cocked sucked sexual privileges. while the rest of us are not allowed to be women or mothers. not allowed to have sex. these women whores bash and rape their way to mens cocks and beds then cry poor rich bugger me! poor stressed me with kids. sexual privilege deserves no pity no sympathy no mercy.

katy, sally, emma, anita dr wig is white privilege These f****** stupid ass b**** that got famous o...

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i still hate emma and sally and dr wig slut so much. I hate katy still and hope she dies.

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ugly Scottish cripple with hardware in the face looks like female sad version of boy george, and I can't feel sorry for her sagging ass on tv or mongrel son when she should have raised better kids. lazy woman! looking to cover up for a dirty rapeo son.

ugly Scottish cripple with hardware in the face looks like female sad version of boy george, and I c...

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you are ugly!

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hasbean dirty harry the gabbler try hard harry. convincing himself he knows what he is talking about, no I still can't understand a word the little wanker says. must be something they do over there with beans.

hasbean dirty harry the gabbler try hard harry. convincing himself he knows what he is talking about...

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all you are nigar hooker is a dirty little soul on a cuntride and I don't give a idol fuck about your hasbean druggy harry or prongess willis, and your whore kate and your mongrel cunt dirty shitface kids. rot in hell. go die whores. go die! go die! hate can't express the words I feel for your pathetic loser shitbag souls. die die die die. just go die. you killed your mother so go die. go die. go fuckass and pityparty on someone else's shoulder and your dirty nigar souls dirty used ugly cunt!

all you are nigar hooker is a dirty little soul on a cuntride and I don't give a idol fuck about you...

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I am mentally unstable its fun, and everything i done been want have will always be a sin! gods against me the system is always against me, and only 75perecent of kids and people are ever gonna make it in life and jobs, hahahaha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dRHetRTOD1Q

I am mentally unstable its fun, and everything i done been want have will always be a sin! gods agai...

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cops are only in it for themselves , in their jobs to get anyone for their own ends

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you were always on your mind, little things you should said and done! you never took the time to listen! so busy making everyone else feel second best! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDe60CbIagg

you were always on your mind, little things you should said and done! you never took the time to lis...

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to the bitch at XS cafe carindale yesterday - i should say to you kiss my ass i am a customer you are just a servant slave! you put on this big performance about getting people to move like we were a bunch of children and you some where but no where was their any waiters bringing hot drinks near by and you insulted me slut. i don't take kindly to being spoken to like i am always in the way of people this is a pattern that has been happening all my life and do it again and i will see you sacked. slut slave servant scum. and then it had the hide to ask for my order and i was silent to respond for about half a minute and was going say "oh are you sure i am not in your way, are you really quiet 100percent sure i am not in the way?" but i didn't want to look vivacious so i said nothing but vowed to punish her later and I will. dirty young slut and I am senior to her, in my day when we were working we were not allowed to speak to customers or our elders with rudeness like that. I'll make the little slutty pay.

to the bitch at XS cafe carindale yesterday - i should say to you kiss my ass i am a customer you ar...

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as you can see I don't get on that great with doctors or ambulance and I don't get on with lawyers much or even churches I keep a healthy distance deliberately, and I have never trusted police and I hate military people and royals and famous rich fucks more. I hate radio people and alp political people the most. I blame them for everything. absolutely everything. I struggle to get on with counsellors and psychologists cuz they all talk a mumbo-jumbo and you only learn that when you learn psychology and counselling that their all full of talking shit! making money scamming and frauding victims of abuse trying to always put the blame back on you and you go away feeling assaulted by them most of the time. so I don't trust a lot of people. I would never ever ever trust qut staff ever again. someone stole my bag someone has played a satanic occult game of abuse on me so sometimes I do it back to others anyone who demonstrates a slight fault I usually pay them back some how. and I don't want to see that slut townsville whore tart hairdressor again either she is a old hag who is inlove with her genitals and does she love herself or what mate! i hate those type. they think they are sexy, I just laugh at them.

as you can see I don't get on that great with doctors or ambulance and I don't get on with lawyers m...

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