the joke is this loser compares himself to a professional !

Last month, I bought my first bikini in years. Literally, in 8ish years. I look fine in the bikini, but I just don't feel it, you know? My thighs are a bit bigger than other peoples at my age because being in a traveling dance group builds up strength. My butt is fine, I don't really care about it. It's my stomach that really bothers me. I'm perfectly normal for my height and age (5,6 and 14 y/o female), but I just feel fat (140 pounds). I have a stress-eating problem and now, everything is catching up with me. So I'm eating less. I started off by eating everything later. Then I turned lunch and dinner into snacks rather than full meals. Then I started skipping lunch and breakfast became a snack. Now, I only eat a snack for breakfast, I skip lunch, and for than half the week, I skip dinner altogether.

Last month, I bought my first bikini in years. Literally, in 8ish years. I look fine in the bikini, ...

I have been dealing with chronic pain for a long time now and on pain meds for almost a year with prior issues with pain meds. However, this time, after finishing a 10 year treatment, I thought I could safely take the pain meds but only to find out it is hard not take something when I hurt all the time; and sometimes I hurt even after I take it. I am stuck between needing something to curtail the pain and do not want to be on something I have to rely on for a long time or the rest of my life. I feel my next dr appointment, if I choose to go, at the pain clinic will be my last because of keep coming up empty a couple days early... Also the last appointment I asked dr about going up on dose but the dr said there are changes coming that will slow down a lot of people who are on pain medicine so the dr prefers to keep me at the current level... I am seriously thinking about not even going to the appointment.

I have been dealing with chronic pain for a long time now and on pain meds for almost a year with pr...

I guess I'm sorry for being too emotional, for being insecure. I'm sorry you don't care about anything,I guess I'm sorry you never put in effort, or show comfort. I'm sorry I'm jealous. I'm sorry for being sensitive because my past, I'm truly sorry for the way I look. I'm sorry you have to hide things from me, I'm sorry you have to lie to me. I guess I expected so much, or maybe it's that I get to little. No.. It's me, you're perfect. I'm sorry you have to deal with a broken person, I mean what do YOU expect. I let you inside and you don't seem to care either,I'm sorry you're embarrassed to tell people who I..think I am to you. I'm sorry you never have time for me, and when you do its for other people. I'm sorry all the other guys you talk to get me mad/jealous. I'm sorry that you don't want a future together,I'm sorry for this pain you inflict upon me. I'm sorry you have to hide me from other people, I'm sorry I bother you with my thoughts or feelings.

I guess I'm sorry for being too emotional, for being insecure. I'm sorry you don't care about anythi...