i cheat my gf, for 4 months...and she doesn't know...yet

idk anymore ive been having this feeling for a while now and turns out, its emotional cheating. i have a bf and almost a year into my relationship, i met this other guy and we instantly became besties, we are super close now, closer than we probably should be, and i know that he likes me, i admitted i like him too but i havent started a relationship with him because i dont want to be officially cheating with my bf, even though i technically am. i know this is wrong and i hate that im doing this but i like them both, i love my bf, idk if i love my bestie, and i hate doing this but i cant help it. i get different things from the 2 of them and sometimes my bestie acts more like my bf than my actual bf. i dont want to lose my bf if he finds out how close i really am with my bestie and i dont want to lose my bestie if he gets tired of me having my bf in the way between us

idk anymore ive been having this feeling for a while now and turns out, its emotional cheating. i ...

My girlfriend and I have been going out for 1.5 years. Everything was going really well, and I couldn't imagine going through life with anyone else. Then, at the start of 2017, things started going downhill in my life. I was struggling financially, whereas she is financially sound. I was trying to find a better job, then I got pushed out of my current job with no backup. Through all of this, my depression has been going crazy, with my insecurities wreaking havoc on my peace of mind. I lost a previous girlfriend in very similar circumstances, because she couldn't handle the idea of uncertainty in my future. I asked my current girlfriend if she has concerns about the current situation, and if she wanted to stay with me through this time. She said she needed time to think about it. Since then, she has become more emotionally and physically distant, and I don't know if it means I need to move on or just try and get my life in order and deal with her later.

My girlfriend and I have been going out for 1.5 years. Everything was going really well, and I could...

So much for "Best Friend" I am so sick of putting up with shit from my so-called "Best friend"! He constantly makes me feel like shit, uses me, asks me for things, and makes me feel like a fucking burden to him. And the other day i made a mistake, a big one albeit, but all the same. Background, I'm gay, he's straight, and very comfortable with his sexuality and it's never been a problem between us. We even kiss sometimes, just because I think that way he thinks he's doing something for me so he has something to hold over my head. Anyways, the other night I spent the night at his house, and i kissed him good night, and the confession is I don't know what happened/what i was thinking but i just didn't pull away. It wasn't a make out session or anything, and I certainly don't want him like that at all, but I just didn't pull away. And i apologized for it, and he didn't make a big deal out of it at all and we went on to have a great night. However, the next day, he told I made him ridiculously uncomfortable, and how he didn't want to be around me anymore. I have done so much for this bitch, he has a terrible home life, I have snuck him out of his house, he went without a job for a while, I fed him. I even filled his gas tank, so he could go see his ex-girlfriend 2 hours away. I even bought her fucking birthday gift for him. I have done nothing but love and help this guy, and then tonight he told me that he has been thinking that I have been using him for his body this entire time... like i was some manipulative rapist. I have had several boyfriends and multiple hook ups in our time, I'm far from sex hungry. I was raped as an 8 year old... and being compared to that monster... I've never been hit so hard. I hate him. And i regret loving him so much.

So much for "Best Friend" I am so sick of putting up with shit from my so-called "Best friend"! He ...