I lied...

I got raped two years ago, and I couldn't tell anyone... when I finally did today, they asked, "Oh my God! Are you serious?"...  I... just... lost my nerve and said "No." They looked at me strange, then punched me and said "YOU DIRTY LITTLE LYING WHORE!" I then got raped again yesterday by the same guy for "Almost telling"... Can you forgive me for lying to my friend...?