I am depressed :-(

we hate this old bombed out dumpster pissshit vomit house we live in. we never liked it. we always felt we deserved better. we never got a choice. it was a thorn in our side from the start. a hovelhole of hell and pain and that is all it can offer anyone who comes here or who buys it. I seriously think its cursed and haunted and that can't be fixed without the structure being demonished and a new house being built on it at the least. we want to move to a better neighborhood that feels alive and friendly how the neighborhood used to feel. now this neighborhood is so scummy, impoverished. everywhere is decay up and down the street and old derelict homes of the poor classes. a shit scum neighborhood and a disgusting house that never gave us one day of joy right from the start to now. which is why I want to find a better place. something more upmarket and swish, that is more me. it wouldn't be so bad if we had not been abused and had things fixed at the right time and I believe we bought a lie of a place. it was only bought for a happiness of 2 sluts and the karma here is going back to the people who sent the bad karma, cuz we came here with a open mind to "make do" but we always wanted and felt we deserved better.

we hate this old bombed out dumpster pissshit vomit house we live in. we never liked it. we always f...

Some people say MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and maybe that’s right, some thing can’t be bought by MONEY. But those fucking peoples only can say such BULLSHIT, NONSENSE BECAUSE THEY HAVE MONEY, MORE THAN ENOUGH TO LIVE FOR 7 GENERATIONS. EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY NOWADAYS. without money, YOU ARE NOTHING, FACE REALITY! I have a very good morals that i think i was born in a wrong generation, i should’ve born in an older generation. But i’m still nothing coz I DON’T HAVE MONEY. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT MONEY NOWADAYS. My confidence dropped to lower than zero coz i have no money. So sad that i see a very important people of mine got left by his relatives and friend after he’s broke, although he’s a good people. Before, when he got money, he too believe, that MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and that’s CLEARLY WRONG. Now after he’s broke, he always said this to me, “FIND MORE MONEY MORE AND MORE, THERE’S NEVER ENOUGH FOR MONEY, for MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING BUT EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY”. And that’s the TRUTH. And now I SHALL BE NEXT. So fuck everything! I won’t find anything cause i don’t have money, money 1st, cause if YOU HAVE MONEY, EVERYTHING WILL COME TO YOU BY ITSELF. Easy Pie. MONEY IS GOD, PERIOD! All those fucking peoples saying MONEY is NOT everything, I CHALLENGE YOU ALL, CAN YOU FUCKING LIVE WITHOUT MONEY? IF YOU CAN, YOU ARE MY GOD, YOU CAN HAVE MY EVERYTHING INCLUDING MY LIFE. FUCK YOU ALL. FUCK YOU MONEY. FUCK YOU GOD. FOR GOD IS MONEY. ALL THE TRUE AND GOOD QUOTES ARE THE NEGATIVES ONES FOR ME. LIKE “DREAM SMALL OR NOT AT ALL” THAT’S WHAT’S GOOD FOR YOU IF YOU DON’T HAVE MONEY AND STILL WANT HAPPINESS. I SHOULD’VE JUST DIE ALREADY. I DON’T HAVE MONEY, I AM NOTHING, EVEN IF I DIE, NONE WILL MOURN FOR ME, FOR I AM USELESS.

Some people say MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and maybe that’s right, some thing can’t be bought by MONEY...

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month, how are we supposed to get ahead? we are as broken as can be but not unbreakable yet ; not disposable yet.

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month...