I am depressed :-(

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competition now. you get thrown on a sexual, job and life scrap heap. my parents went through it and so have I. its life's way of kicking you down. like australia post stealing my mail. soon I am ringing the obudsmen to complain. probably my shithouse cousin is behind that out of vendetta just because he abused me as a kid. you can blame joyce , spongybum user bunnypoopeta bunnpoeta the joke of all jokes, i never wanted others knowing my business. his and joyce and ken's and leigh's threats made me do eratic things out of anxeity and phobic fear of being bashed. that is another reason i won't come into relationships. it usually starts and ends with being bashed by some slut dog or deranged male. nope. won't come into it. I laugh at others in relationships cuz you have to ask yourself. "how did that ugly bitch get him or how did that ugly bastard get her" and usually its violence that got them there just like in jobs too. politics all based on violence and threats not popularity. wake up world you sure need to be educated by me to be enlighten!

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competi...

look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isolated time of my life and no one liked me for my good looks, so how do you think they really are. faking it too! the church told me (we turn to outward ungodly things and sex and lust and looks and body image and sex and money when we are indebt to god in ourselves indebt and redundant and escaping gods truths). and you know you don't want to fall down that hole again! been there and done that and everyone ends up a sucker there. wiser people back off. only maturity and experience can teach you when to say "enough already who gives a dam!"

look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isol...

look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat and ugly? right. all my ear and health problems and you know what hurt me the most I couldn't even get to thank the nicer ambulance officers that took me to hospital in tears struggling to walk and it felt like I had a helment on my head from the histimines how the effected the membrane around the brain and all the sudifed, I can't believe GP's or doctor in australia would put me in hospital I begged them to but they wouldn't. I got sick of trying to medicate and monitor medications myself and too much sudifed is dangerous and anti-inflammatory. all I wanted was for someone to hold me so I could just cry. they had heart monitors on me every time I went to hospital. now I know why! one day I will tell someone the whole story and they will see how evil and unfair it is and how none of it made sense to a reasonable person. its taught me to never really trust anyone ever again. if joyce and rick and katy and ken wasn't enough abuse and lessons, doctors abusing me has and these neighbors abusing me. butting in on my childhood and illnesses and assaults I have suffered. when you hear the full story it will shock the hell out of anyone.

look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat a...