I am depressed :-(

sometimes I just want a bit of professional privacy to talk to my doctor alone! there is nothing to be read into it, its just he knows how to fix my illness best when I am like this. He knows what I mean all too well. just don't turn it into something its not yet. I don't want to be embarrassed.

sometimes I just want a bit of professional privacy to talk to my doctor alone! there is nothing to ...

brigette and bugsy were definately on as a couple and I don't know if louise ever knew. I knew brigette was on with heaps of guys, there were that many of them. she would just flick you off when she had a boyfriend and then expect you to be all over her fussing after her after months of rejection while she was off, well you know with a few. that was why I didn't go to her 21st birthday, it was always on her terms only friendship and you know when your being used for her to get to other guys like bugsy around me and my cousin. and I went all weird when she took me around on a graveyard crawl we must have gone to a few grave yards over a few weekends when i was 13 and I felt the presence of a spirit or ghost around me, bugsy came back with vicky and didn't say who they were. I was sick, of course! what else! of course I had to be sick when ever a man was around so nothing would happen, so the spirit/ghost would have its way. I want to know about this ghost. this dam thing. I was having nightmares after the graveyards all the weekends and horror films and I experienced something ghostly that freaked me out then. that was 1986 or so. I went all weird cuz I couldn't sleep and my sister and her boyfriend would kick me out of bedrooms all the time so I never knew where I was going to sleep in the lounge floor watching music video clips alone.

brigette and bugsy were definately on as a couple and I don't know if louise ever knew. I knew brige...

i used to look through all the avon books and ask the avon lady to order in one of the male models for me. then I started wanting to adopt all the kids in the books as well. I used to pretend they were my own children. wondering what they would look like. then I found jenny at the campus and wanted her son and I used to imagine he was really my child and she was the surigette of my son back in 2002. I considered being a surigate to a family who could not have children and signed up for it even but haven't heard a thing. I considered having a one night stand but that isn't me. never done that ever and never could unless he was a model and seriously hot looking. I went out with a male model who was a pilot on a few occasions, he was a levi's guy model in the 1980s heap of uselessness crying poor and in debt to a song of like 1 million and throwing off at me for not working so I got rid of him because he was an asshole. I met a hot gay male model when I was working in a 5 star hotel in the butlers dept. they all loved me there cuz i was so keen to work then I got friends with another gay 5 star matradee, and a gay radio guy I don't talk to many of them now. but I do have a friend who knows how to get cheap tickets into places and holidays she said she will always help me out with that. she is a great friend to me. the only real nice person towards me.

i used to look through all the avon books and ask the avon lady to order in one of the male models f...