I am depressed :-(

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want to understand what I am going through. I try so hard to put on a pretence of fake jolliness but I often sit crying alone in my room just wish someone would hug me. I never live up to what people want and they just walk over me too much. I feel so down and depressed and only a doctor or a woman going through this can understand. I wish there were support groups locally. I know people think its stupid but it is a real physical and psychological thing for me, I feel almost psychotic and paranoia and like everyone hates me and I have no friends. all my friends disappoint me deliberately so I guess I should learn to do that back more to people right. stop being the one that makes things good and ok for those who don't give a shit about me, like the choirs and churches and poeple like kelly and sally who just use and walk over me because I am so nice... oh they are so needing more then me, how dare I put my feelings and needs first! well sorry but I have to bitches!.

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want ...

I seen this really good looking you guy the other day in the city and I always wanted a man like him. I wished I was young again. I looked at him because he was just so exhaustingly good looking then gone. I wish men like that would talk to me. I dont know how to make them notice me. I never did know and got all the old men of 70 and it never made sense to me cuz I really liked men around my age and a bit younger. was I that ugly they couldn't have confidence to flirt and ask me out? why don't men do that anymore with women? It has been years since a nice man genuinly flirted with me.

I seen this really good looking you guy the other day in the city and I always wanted a man like him...

sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" that is all I have ever done all my life, helped others get what they want, removed myself away so other whores could get cock and glory, see others loved and happy in careers etc, whose been interested in me and helping me? no one! besides, she is the one who has been married a dozen times not me. she could give up hunting and give other women a go, as my doctor told me to tell her.

sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" t...