I am depressed :-(

I'm not stupid.... I know you talk to heaps of girls, i know you say the exact same things to them all. You go out of your way to find them on fb trying to strike up convos with randoms whenever u get a response. Is it because it makes you feel good about yourself to get attention from girls or you're just hoping to find another f*** buddy or at least someone to send u naughty pictures...i don't understand how u can do it when you love someone so much... All these girls u talk about or have pictures of, u say too much i've put 2 and 2 together a lot & worked out who they are...i know they had bfs and who they were to you or they weren't just a root they were ur ex-gf (y not just say). You can send <3's, i'll prob send them back coz honestly you do have a bit of it, it's cute and all but i don't think i'll ever take it seriously, even if for some strange reason you actually mean it (why anyone would i'll never know, there's more to me than you'll ever work out)...prove i like you, ha i don't have to prove anything to you i've said everything i feel and you made me feel stupid for doing it, if anything it's the other way round you should be proving it. Our relationships are f*****....yours she seems quite content with how it is, i doubt she'll change. If somehow something happened i doubt we'd work, i don't think i could trust you fully and you might not trust me either. If i could turn it back i'd rather just be amazing friends that share everything...that's all i really want, someone i can talk to about everything, sometimes you make me feel that way other times i just feel used... You lie to me now or just extend the truth, I don't see the point, why not just be honest instead. What is there to gain from it, why not just answer questions truthfully....i'm not stupid.... I like you too much, even with all of that, everything else about you is amazing it's just that one small part that scares me. Sometimes i hate that you can make me feel so special but i know i'm not the only one...this sucks, i just want one person in my life i can rely on. Is that too much to ask?.... x

I'm not stupid.... I know you talk to heaps of girls, i know you say the exact same things to them ...

ver7 depressed over study, too man choices are dangerious. just want an easy ride to it to be honest. i am bored studying and no social life. I want to go out be my own woman and find love and study sure but where are we going with all this crap? where is the life I was supposed to have? that mattered to me. oh I am so sorry that you fucked up my life then wanna play noble cock 300 years later after the fact, the crime and the insults to open wounds. yeh. you dirty grinch, because now you left me trying to study shit in a foreign country that take forever to respond and make assessment and can't speak fucking english well. and seriously I could do a degree on udemy per subject just as ligit one day. so you offer me file ok, I will do it, but rome wasn't built in a day.

ver7 depressed over study, too man choices are dangerious. just want an easy ride to it to be honest...

physically/mentally/verbally abusive brother I am a 14yr old girl, my brother is 16. Fuck my life. He makes me want to kill myself. Nobody does anything about him and his aggressive behavior, because they think it's just a phase. I have had 100% ENOUGH of being called a bitch, ugly, useless, worthless, ungrateful, unmotivated, lowly, and trash. I am tired of being hit and punched aggressively whenever he doesn't get his way. I am tired of being scared of MY OWN BROTHER, IN MY OWN HOUSE. When he is forced to drive me places, and I say something he doesn't like in the car, he will drive faster and swerve and threaten to make me walk 15 miles back home. Once I had friends over, and my parents made us go downstairs so we could all sleep on the couch. He was there. I just thought "oh shit." I asked him politely to move. He did. He went to the bathroom. Me and my friends settled down while he was in there, but surprise; when he came out, he threw me off the couch, on the ground, and punched me. HARD. In the face. My friends didn't do anything, or say anything really the rest of the night. When they were asleep, I cried, but I guess one of them heard me and asked if I wanted to call the police or talk to my parents. I couldn't, because I was scared and thought it would pass like the rest of the family. But it NEVER DOES. Driving to volleyball practice is hell; a whole 20 minutes straight of being told I'm mediocre and worthless, and that I think I'm so much better than everyone. I just want to get away. I want him to stop being such a controlling scumbag. I want to stop lying about my bruises. I want to die. I DONT think I'm better than everyone. I promise, man. Please. I just.. I'm so scared for who he marries. He's so controlling and abusive and MANIPULATIVE. I'm scared. I'm scared.

physically/mentally/verbally abusive brother I am a 14yr old girl, my brother is 16. Fuck my life....