I am depressed :-(

I don't like liars and sexual preditory women who are like valentina, they are evil, dirty over sexed, beastial, vulgar, hypocrites and bed hop whoring does not make you some puritan later. I don't believe this woman is of good spirit and I believe her to be evil and deceptive and rude, arrogant, spiteful and nasty I never liked her. liars never change from being liars. a leapard never changes its spots.

I don't like liars and sexual preditory women who are like valentina, they are evil, dirty over sexe...

I don't like the advertising on the railways lately, its not nice and it has a mean arrogance to it. its spiteful really I notice this in a lot of adverts. like I can't stand laughing women and kids I just feel they are satanic and laughing at you. then there is the cheeky ones with kids poking tongues at those quick id photo labs in shops I find these offensive deeply as if the child is being vulgar to people and it literally makes me want to cry or do it back. like one day a child did that to me so I gave him the old elbow up fist "meaning up your ass with this fist" kind of thing and was his mother offended that I would up and do that to her rude child. I did it right infront of my mum as well and she said well, the little brat is all of 3 being nasty like all my life I have had kids and people being nasty to me, its rare for me to meet someone who is nice anymore because children have become so childish now. and it was a rare thing for me to be allowed to be childlike let alone childish. and I have feelings too. so when people at college in 2004 were calling me ugly and abusing me I told them off and didn't go back it was their unprofessional behavior that drove me away from them. my sister was saying all her friends and husbands said I was ugly. and I thought well know what people think your ugly. the way you treat people is ugly. your games are ugly. its like these royals and pop stars who are abusive. that is not nice, its just plain ugly. what ricky and william did to me was just plain evil ugly. its unforgiveable. like all my relatives. I don't have any cousins and relatives then ones at home here. I don't care for them because they didn't do the right thing by me. like the churches. they all wronged me. so now I can be like "oh mum she/he wronged me! she/he wronged me mum!" bla bla bla that little crapper went on with his lies so I do it back to people. royals don't want to like me even when i was nice well they can stuff off and pop stars. they are the worse liars. lucky I don't have to be around those sorts of people anymore. i wasn't put on this earth to be abused by rich spoilt royals with their abusive games!

I don't like the advertising on the railways lately, its not nice and it has a mean arrogance to it....

today I felt offended. I went to buy and very beautiful orchid and the cashier was making out it was not healthy and I should have stuck with "I will take it anyway" she made it sound like it was a difficult task and its not at all to cut the old roots off, I think she just wanted it for herself or repot it and sell it at a dearer price, some orchids will droop depending on the breed and I am sure she diddled me, we put a ticket in the raffle and the lady said "well I hope you win the raffle then" we go to all these flower exhibitions taking photos and I love the smell and I could take photos a lot and interview the society people and how they judge it, it all seems so scientific and like "clever clever". then I thought of a childrens books activity and stories around flowers we have photographed. and thought it would be good to interview the winners plants and talk about their work in floral art and plant cultivation and prize judging! I talked to a guy today who was explaining to me how they cross pollenate to get her varieties and colors. that is my sort of interest not joyce and frngie bi/gay swingers clubs. I wouldn't want to be in sexual rubbish and I didn't put my name to anything I did with rick and katy or joyce or anita. cuz I just don't need the bs of it all. I am past all that. so anyway we did by a hanging orchid and moss and we bought another one a while back and I want to get more confidence growing them I would love a whole conversatory of them and nocturnal flowers that glow in the dark and radiate vibrant strings of delight, already we have a peach tree, frangipani will flower soon, 2 types of jasmin, camelias (I want to learn how to wax them), also azalahas and these japanese look yesterday,today, tomorrow and bromiliads and ciads agapathas and staghorns and clivia, bird of paradise and alamanda and flowering may and hibscus and geishas and roses delbards and david austins and herbs and lavander and this thing that has a sweet honey strong aroma at night so it does smell very frangrant during august, sept, october. but I did like this white orchid. so i was hurt. the fragrance of the big ones was lovely and I like the hanging ones a lot.

today I felt offended. I went to buy and very beautiful orchid and the cashier was making out it was...