I am depressed :-(

why should I hang around these bands who bullshitted me around and ripped me off. I lost interest in them in 2004. basically my attitude is I was expecting to be liked and complete my course and I might have got some help like others but I don't see why I was not given the chance to complete the course when I was one of the least bitching and least scoffy lot there who were making insulting references daily about teachers and admin at the college and their obvious preferences to certain students to be allowed pass and how some were allowed pre veligers and others were not. I did nothing illegal and I resent the way I was treated. no excuse for bowie and his bullshit they can all fuck off! I was good enough and pushed out on the dumb heap at 23 passed up by men and for work so you don't get over the hurt and the haters that easy. I own no one a thing!

why should I hang around these bands who bullshitted me around and ripped me off. I lost interest in...

my relatives do not frighten me because I know all their dirty stories and lies and secrets and I can embarrase them any time. its like m peterson n don if those two where not scammers in 1977 abusing me. I have no idea why they were doing it I was only 5 or 6 but I think its evil. I am not taking the blame for anything, everyone has said to me I am not to blame for anything that happen or what that pedo got me to do as a innocent naive child, he did that to dad and ros and rose and others and I don't feel bad about it i was just a child less then 10. I don't know why I have been singled out but I don't like it and I am deeply resentful and bitter and I feel I have righteous anger over it all!

my relatives do not frighten me because I know all their dirty stories and lies and secrets and I ca...

I am trying to plan my cruise- I went into this membership club where you buy one and a person goes free with you and onlyhas to payfor luggage and admin fees and I want to take my parents to nordic areas and baltic, meditarian and cario egypt. I would go to hawaii or bora islands but I want to have a good time and we can share a penthouse suite or balcony suit with the three of us. if I had a boyfriend or husband I would go with them but I want to take my parents on at least one decident holiday. we want to see mediterainian, greece, france and egypt and we would go to japan and iceland and russia. I just can't afford it all and have to really save money, I have never been overseas and neither has my parents so it would be nice seeing we have all had cancer. I wish I had a boyfriend to go with however, it would be a nice honeymoon alone.

I am trying to plan my cruise- I went into this membership club where you buy one and a person goes ...