Confessions about 'Pride'

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i know now how much life i have not lived being tortured so much. that is the painful part that is hard to handle in me. i have hardly lived and my mother said to me when i nearly died in hospital "you have a lot to look forward to" and I just laughed at her as if hmm, you reckon, just more misery, there will never be a happy day til I am proved right about the people who abused me and they are dead so i can live my life. cuz some entity does not want me enjoying life or having a career or marriage or health because if it did, it would have known i wanted those things 25-30 years ago. it wouldn't hurt me like this if it knew i wanted my freedom to date who ever i want and not old stupid farts and idiots and it never would have had ken in my life. i never wrote ken in my life, or rick or russell, or any of the idiots i had to put up with. they were my penance. i did the time with a old pedo before i did any god dam crime on this earth and that is the truth. and church scum can say to me, "well you must have looked to be abused and molested at the age of 5 a part of you wanted it", yeh you think so? and so my dad must have too and my sister and my dads sister and my cousins and god knows whoelse. my mum must have wanted to be attacked every pay just to get her govt management wage. sure. that makes a lot of holy bible bullshit sense to me.

i know now how much life i have not lived being tortured so much. that is the painful part that is h...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Blasphemy

i don't know why we are being taught all this stuff because there will be no jobs for us just like there are no men for us. ok. what is the point of trying? give 1 reason to try anymore? old fuckers won't give up their jobs for younger people or even middle aged people without a house or husband to have a future let alone the young! so yeh, I stare right through my teacher and i don't bother talking to her what is the point, its just a computer and animated voice over the phone. what is the point?

i don't know why we are being taught all this stuff because there will be no jobs for us just like t...

Pride, Murder, Hate, Violence

and i don't want to be anyones friend but be around my mother and cats. friends are a waste of time. they don't care. i have always played life so safe i would cut off a limb and have no relationship to be safer then in one that is how I look at life. no man would give me much anyway. all users and losers. deadbeats and idiots. all men are scum my mum is right about that. dad says it too. they are right.

and i don't want to be anyones friend but be around my mother and cats. friends are a waste of time....

Pride, Abuse, Hate

then i get aching veins in my left arm which i started getting as a teen now i know they are collapsing n this feeling like a static shock in the chest and anal bleeding out of nowhere and server period pain. and no husband no man at all to support me or want to have a marriage and baby with me. and just don't even bring up work. i am sick of being rejected for work applications and men and i go to university class for medical triage and i get stressed and make my mother come to the university campus with me because i am so scared to go alone at night. I have exams and i have to make $2,000 for my medical workshop with my RN teacher and I have no idea where the money is coming from. no idea. like most things. stressed out like you wouldn't believe and one gp said most of my panic is from having no husband to take care of me and think of my needs.

then i get aching veins in my left arm which i started getting as a teen now i know they are collaps...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

i have had it with scammers. you wonder why we don't bother to pick up the phone anymore and ignore people. nothing left to say after all the scamming we been put through over decades.

i have had it with scammers. you wonder why we don't bother to pick up the phone anymore and ignore ...

Adultery, Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

I've been cheatin I've been cheating with a married woman for 15 years. Her husband doesn't know that one of his daughters is actually mine.

I've been cheatin I've been cheating with a married woman for 15 years. Her husband doesn't know tha...

Adultery, Pride, Violence, Gay, Stealing, Marriage

I've Been Working as an Exotic Dancer Really , I never ever Thought that this would happen , But I have secretly been working as an Exotic Dancer . I never thought I could last too long , but my True Confession is that I really Enjoy It . Im able , to Display my Sexuality , and the Guys get really Really Turned On , Plus I get paid Great Money ... Its Really a great Industry , and I cant see why more Slim attractive Girls dont get into it . The Only problem is Until now , I've kept this Secret

I've Been Working as an Exotic Dancer Really , I never ever Thought that this would happen , But I h...

Pride

I have known her best friend before I dated my girlfriend, sadly, I already was. But here she is acting so regretful we were never a family the previous night, then 24 hours my damn self at the last minute. but recently my crush on her is getting more and more intense...because suddenly I find that she has many qualities that my girlfriend doesn't. Now that my girlfriend is not around, I would always try to spend time with her and make some excuses to go to her place. I would make up occasions that only the both of us would attend, and she actually accepts my invitation. I really enjoyed spending time with her and always wanted to be close to her. I think I have fallen in love with her and the feeling of love is even more intense than towards my girlfriend because I feel really, I've been driving to the free dentist a couple hours away (four hour drive total each time) every week for four weeks to take care of my mouth. They were surprised at how few sealants I had. I only remember my mom taking me to that dentist a couple times as a teen... and it was right there. My stepdad never talks to me. If he walks in the room while I'm in there, he acts like I shouldn't be there. He called me a bitch a few times as a teen. really happy when I am able to see her and I constantly want to share all the good stuff with her.never ... She will never feel the same

I have known her best friend before I dated my girlfriend, sadly, I already was. But here she is ac...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

It's Over Yeah, I dropped your phone number out of my phone. I erased your e-mail from my account. I dropped you as a MySpace and Facebook friend. I have known you for over ten years. I am one that you came to cry to. I supported your silly schemes, and tried to make sure you didn't lose your ass when you did them. I was honest and caring. I was a friend. I have been married some years now. You have a way of saying the wrong thing in front of my wife. I never got in your pants, but wasn't overly interested in doing so either. Yoou know less than zero of my personal past, so I don't know why you say some of the things you do. You'll be yet another woman of 30 something at the Anime convention by yourself....you really need a life outside of Japanese 12 year old girl heros. Good luck

It's Over Yeah, I dropped your phone number out of my phone. I erased your e-mail from my account. ...

Adultery, Pride

I am illegal immigrant here. I used fake document until high school. I lie to all my friend. Sometimes I run away from them. I am clever enough to go to university but I can’t since I don’t have proper documents. I want to have drving licence like everyone but I can’t. There is nothing I can do here. I don’t know why my parents want us to stay here. I want to go back to my own country but I can’t. I don’t have enough money. If anyone who rich enough can give me money, I will do anything. I hate my life…. I have anxiety because of this.

I am illegal immigrant here. I used fake document until high school. I lie to all my friend. Sometim...

Pride

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuable back in return. I don't own a house or car and i could do with a house of my own and a career. Its too late for children and I really feel my health is too risky to bare children now. I get regular skin bleeding around the vagina area from the auto-immune disorder that i thought when i was 25 was hiv aids and herpes and syphilis or tb also of the ear and i was running round having blood tests all the time to check. its still a fear in me that ken who raped me gave me hiv aids. I never wanted a loser like him and I don't ever want to see him again and my mother and father have said they would murder him. it would ease my mind to know a lot of people who i hate who attacked me are dead like robodog and rick and ken and so i could just move on to a new life without them as part of it. they were never ment to be in my life book and i want a new chapter that is very choosi about who is welcome in my life and they are not welcome. there is a lot of people not welcome. and looking for honest respectful people they don't have to be rich. I am just sick of being forced to make do and told how to feel and expected to give when i don't want to anymore. i don't want to be nice to many people anymore. i am cynical and sarcastic now. I love being around people who make fun of the rich and uperty and fake asses out there and scammers. I done penance for being abused child now. putting up with brisbane and the people here is penance. i hate them.

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuabl...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month, how are we supposed to get ahead? we are as broken as can be but not unbreakable yet ; not disposable yet.

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month...

Pride

Some people say MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and maybe that’s right, some thing can’t be bought by MONEY. But those fucking peoples only can say such BULLSHIT, NONSENSE BECAUSE THEY HAVE MONEY, MORE THAN ENOUGH TO LIVE FOR 7 GENERATIONS. EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY NOWADAYS. without money, YOU ARE NOTHING, FACE REALITY! I have a very good morals that i think i was born in a wrong generation, i should’ve born in an older generation. But i’m still nothing coz I DON’T HAVE MONEY. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT MONEY NOWADAYS. My confidence dropped to lower than zero coz i have no money. So sad that i see a very important people of mine got left by his relatives and friend after he’s broke, although he’s a good people. Before, when he got money, he too believe, that MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and that’s CLEARLY WRONG. Now after he’s broke, he always said this to me, “FIND MORE MONEY MORE AND MORE, THERE’S NEVER ENOUGH FOR MONEY, for MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING BUT EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY”. And that’s the TRUTH. And now I SHALL BE NEXT. So fuck everything! I won’t find anything cause i don’t have money, money 1st, cause if YOU HAVE MONEY, EVERYTHING WILL COME TO YOU BY ITSELF. Easy Pie. MONEY IS GOD, PERIOD! All those fucking peoples saying MONEY is NOT everything, I CHALLENGE YOU ALL, CAN YOU FUCKING LIVE WITHOUT MONEY? IF YOU CAN, YOU ARE MY GOD, YOU CAN HAVE MY EVERYTHING INCLUDING MY LIFE. FUCK YOU ALL. FUCK YOU MONEY. FUCK YOU GOD. FOR GOD IS MONEY. ALL THE TRUE AND GOOD QUOTES ARE THE NEGATIVES ONES FOR ME. LIKE “DREAM SMALL OR NOT AT ALL” THAT’S WHAT’S GOOD FOR YOU IF YOU DON’T HAVE MONEY AND STILL WANT HAPPINESS. I SHOULD’VE JUST DIE ALREADY. I DON’T HAVE MONEY, I AM NOTHING, EVEN IF I DIE, NONE WILL MOURN FOR ME, FOR I AM USELESS.

Some people say MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING, and maybe that’s right, some thing can’t be bought by MONEY...

Pride, Lie

we hate this old bombed out dumpster pissshit vomit house we live in. we never liked it. we always felt we deserved better. we never got a choice. it was a thorn in our side from the start. a hovelhole of hell and pain and that is all it can offer anyone who comes here or who buys it. I seriously think its cursed and haunted and that can't be fixed without the structure being demonished and a new house being built on it at the least. we want to move to a better neighborhood that feels alive and friendly how the neighborhood used to feel. now this neighborhood is so scummy, impoverished. everywhere is decay up and down the street and old derelict homes of the poor classes. a shit scum neighborhood and a disgusting house that never gave us one day of joy right from the start to now. which is why I want to find a better place. something more upmarket and swish, that is more me. it wouldn't be so bad if we had not been abused and had things fixed at the right time and I believe we bought a lie of a place. it was only bought for a happiness of 2 sluts and the karma here is going back to the people who sent the bad karma, cuz we came here with a open mind to "make do" but we always wanted and felt we deserved better.

we hate this old bombed out dumpster pissshit vomit house we live in. we never liked it. we always f...

Pride

Girlfriends sister My girlfriends sister is 19 and is hot! I've took 2 pairs of her panties and looked at her bra size 38D. First time I was like wow was at the public pool where she came out and her top was obviously to small. She don't have much of a ass but really cute innocent face. Later I just came out and asked her if she would want to hook up. She said ummm never. lol ooook. I would love to get with her but don't think it happen. I pretty much told my girlfriend your sister is hot, she said yea I know but she is afraid of guys. She lives with her family 2 brother and mom/dad out in bfe. Really starting think her family does stuff to her. She pretty much just likes guys off tv shows like a 12 year old does. I know it's wrong take her panties 1st pair I'm sure she knows I took but she never said anything. Let me add both pairs had no smell at all. Girl must be really clean!! We invited her to beach with us but she said no last month. Her and my girlfriend look alike in face but girlfriend is little heavy so I just pretend I'm f****** her sister.

Girlfriends sister My girlfriends sister is 19 and is hot! I've took 2 pairs of her panties and look...

Pride

I had to prostitute myself About 4 years ago, i got busted for welfare fraud and I got a 2-year sentence. I had to leave my 2-year-old daughter with her father, my then-fiance (he is now my husband), and go do my time. I was placed in a correctional facility that was about 30 minutes from my home, so my then-fiance and our daughter and my mom came to visit me alot (my dad ran off when I was a kid). But after I was there for about 3 months, the assistant-deputy warden told a bunch of us they were going to have to transfer us to another correctional facility that was about 7 hours away because of overcrowding and since we had the least seniority as inmates, we had to make the tranfer. I got an appointment with him and begged him not to transfer me. I told him that, if he transferred me, I would probably almost never get to see my family and that I would go crazy if I couldn't see them. At first he said he didn't care but he shut the door and told me that, if I made it worth his while by having s with him, he wouldn't transfer me. I said OK because I thought he meant just one time. I found out, soon enough, that that was not what he meant. He re-assigned me from my other prison job in the kitchen to be his secretary. The first day I was there he pulled me into his office and had s with me. Then he did it again on the second day. Then again on the third day and on and on and on. He ended up making me have s with him almost every day for the rest of my prison term. I always just went along with it because he always could have had me transferred to another prison anytime he wanted to and I really didn't want to be transferred. About 6 months before I was set to get out, I came up pregnant and I told him I was pregnant. He granted me a special waiver for me to have a conjugal visit with my fiance, even though he was not yet my husband. He said it was because my behavior in prison had been "exemplary" and because my fiance was the father of my child but we both knew he was just trying to cover up the fact that he got me pregnant. It worked. I had s with my husband let him think he got me pregnant. When my baby boy was born, thank goodness he looked alot like my side of the family. My fiance never suspected a thing and we got married. The part that sucks is that that assistant deputy warden who got me pregnant lives in this community. I see him around town and when he sees me, he always get this big grin on his face. He has even come up to me and my husband and said hello to us and to our children (my husband never met him so he doesn't know who he is). I HATE HIM!!!

I had to prostitute myself About 4 years ago, i got busted for welfare fraud and I got a 2-year sent...

Pride, Murder

2015 I was ripped off by a company that was claiming to give me discounts for exercise equipment and I gave up on their diet shakes and their exercise machine was well known for only lasting 12 months and it was going to cost too much to send it back for repair and they wouldn't do a refund or trade in and then something bad happened to the replacement and I gave it away in the end. I am sick of being ripped off. their machines are over $2,000 and I am sick of paying it off when the warranty barely lasts the time out then she blows. rip off.

2015 I was ripped off by a company that was claiming to give me discounts for exercise equipment and...

Pride, Hate

this is my bombshell, I have been ripped off by travel and holiday clubs, last year it was CruiseMegastore this year it has been Platinum and Premiums, I was planning a holiday for my family to Melbourne we been there a few times my dad been there once for a radio conference but we thought it would be nice to see some of melbourne seeing my fathers parents came from victoria and my mums had family in Ballarat so we wanted to make a thing of it and go see the Apostles and the pengiun parade and a castle and see ballerat , we want to go see Flinders Rangers and Cobbrerpedy my mums ancestors were flinders and we wanted to see the underground hotels and I always without fail every year put in a entry to go win a stay at Craigs Royal Hotel in Ballerat for a high tea as well. Looks lovely. we wanted to go to the castle as well and stay there well, I had to cancel most of our trip and lost money. I blame platinum for it because they don't explain things clearly and I was in tears the manager of the hotel was so nice and said to me "love you got to be firmer with them and demand your rights" and I said they won't let me and the govt won't either, if I get stroppy they accuse you of all kinds of things and want to put you away in a padded mental cell, so now I have lost $800 plus over $4,000 in free flights so I am so upset I was crying and speachless I had to speak to a nun to calm myself now about how hurt and upset I was. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoP1WfCmYFQ I mean here it is last year I booked my cruise and I booked one for next year with the help of my aunty as well cuz she is coming but last year my father had to sit in a painful train for 40 hrs and we were all in pain when we could have used the flights. we stayed in a dirt cheap backpackers (we met some lovely people there and it was ok but my parents and I on disability deserve some small luxuries now, in all our lives we have rarely had a holiday, and i could have got discounts in a hotel if they had told me earlier that the flights and deal had to be used up by a certain time. the first time I ever stayed in a hotel was when i was 28 in a motor inn that gave us a lovely breakfast as well. we never stayed in one resort as kids or teens, or in my twenties. I worked cleaning Mercure hotel rooms and work experience at the Heritage Hotel (Samford Plaza) while I was at university saving money. never afford to stay at the place however. my aunty is super rich she won the lotto we didn't. unbelievable! I am so hurt over this. Its going to take me a lot time to get over this. we were looking forward to the Philip Island trip and we have not travelled for relaxation or work even that much. in the last 30 years we took last year our first ever short 3 night cruise and I blame that sarina russo for all this. she is to blame. she knows she is to blame. that woman is going to be remembered like hitler and be facing the wrath of god for what she has done to unemployed victims.

this is my bombshell, I have been ripped off by travel and holiday clubs, last year it was CruiseMeg...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

i don't regret getting rid of the toxic sick people.

Pride, Abuse, Violence

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her custody and he was like a dualist or something like a jekkel and hyde person and their whole family abused our family as well. we don't understand this. its made me untrusting of men and that all men will abuse me, which they have and after being raped and bullied by a few men its made me feel very untrusting of white men and black or asian men, professional men. I don't trust women or therapists much due to being abused. I don't have the same trust in doctors anymore and I don't really even have the same respect for people after all the abuses that have been done to me. this country refusing to allow me my rights to a husband or child or a job has insulted me and my parents. to be honest we want to leave australia and go somewhere where we will be respected and treated better. there just feels like there is no hope here in qld to have a normal enjoyable life. my family feel this way after just too much abuse we never asked for abuse. so this last incident with yet another travel holiday company ripping me off has been the most insulting thing yet. and I have had a lot of insults thrown at me and now I do give them back to people now. I have hate in me, my parents feel the exact same way as I do. we are sick of the disrespect and no hope for better future here.

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her cus...

Pride, Abuse, Hate