I can't take this fat anymore someone save me from my self-sabotaging!

i was never really a upperty rude teen or young adult that is where I went wrong. I should have been a complete mongrel blonde bitch to everyone and been very very very rude, as if I could equal the rudeness people did to me. but one day I might!

i was never really a upperty rude teen or young adult that is where I went wrong. I should have been...

I gave up courses also when guys rejected me at university because it was easier then having to see their cunt faces with bullying whore dogs who has either verbally or physically attacked me for them. so i just up and left.

I gave up courses also when guys rejected me at university because it was easier then having to see ...

i hate my life and my depression is slowly killing me. My job stresses me out and i have to travel far to and from work plus look after my elderly nan. My mum has been diagnosed with a degenerative progressive neurological disease and she is only going to get worse. her health is bad and i need to care for her more and more. I was stressed so i decided to hand my notice in so i can be my mum full time carer and look after nan as well. i thought it was the best plan so i could care for the ones i love and be brave. but now i'm dreading the day i have to leave work i have made a terrible decision i should have carried on struggling with care and work. i'm so scared i'm just going to end up more unhappy with this decision. i am so afraid. i left a good job. i dont like this uncertainty of it all. i'm scared i wish i was not so hasty. this decision was for he good of the famliy but i do not like change. im afraid of regrets i have so many and i dont want this to be one of them.

i hate my life and my depression is slowly killing me. My job stresses me out and i have to travel f...