i need so much help I don't know where to begin ? or who to ask?

I'm depressed because all I want is really in others hands to make it happen. how annoying is that.

I'm depressed because all I want is really in others hands to make it happen. how annoying is that.

its great I have servants here who bring me food every day, I get paid to do nothing and I can insult anyone I like and get away with it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GWaMAKbB7Ts I have a mental illness and in a year or two I will get out of this hell you put me in , https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHgCBol-b2I that doesn't make me crazy crazy but have heightened awareness .I will be away from all you crazy psychopath multiple marrying freak ginny-dogs and I am enjoying the tests at the sanitarium because I am passing them! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNX4nLvIP0Q and I have the loveliest gourmet lunches sometimes its heaven!

its great I have servants here who bring me food every day, I get paid to do nothing and I can insul...

I live in chaos caused by others, I am standing still and all these people with their crazy tornados of madness and insane violence going on around me, they are like the world winds of drama and I am just standing still - I mean "be still and know" really has a meaning!!! it really does! there unreliable and inconsistent and spoilt and indulged with love and I am just still and show more stability in everything I do! they are the drama queens and drama queers in and out of relationships so unreliable and abusive and I am just still!

I live in chaos caused by others, I am standing still and all these people with their crazy tornados...