my argument is if I am so healthy and this is all in my mind, then how come we have this distress everytime I have to have blood tests with collapsing veins and I cry when they say we can't get any blood out? why? I have to lay down and I choose the more experienced blood takers and I won't have new vacum tubes at all they are too harsh on my veins. I can handle injections and local anasethic and surgery over blood tests I can handle I just got sick and tired of ambulance people jabbing me with canulas and blood sugar tests and heart monitors, and dam doctors. I have a lump at the moment I can feel I want to talk to the doctor about, sometimes I have had lumps come up under the arm pits in the lympth area and this one is in anoter area and feels like that needle that went in last surgery. I hate the whole thing. why am I bothering to even study rubbish I will never use anyway?

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my argument is if I am so healthy and this is all in my mind, then how come we have this distress everytime I have to have blood tests with collapsing veins and I cry when they say we can't get any blood out? why? I have to lay down and I choose the more experienced blood takers and I won't have new vacum tubes at all they are too harsh on my veins. I can handle injections and local anasethic and surgery over blood tests I can handle I just got sick and tired of ambulance people jabbing me with canulas and blood sugar tests and heart monitors, and dam doctors. I have a lump at the moment I can feel I want to talk to the doctor about, sometimes I have had lumps come up under the arm pits in the lympth area and this one is in anoter area and feels like that needle that went in last surgery. I hate the whole thing. why am I bothering to even study rubbish I will never use anyway?

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