over the last 24 hours I have had 2 major heartbeat arrhythmias making me cough I can tell cuz it feels like a literal goulp sensation in the blood in the heart I get worried when I get these now, back years ago I used love them and just laugh but now they frighten me more. and for the last 48 hours I have had chronic pain which started the other day I literally pulled a muscule in my arm and the spasms caused a complete cramping all over my chest, diaphram and GI tract and I have had pain swallowing since, I go through this worst now then years ago I was told I have throat damage from having whooping cough as a baby but I noticed it worse after the vaccinations I had 3 years ago during my pnemonia and middle ear infection and serretonian to the point I was calling the ambulance a lot cuz i was having so much trouble swallowing, now I get like spams cramps I have to take medications for. I am just praying these crampy spasms ease up or I will have to see my doctor earlier, I have been putting off blood tests due to my phobia to blood tests needles and all the pain and trouble I go through with collapsing veins and I can't stand the vacuum needles at all.

over the last 24 hours I have had 2 major heartbeat arrhythmias making me cough I can tell cuz it feels like a literal goulp sensation in the blood in the heart I get worried when I get these now, back years ago I used love them and just laugh but now they frighten me more. and for the last 48 hours I have had chronic pain which started the other day I literally pulled a muscule in my arm and the spasms caused a complete cramping all over my chest, diaphram and GI tract and I have had pain swallowing since, I go through this worst now then years ago I was told I have throat damage from having whooping cough as a baby but I noticed it worse after the vaccinations I had 3 years ago during my pnemonia and middle ear infection and serretonian to the point I was calling the ambulance a lot cuz i was having so much trouble swallowing, now I get like spams cramps I have to take medications for. I am just praying these crampy spasms ease up or I will have to see my doctor earlier, I have been putting off blood tests due to my phobia to blood tests needles and all the pain and trouble I go through with collapsing veins and I can't stand the vacuum needles at all.
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