I am depressed :-(

ver7 depressed over study, too man choices are dangerious. just want an easy ride to it to be honest. i am bored studying and no social life. I want to go out be my own woman and find love and study sure but where are we going with all this crap? where is the life I was supposed to have? that mattered to me. oh I am so sorry that you fucked up my life then wanna play noble cock 300 years later after the fact, the crime and the insults to open wounds. yeh. you dirty grinch, because now you left me trying to study shit in a foreign country that take forever to respond and make assessment and can't speak fucking english well. and seriously I could do a degree on udemy per subject just as ligit one day. so you offer me file ok, I will do it, but rome wasn't built in a day.

ver7 depressed over study, too man choices are dangerious. just want an easy ride to it to be honest...

physically/mentally/verbally abusive brother I am a 14yr old girl, my brother is 16. Fuck my life. He makes me want to kill myself. Nobody does anything about him and his aggressive behavior, because they think it's just a phase. I have had 100% ENOUGH of being called a bitch, ugly, useless, worthless, ungrateful, unmotivated, lowly, and trash. I am tired of being hit and punched aggressively whenever he doesn't get his way. I am tired of being scared of MY OWN BROTHER, IN MY OWN HOUSE. When he is forced to drive me places, and I say something he doesn't like in the car, he will drive faster and swerve and threaten to make me walk 15 miles back home. Once I had friends over, and my parents made us go downstairs so we could all sleep on the couch. He was there. I just thought "oh shit." I asked him politely to move. He did. He went to the bathroom. Me and my friends settled down while he was in there, but surprise; when he came out, he threw me off the couch, on the ground, and punched me. HARD. In the face. My friends didn't do anything, or say anything really the rest of the night. When they were asleep, I cried, but I guess one of them heard me and asked if I wanted to call the police or talk to my parents. I couldn't, because I was scared and thought it would pass like the rest of the family. But it NEVER DOES. Driving to volleyball practice is hell; a whole 20 minutes straight of being told I'm mediocre and worthless, and that I think I'm so much better than everyone. I just want to get away. I want him to stop being such a controlling scumbag. I want to stop lying about my bruises. I want to die. I DONT think I'm better than everyone. I promise, man. Please. I just.. I'm so scared for who he marries. He's so controlling and abusive and MANIPULATIVE. I'm scared. I'm scared.

physically/mentally/verbally abusive brother I am a 14yr old girl, my brother is 16. Fuck my life....

Am I vain/snooty/j***? U've heard the saying the people u surround urself with define who you are. Let's start in high school. I went to a s***** high school full of dropouts, soon to be dead beats, future baby mamas, and those who just don't have a future. I truely hated high school and being surrounded by these ppl and couldn't wait to leave. I got picked on because I wasn't trying to act ghetto or "gangsta" and rarely interacted with those animals. I tried to surround myself and only associate with the achievers and those who had college in their mind but still. I hated high school. My younger brother on the other hand, made friends with everyone he could even though we went to the same s***** high school. Out of the bunch of friends he had only about 3-4 ever made it to college. I went to a second rate college that was boarder line community college (no offense) full of ghetto folks but since i didn't plan on staying long I didn't even bother making only but a handful of friends. My brother went to a community college with almost the same crowd but made friends with everyone he could and enjoyed it. He didn't graduate and joined the military. I trasfered to a good university had the time of my life. But in hind sight i wonder which one of us was right for doing what we did..we were both put in a s***** situation. He pretty much made the best of it while I pushed through it with my head down. Like i said earlier i always believed who you surrounded urself with defined you. So was i narrow-minded for not being open to making friends with just anyone??

Am I vain/snooty/j***? U've heard the saying the people u surround urself with define who you are. ...