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Confessions about 'Violence'

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rose-mary blinded me for half a day throwing sawdust in my eyes and it took a good hour of my father having to wash my eyes out under a water outdoor tap and I was crying and I was I could hardly see for another day til it came good. that bloody bitch blinded me in more ways then one, that bloody thing! if people only knew the violence and attacks and sexual assaults she did to me, the dirty games and evil evil evil things she has said to me since I was a child. if you only knew. you can't begin to imagine its got worse as she has got older. she even let a underage neighbor get fucked by a guy I liked who was my age and then said "you're just jealous cuz you can't fuck and no one wants you and my allen and everyone says you are so ugly" but she got a underage girl sexually morbid just to stop me having any man at all. she tried that game one too many if people only knew what she is like. sometimes I think she must want me to lust after her cuz she doesn't want me with any man, unless they are weirdy and creeps that I don't like. mum and dad are awake up to her. I said she is has been doing this to me all my life. and my therapist knows what she is like.

rose-mary blinded me for half a day throwing sawdust in my eyes and it took a good hour of my father...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disorder I have and from all injuries to my brain neurology from the mastoid infections and car accident and I have done enough study to understand this, do you understand??? do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkffBv4sh4U so when they talk of sinuses there are more then just nasal, hello stupids. its like having a shower turned on with hormonal issues to do with the potassium/ sodium cell pump and my heart problems from all the broken heart pain and doctors have failed to ease any pain I endure.

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disor...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to bloom and I blame all the people my father helped get to politics like bob gibbs and braithwaite and bill hayden who was supposed to be the next prime minister not bob hawke and other heaps of qlds political faggots as grandma would have called them, gave nothing back to my father and me, I have been so busy studying , and do I look like some fool who watches a stupid football match not likely! and well may that murduck murder smerk ! they absued me they know wht they did. god will get them! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTvN9hDZezI&list=RDGMEMQ1dJ7wXfLlqCjwV0xfSNbAVMjTvN9hDZezI

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to b...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

to the post- I adore women who have their kids young I don't know why,I just find that to be so sexy:)my mother usually refers to those types of women as women whose horse is greater then the rider, ie, their sexual impulses control them rather then their intellect. so my mother always taught me to have a strong rider mind and also that it was breaking the catholic faith to have children out of wedlock and that was a sin to do that. my mother always taught me that you only ever give yourself to a man once really, meaning as in virginity was a blessed thing to give and that multiple marriages was a sign of mental illness and personal instability and after I was raped while still a virgin, this upset my whole family badly cuzing my father so much anger he turned to alcohol and won't speak to people and my mother was horrified that such a social group would allow it to happen. because it caused me internal injuries and depression and neglect from other men I wanted and prefered the company of and my parents did not approve of the man who raped me and neither did I and we still stand by our values strong. one day the legal and medical people and those who wronged me god is going to punish them just like the people who caused my illnesses at other times just bc we live in a bad world does not mean we should lower ourselves to it but the wicked of the world are winning. its a wicked world we live in now. where the wicked and reptilian minds (that is the small old part of the brain that just rages and impulsive on sexual rampages and has no self order and control and quick to anger and flight or fight cuz they don't learn higher thinking skills) are working over time then the people with more mental faculties. nothing more sexy about young women fucking and having children some men find older women having children a more sensual mature erotic candor. young girls/ children today think they are adults with adult privileges at the age of the pre-teen movement of -711 and 12 are the shakers of the world, and that is a shame, majority of age was once a prized thing like virginity and also marriage and virtue which few people care to consider as attractive enhancements of womanhood now. it will ruin the world. the powers allowing will be to blame not me! thank the lord.

to the post- I adore women who have their kids young I don't know why,I just find that to be so sex...

Pride, Love, Abuse, Violence

Fairy delight I'm dressing as Tinkerbell for Halloween just so I have an excuse to do my husband while wearing fairy wings. I hope this leads to more costume sex...

Fairy delight I'm dressing as Tinkerbell for Halloween just so I have an excuse to do my husband wh...

Adultery, Pride, Violence, Marriage, Blasphemy

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a friend to anyone cuz friends are bad news. friends are not what they used to be. no point having them. I have pets and I been hurt too many times now. I just have pretend friends now. everything is about self care self care self care in therapy today. I just get my treatments and pay for what I can afford and go. cuz I know anyone I get close to will wrong me. friends are expensive to have, time wasters, they are all about them, they won't help you when you need it. they want you to help them be great and then all therapy today says "well this is a world we have to walk over each other and moe everyone down in our path to get what we want and we move on then and ask them to forgive us and if they don't we set god bothers after them with threats of hell and then if that doesn't work we send the devil himself to punish them for not forgiving us" so my advice is do it back to every bitch you ever met you wronged you. when you get the chance attack everyone who has ever wronged you in anyway at work, school, family, friends - believe me friends are the first to harm you. clever people have less friends. when your friendless you learn to be independant and you can leave when you want. you don't have to go drinking when you don't want to, you can go spend your money on yourself or pets. you don't have to worry about your friend being prettier then you or stealing your man! cuz they will. its the nature of the beast in women to want to be superior in everything now with friends and lovers and partners. when you have no friends be careful cuz professional people like medical doctors and business women you visit will likely attack you and want your syncronistity and want to steal your life progress and future good things from you. so keep a look out men do this too. they are money hungry demonic monsters after money and your money, your time, your man and your everything. who needs a friend when you can get to know yourself better have quality time with yourself. whose the winner I ask you? being friendless!!!! you save money and time and heartbreak. cuz no woman will be a true female friend to you, this bbf and you put a man in it the scenario and guess what, she will be working on him and want to steal him from you. she will want your job and church and all the people you know and take you down cuz she is jealous of you. men do this too. just a warning from someone who has experienced it all. from mad murdering famous people as a kid to mad police and mad amublance abusive medical people. everyone is out to moe you down so beware. that is the way of the world a female therapist told me at lifeline. so don't complain to them. you can't win. just don't have friends. have invisible pretend friends and pets as friends. they won't let you down, but your real friend she will, so will your man, have an invisible pretend lover/husband/wife s/he will never let you down. that is the way of the world, its all virtual mind warping now.

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

I don't know how you can say that but I was molested and to be honest I hope heaps of women are and take it and shut up like we were told to and end up with no job and no kids no independence. no one wants to talk about this topic at all. no one. I would advice any one to not talk about. never bring it up. and to just forget it ever happened. you will pay as a victim. you will not win rights speaking out against people who abused me they attack from the grave even. so be warned that has been my experiences. might will always win over the little woman that most women are unless you black or gay or a druggy you don't have rights.

I don't know how you can say that but I was molested and to be honest I hope heaps of women are and ...

Abuse, Violence

she is too quiet, beware of that quiet one they harm people.

she is too quiet, beware of that quiet one they harm people.

Abuse, Hate, Violence

richard kicked me several times and got women to bash me to make his ego feel big to have women fighting over him so I just said "have him whore" as I always do. I did that with kelly as well and other bitches, who were on tv as well with other people and even bands. we were told to stay away from taxiride so we did. and I said to mum I think it was ken and his open marriage arrangement and how he raped me, never asked me if i wanted sex or if was a virgin or not or what i liked sexually he just went at me like a animal. and it was awful. and I am now with vaginal problems because of the rapes he did for 16 hrs and the stroke i had afterwards, and after the surgery I am a virgin again and the doctors can't even put a pap smear spatular in there. and I am just so traumatised over that and MRI's on my brain and back and blood tests with veins collapsing. I am still traumatised over the hospitals and ambulances. I don't like seeing them at all.

richard kicked me several times and got women to bash me to make his ego feel big to have women figh...

Hate, Violence

Perhaps will look such many has discovered only then my one to speak Chinese unexpectedly I to confess me to make very many wrong things to have very hides the truth from my wife these matters to bring now for me very was in debt we to fall in love tomorrow perhaps for a month I to be able obviously because perhaps the economical pressure collapsed only leaves behind two sad people to be able to choose at that time facing dreary life me goes to host's bosom to let all change into the wind to diverge this th I to say goodbye in light of this equally

Perhaps will look such many has discovered only then my one to speak Chinese unexpectedly I to confe...

Love, Abuse, Violence

my parents always told me never to trust famous people that they were all bad people. I think they were right about that. I will trust again. a few times they tried to murder me, you never trust again.

my parents always told me never to trust famous people that they were all bad people. I think they ...

Abuse, Violence

i am considering having my xmas dinner alone this year or as mum said rose can eat on her own in her flat she has her own kitchen, mum and dad said "let her sort it out for herself if she is going to be like that".

i am considering having my xmas dinner alone this year or as mum said rose can eat on her own in her...

Abuse, Violence

i grew up with an insane fear and hate for radio, tv and famous people i seen then all as the child chatter going to kill and harm me, even santa claus (like he had claws to me) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rdgKCTHmwI

i grew up with an insane fear and hate for radio, tv and famous people i seen then all as the child ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also bite their legs and nape, a few times hard enough to draw blood. I also would throw them at my bed and occasionally trap them under my plastic see-through waste bin, sit on top of it, and watch them freak out until I felt bad enough and let them out. Worse part is, I told myself I would never do it again after my first cat, Nico, died (unrelated to any of this, he was an outdoor cat and got lost and froze to death out in a storm) and then when another cat walked into my life things were going fine for a few years and then I fell back into those terrible habits again. She was very young when we found her, and eventually after doing it enough times she'd press herself close to me to get me to stop. Eventually I quit for good and I think she was very forgiving towards me. I'm almost certain that my mom knew and probably my brother too. Also, I've verbally told this to one other person, just because I think it's something at least one person in my life knows about me, no matter how heinous. Also that whole thing about karma kind of rings true. For all the horrible things I did, she died painfully young at the age of 4 from a kidney infection and I held her in my arms as she left me. Probably the most grief-stricken moment of my life. Definite guarantee I'll never do any of this again. Props if you actually read all of this, need to eventually tell my boyfriend too, I'm not very good at keeping secrets anyways...

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also ...

Abuse, Violence

i am cancelling my nye cruise to new caledonia since the earth quake I had felt no I can't handle a natural disaster and cyclone season. then I thought about all the islanders and nigs out here in australia who treat us so badly and why should i spend money on rude people and i might get germs in their beaches and hot water and sunburn and since I got sick I might try to get out of the contract cuz I seen some videos on youtube and nye on a cruise ship doesn't even look like fun, cuz i am not a drinker, i don't party. i don't trust people at all. it looks the loneliest place in a crowd to spend with people acting stupid and everyone in their own bubble and you know no one, its not like i will find a romance anywhere i go so, i need the money for my operation in hospital now, so i am going to get a refund and end the deal. why would you go to a place so close to guam and marianas trench and challenger deep where they set off the bomb in bikini atol by america that is probably all over there all radio active and us Australians put up with these islander nigs being rude to us. no thanks. time to call it off, I wasn't keen on it anyway, its just that it was dirt cheap deposit but yeh. don't know if I want to go now don't want nig germs. last cruise i got dirt cheap for 4 people at $800 and i only did it out of a dare. i can't afford this cruise and i no longer want to go if they have earthquakes. it doesn't feel safe. i don't feel safe to party i am just not a party person.

i am cancelling my nye cruise to new caledonia since the earth quake I had felt no I can't handle a ...

Hate, Violence

My next door neighbor died and took his knowledge with him. I'm semi retired and my next door neighbor was a retired tool and die maker. He fixed up old cars witha model T being one of his master projects. If he couldn't find a part for an old car he would make the part himself in his shop. After the Model T he started on a project to restore a 1940 police car. He finished the project and was going to start on a 1965 mustang. He was twenty years older than I am but he had the energy of a twenty year old mixed with the knowledge of an eighty year old. He died in his sleep just before starting on the mustang. I had planned to help him anyway I could because what he was able to do was so very interesting. Well he's gone now and his wife is stuck with an old junker 1964 mustang no one is around to start much less finish his project. Don't let anyone tell you dying is good because to those left behind it sucks.

My next door neighbor died and took his knowledge with him. I'm semi retired and my next door neigh...

Violence

My wofe and I want a unicorn... We want a feamle unicorn to please us... Is it possible? A sexy female, not married to please a couple sexually but not need a commitment?

My wofe and I want a unicorn... We want a feamle unicorn to please us... Is it possible? A sexy fem...

Adultery, Love, Violence, Gay

I'm a cis lesbian who identifies as a trans woman on Fridays, and a cis gay man every other day. f*** me or you're a transcisphobic a**h*** who needs to be violently punched. my wife might know or not but kids think they know and I hide and dress up at my friends place with some beers and gin.

I'm a cis lesbian who identifies as a trans woman on Fridays, and a cis gay man every other day. f**...

Adultery, Violence, Gay, Blasphemy

on dementia. spotting it in a loved one is painful. I have noticed in my father he is doing strange things like he spends hours a day at the table writing letters that are like bibles to long lost friends he looks up on electrol rolls and then he photocopies letters and thinks everyone wants to know him as if he is a celebrity everywhere we go. he waves at the bus driver who was waving at someone else and every time he goes to the doctor he has to stop in a chat to the people at the dentist and I am worried someone will complain about him doing these things as they are not normal to think everyone wants to know him. he smiles at people and gawks at women and and has his mouth open all the time and one eye closed to look at people which looks strange. all behavior his uncle used to do and he also eats with food dribbling down his face at home and out sometimes, shoving and gutsing into food like he can’t be filled and hungry all the time. he must listen to the funeral and death notices every day on the radio which is extremely depressing to my mother and me, he seems to think he has to “tell people his side of the story” what ever story it is ???? in the jobs he lost or was hurt at as if no one else in our family or in the world has been through work place bullying or sexual harassment (because some of us have been through rape and worse then he could imagine) and he constantly believes and says that I am writing naughty letters to people and a like my sister and I am my mother are children constantly checking up on us and over pedantic over how the washing up should be and answering phones and mail and yet he drinks a bottle of scotch a night (500ml) and sometimes has beer or wine with it. and he is moody, argumentative, accuses others of picking on him when we try to help me when he fell out of the train, yet he picks on all of us and can’t see it. he honestly expects me to pay for his holidays on cruises and says he won’t be able to pay me back later which worries me as he is becoming so vindictive and miserly and I fear what a dangerous crazed woman would do with his money and leave my sister and i bullied and abused by them and penniless. he has been out of work most of the 1990s and some of the 1980s and never completes education and thinks he is some academic and goes up to people introducing himself just because he has spoken over the phone and takes over friendships from my mother or me and copies things like he had to give my cat some several patte treats in one sitting to copy what I do with my cat and something is just not right in the brain and mannerisms and the ideas he has that he is some celebrity and wants to be respected as if we are living in 1700’s with some land Barron and we’re slave daughters to him. He honestly seems to think he is back in 1700s living some land barons life to order milk maids round homestead of some Mississippi old ramble bum dumpster colonialism home, what he doesn’t get is most women wouldn’t put up with his piggish mess and slop cleaning up after him and they are so rich they think he is a joke, we go to a scenic train trip and he though he was giving money to them to keep the business running and all it was was a slot machine for a souvenir non – monetary coin and he put on this big show of helping save the business giving a few chow as he says, and he used to make out his business was something over the top and he has about 7 huge cupboards full of junk newspaper clippings and hovel and won’t allow me to use any furniture for my room he uses them all for his paper filing of rubbish. Its not normal. my mother can see its not normal and we don’t know how to talk to his doctor. I go to Al annon which for non-drinking family members with an alcoholic in the family and all he does is act like we have made him this sad case man. he allowed his daughters to be molested by a man in his family and its caused serious problems and my mother and I have had enough of the jealousy, bitching and games and his almost defiant adhd child like behavior of a spoilt momma’s boy who needs to be a man and accept he is not 45 or 25 he is now 70 or more and young women don’t want some smelly weird man harassing him at the dentist workplace and before long someone is going to complain about the letters he is photocopying and it does not make sense. on the cruise i paid for recently he accused us of “bombarding him from all sides and bashing into his continuously” when all that I could see and hear was doing that was the whales protecting their young around the ship. its like he takes on things of others around him and worst is he will come up to the cats and put his bum to their face and fart in their face and things it is funny. we are just lost at how to handle this. can you help or suggest somewhere that could help? his GP is next to useless who he calls the broomstick) and all she says is “when are you expecting to him about his weight rather then checking up on him and my mother and I have felt for some time now he has been going around bad mouthing me and my mother and sister, when he has for years gritted his teeth and waved fists at us and even attacked me and warned me not to complain about a gynaecologist who was abusing me and didn’t take proper protective covers and I could have court HPV from this doctors weird acts and his weird staff. is this normal or like the behavior of someone unwell? or is it me, mum and others who are weird? even his former boss noticed it and his cousin that he is easily flustered and lost and dopey like with this constant open gaping mouth and one eye open looking at people and peering at women is off putting and weird. we meet a lot of women going through this at al annon, and children of drinkers who end up carers or just can’t hack it any longer and feel bad that they are not perfect for the alcoholic dementia patient. everyone has even commented how his sister is like this a female version of him and a cross of her husband mixed in and how a bunch of controllers and selfish people they are. people have even noticed it in my cousin and her obsession for school re-unions. not normal and this reference to this old poillion weirdo. his been trying to kill his daughters off with his son, that is what he has been doing, and my mother and sister and I dont like it and are a wake up to it.

on dementia. spotting it in a loved one is painful. I have noticed in my father he is doing strange ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

Making my wife fat I am doing everything I can to make my Mexican wife fat. I am bribing her she has gone from size 10 to a 16. Her belly has gotten bigger and her butt also has gotten bigger its so hot I don't want her to stop gaining yet

Making my wife fat I am doing everything I can to make my Mexican wife fat. I am bribing her she ha...

Adultery, Violence