Confessions about 'Violence'

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Ex BF Fucked me like a Slut I was on vacation back in my country and was going to meet my Ex BF. We planned to meet at 5pm. He picked me up from a Mall, as I told hubby that I am going to go shopping with some school friends and then may be a movie. He has a pick-up van. He drove for about 30 mins looking for a spot but due to long weekend in south Africa all the spots were busy. All this time I was under impression that he will take me to some hotel room and we will have sex. It got dark now, and we finally found a place. He stopped at a place by road side, asked me to at the back seat, he started kissing me and took my top off. He started sucking my boobs like there is no tomorrow. Then we saw some cars coming to our direction, so he jumped in the drivers seat, leaving my half naked at the back and drove the car again. After driving me naked for almost another 30 mins, as he had my top in the front. He found yet another spot and stopped by the beach front, came at the back, opened the back door, climbed inside, wore his condom, pulled my pant and underwear, now im completely naked on his back seat. My right leg was hanging down the floor of the van and the other one in his hand. Without any emotions he pushed his hard dick inside me and started fucking me deep and hard with lots of bum movements. Squeezing my boobs very hard while fucking me in the back of the Van, he continued this for a very long time I think I came while he was fucking me. He gave me pain in my groin and after a very long road side fucking he made a grunt and came. He was sweating and went out of the Van. Throwing his condom on the road, he jumped at the front of the Van and started driving. Leaving me naked at the back of the Van, I got dressed myself and jumped in the front while he drove. He used me like this for about 5 hours. Then later in the night he dropped me outside my house. He did not even care for buying a dinner for me a asked me for a bottle of water I had met him after almost 20 years and was hoping a decent hotel room, but I was treated like a cheap road side whore who just got dropped outside the house after a very cheap, and raw fucking. He knows that I am a very reputable lawyer back in my country, yet on that day I was just his whore that got fucked at the back of the seat on a dirty road.

Ex BF Fucked me like a Slut I was on vacation back in my country and was going to meet my Ex BF. W...

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Hate, Violence, Gay, Sex

what I did as a child and what the pedo got me to do and the sexual acts he performed on me and got me to do with my sister and brother and other kids as so called games, is not the same as a paedophile. I was only a child and I didn't know it was bad. I was told it was a game. there is a thing called diminished responsibility and excuse me s and v but you have overstepped the line with me and I was blinded by innocent naivety listening to your sicken abuse brainwashing telling me I was like a paedophile for what games I played as a child. and I am not more likely to abuse a child and how dare you abuse me and put that suggestibility upset into my head and heart. do you know what that cost me the shit you said to me as so called therapy you were paid for. you Virginia should have been punished harshly you old violent selfish hag. you full of self-pity dragging on me knowing all the while i would feel sorry for you and give in to your demands. you had only been married 2 times and had a child and degrees and worked in several countries and were rich unlike me and you were crying this poor me game how much more fucks and husbands did you want. i had never been married never had a child never had a degree never worked overseas. why did you do that to me? I used to cry myself to sleep for 10 years thinking I would never be a good enough parent or worker or anything!

what I did as a child and what the pedo got me to do and the sexual acts he performed on me and got ...

Violence, Sex

Fantasy Threesome I have this fantasy of being in a threesome with my wife and another man. This is how is goes, I am on bottom and wife is on top in 69 position, having my rod, I am having her honey pot and the other man comes up and mounts her from the rear entering her honey pot. I get to lick everything, all the juices including his deposit in the honey pot, her sweet spot and his rod and b****. Does anyone else have this fantasy? It is even hotter when I imagine it is a black man doing me and my partner! wow..

Fantasy Threesome I have this fantasy of being in a threesome with my wife and another man. This is...

Violence, Sex

Politics, society, pop culture and the human condition: I am done! I hear about certain ethnic persuasions complaining about profiling by the police and unfair treatment by the law....try this one on for size: When I was a a young business man with a reasonable level of success in LA, I decided its time to buy myself a fun car for the week ends.....so I went down to the local exotic car shop and found this un-believable Porsche Speedster....and after a couple of days of consideration, I bought the car. NOT 100 FEET OFF THE LOT ON PCH, I WAS STOPPED BY A BEACH CITY POLICE SQUATD CAR LOOKING FOR THE TAGS ON THIS CAR (ITS GOT NO PLATES CAUS I JUST BOUGHT IT) UPON REACHING INTO THE GLOVE BOX TO SHOW THE REGISTRATION, I AM CONFRONTED WITH DRAWN WEAPONS POINTED AT MY HEAD. APPARENTLY, THE POLICE THOUGHT I MAY HAVE BEEN REACHING FOR A WEAPON....now, did I immediately think that I was being profiled for being a young arrogant jerk with a cool car? No, I simply put my hands in the air and told the officers that the paperwork was in the glove box......they checked it out and I was on my way....that's it, I have not held a resentful thought for those officers ever sense, they were doing their job.....its a dangerous job. (ii) and how about this one....my wife was driving a new car that we had just purchased and was pulled over by the police to inquire about a car without tags....she does not feel offended. They are doing their jobs! The police have come to our home after neighbors have complained about our kids making noise in the back yard....are we offended? no, they are doing their jobs. K... W...st appears to be offended at the drop of a hat.....because he feels so 'special': I got news for you Ka..ye, do you think that you match up in any way with the character, the talent or the class of DJ (the NY Yankee that just retired at Yankee Stadium?.....now that's class, talent and character. Kanye, you are not even close to any one of these attributes....you are vile! I am involved in municipal politics..... you wanna see some of the most entitled people this side of the UAW? Work with city or county staff people.....give me a break! ......I could go on, but I'm tired because I half to work three times as hard ever since the bankers colluded with politicians to give everyone free homes.....and then crashed the economy. Good night!

Politics, society, pop culture and the human condition: I am done! I hear about certain ethnic persu...

Pride, Violence, Stealing

I don't want to fit in with people or others. so?!!!

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Love, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Hacking, Stealing, Marriage, Blasphemy, Sex

The stupidity of jealous friendships... Ok so just because you had a crush on one of our mutual friends does NOT mean that you are entitled to be the only person ever who hangs out with her OR just get ridiculously jealous if I make plans with her. She and I do NOT rely on you to hold our friendship together, we can do things on our own. Think of all the times you two have had together... without even thinking about inviting me, and then you always tell me about how much fun you had with her.... wow, and now all I've done is SIT IN A LECTURE with her and you're all like "stop rubbing it in my face". OH MY DAYS. It's so ridiculously frustrating you have no idea. and I cant even get 9/10 on a really hard assignment without you being jealous... so I won't ever tell you good things about my life, so you don't get jealous. I won't ever hang out with mutual friends so you don't get jealous. Better now? Is your life back to the happy bubble where you're everyone's best friend and you're amazing and nobody can be better than you? stupid stupid argument. stupidddd.

The stupidity of jealous friendships... Ok so just because you had a crush on one of our mutual fri...

Murder, Lie, Violence

Better here than there. You'll never change, that thought has finally dawned on me. Like seeing the forest for the trees, you will always be un-apologetically yourself. If you were anything else the love I carry for you would dissipate into nothing more than an infatuation. People we share think I want to hear of your comings and goings, but I don't. It stings. Knowing all the subtle things I've missed all these years. More, over looked because I didn't have the heart to see you for what you've said you were all along. I've always considered you so much more. Looking back, even knowing the rose colored glasses I wore for you, I wouldn't change it. I wouldn't change holding you and letting you teach me what love is and more importantly what it isn't. When I was close to you I wanted nothing more than to touch your skin and feel the electricity that has ran between us for so long. The spark that made it so hard to walk away. I was strong though and so were you. It gave me hope that we can get through this and brought the realization to me that I have more self-control than you. Not always, but now. I can be strong for both of us friend, until we build a new bridge over the ruins of the one we demolished. I'm aware it is a dangerous road for us to teeter down, but traveling it without you just doesn't seem worth it. Thank you friend for helping me rebuild us.

Better here than there. You'll never change, that thought has finally dawned on me. Like seeing the...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

I like this guy, he's not cute, but he is... If that makes sense. His personality is cute, not the outside though (well i think it is, but in the one who likes him) he's considerably shorter than me. But what I'm ranting about is the fact that my friends are like horrible about him, like saying he's scrawny, ugly and weird. He is a little strange, ill give them that, but i cant tell the tha lt he's my crush cuz they'll probably disown me, like they did with my first boyfriend. But they knew he was a dick, and i didn't. Anyway that's a different rant. So I'm the person who is like all alone on this crush thing, cuz i cant tell nobody. Not even my mum, cuz she's like one of those mums that will pester you until you ask them out. I'm the only one who knows my secret, and its kinda crappy. BUT HE'S ADORABLE! AND HE ALWAYS LOOKS ME IN THE EYES WHEN SPEAKING TO ME! AHH, but i know he don't like me, cuz in art, he was sat next to me and was talking to his mate, saying "should i ask her out?" like fuck would he say that if it was me...

I like this guy, he's not cute, but he is... If that makes sense. His personality is cute, not the o...

Love, Violence, Gay

smakc smakc crakc dope ice baby freakhead.

Hate, Violence, Hacking, Stealing

I'm waiting for the day aliens finally find our shitty little planet. Either we're going to get some serious genetic engineering, or a hell mary fucking wipe out. All those fucking bunnies and foxes are gonna be glad. And why not? We fucked them over, the aliens ought to fuck us over.

I'm waiting for the day aliens finally find our shitty little planet. Either we're going to get some...

Violence, Blasphemy

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Love, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Hacking, Stealing, Marriage, Blasphemy, Sex

My cheating started 3 decades ago, My husband had a prior wife, she was called the US Navy, and she dug her hooks in him for the first three and a half years of our marriage, He was never home, In fact he never saw the first apartment we had. My First long term lover did but he also had a wife called the air force, She forced him to leave after 8 months. Right after he left the first stages of Bi Polar Mania set in, I was sent back to my mother after a stint in a mental hospital, I got everything with help from the ombudsnman to get everything into storage, I gave her the key and went home. Six months later I was contacted by a Navy retention officer, He asked that when I saw my husband that I talk to him about reenlisting, He will get a nice signing bonus and after another year at sea we will make him either a basic electronics instructor at Memphis, or great lakes, I asked him when was I going to see my husband, I said I am sure you have his duty right in front of you, He told me he could arrange a five day liberty because his boat was being demagnetized 30 miles away, I asjked to talk to his XO, He called the next day, I asked why I was not told my husband was going to be so close by, his answer was we haven't told him you were in the hospital and had moved home, we don't need him to have that kind of distraction, I told him what his retention officer offered, It made him a little mad, he said we are authorizing no liberty for any weapons techs. I said then you are going to have to retain him yourself because I wont. My husband did get a rare letter to me, He thought I was still down south because it came forwarded from my last address and very heavy on the censor, over half was blacked, He knew he was not going to be allowed any leave or r and r this close to discharge, he also knew they were going to get an involuntary duty extention for six months. By the time I got this letter he was at sea on another boat, When he returned to his first command they were in refit for the last two weeks, He was not going to sign reup paper but had been notified he was being extended, he was at a very low point already, and had a new division chief, My husband was placed on ships miaitenace called tiger team, nuclear weapons security, and his new chief wanted as much time with his wife as possible that week, So my husband stood his watch and his chiefs. After 106 hours of straight duty he collapse, The base shrink after he woke up said he should not even go out on this patrol because of a condition known as exhaustion parinoia. After my husband discharged 106 days later, he arranged for every thing to be sent back to his place of employment, my mother sent me there 3 months before as soon as we knew the navy was not going to extend him. I was living with his parents, he had a good job waiting with a major auto manufacture and was UAW. he was coming back with 8 years accrued time. This caused his father and many of his friends a lot of worry, most had sons and daughters that worked in the same plant, most of them worked there, I had not mention my husband had a brother on his crew as a raidioman. He got regular leave and R and R and felt hisbrother had been unfairly treated but he had been ordered to not discuss any thing heknew about me or any family concerns because the command felt after the first year that my husband would not cause a problem if he felt no news is good news that was the best. Four days befor husband arrived his father and mother sat me down at the table for a talk about what was going to happen when his son came home. His brother already called, as well as the Navy Debrief officer. Both said my husband was ill, he suffered terrible headaches was jumpy and very irritable, his brother told us about two things that happened when he was kept awake so long the last refit, One was after my husband Finished the parts inventory for repairs he ordered tools and parts needed before return to sea several had not arrived and need to be flown in but he needed his chief s signature as well as the XO and CO, He caught up to his chief out side his quarters getting ready to go ashore and be with his wife, my husband told him what was needed and my husband had bee awake for 96hours at the time, His chief said OFW my husband hit him so hard he did a backflip in the passage, My husband was planning to tak a few weeks between his return to get everything set up and just spend time with me. His father insisted this was a bad idea, If he started out getting his way when he got home he would keep taking the things he wanted without regaurd for anyone else causing problems, then he said we will have to have a thing he wants more as a reward waiting for him, that is where I came in, He said he will want to be a man that has any thing any one else has, He said just because others have things does not give the same right to my son. with the illness he has he will take what he wants shifts jobs, vacation slots, and refuse holiday work forcing mothers and fathers with children to work, A real man looks to his community before himself, but my son wants to take an axe to it, Even if there is a person of prominace here he would tell him to take a flying leap into anything he chose and not do as asked. His father said we had to make sure that my husband was under control. I thought he knew what was best for me and my husband, He told me just watch within two days he will come back and cause trouble, and asked me to keep out of sight, I did as requested, my husband went to work the first day he was back. He worked 12 hours a day that first week we found an apartment the third day, He should have been greeted the Morning he got home by his wife but was relegated to a sofa. His father was right within two days he had put a bump in to days, The woman being bumped was the daughter of a supervisor in the plant and a single mother. She had no idea where her ex husband went. She cried on my fathers shoulder about how bad she needed day shift, how unfair it was for my husband to use his accrued time to take her job. She lived right behind his father, He turned to me and said I told you. The next morning before we went to pick the keys to our apartment up there was a horrible argument about just shutting up, being a man, showing responsibility to others, don't be such a selfish jerk. My husband said I come back home after being gone for over three years with no leave, you tell me the next morning to just let my wife get used to me being back so just go get everything settled at HR, They jut put me straight to work, I was not even out of uniform yet. You know how much I have always hated 2nd shift, She knows hat she is supposed to be subject to the same rules of senority as I am. So what is the big deal. His father turned to me, I informed my husband that there was not going to be any marital relations until he proved he would not cause trouble, I did not know anything about how a union operated. Did not know his father was manipulating things for friends. Being bi polar one thing is hard to do without, sex, But denying my husband left me without to. His father set me up with a friends son, said just because my son has to be a man does not mean you have to do without. I had more than several affairs In 2001. I saw how dangerous my husband was. Everybody was saying how nice things were until july 31 2001. A month before 9/11. My husband was very ill for some time, His father did not have to be loud except for a few seconds, before my husband agreed because he had a headache that never seemed to go away, his left foot dragged he had trouble maintaining balance eve had stopped begging me for sex several years before, Seemed he just wanted sleep after his 12 hour shift. I thought we had finally got him to the point where no one would be bothered. I was going to dress in something nice and get him what he wanted, on labor day, He had not had a day off since 1978 I found out except for the four days between the navy and here. But that day he went out of the house, every thing hurt on him, it looked like rivers running down his face, I had never seen him cry. I told his father this had to stop, he disagreed, he said he would just go back to what he called the bad old days of a belligerent son. But that evening we got a call from ER saying they were tranfering my husband to a neuro surgical unit 60 miles to the south, They took a cyst off the top of his brain stem that had blocked the fluid off in his scull causing brain swelling It was not tears I saw, but cerebral spinal fluid being forced out around his eyes. His father said just a faker wanting out of his responsibilties, Husband was back at work four days latter. Something in his personality had changed, he watched everything, he slept a lot for recovery I think, To retrieve the cyst they drilled a hole in his scull over his right eye and through the brain, 9/11 happened and he told every body who did it within a few seconds, Made his father mad, said where is your proof, My husband said its on the news, He was right. A month latter the company posted new jobs at a new plant, My husband and one other signed for a job, The other was the son of a county commissioner, the union let the much younger man have the job because of political consideration, My husband went to the National union and had the locals decision reversed, He took the job. Made his committeeman and local President mad as well as his father, who was a friend of the commisioner, They showed up at his fathers home, and I was told to be there, they asked if there was any way I could get my husband to take his name down, My husband had already told me to go to hell, I said no. They informed me that some people would talk to my husband the next morning, He Arrived at 4 AM as always, a silver van pulled up and the man that wanted the job and three others came out and surrounded my husband on the porch, My husband woke the whole area Every one was watching. When he was very insulting they jumped him. Four men went to a trauma center. None were my husband. I witnessed a savage and remorseless counter attack. My husband litteraly broke bones, faces, tore arms, at will. His father heard on the scanner there was trouble at our address and arrived expecting to see my husband was humbled, He asked his son why can't you just back down. you put four men in the hospital, My husband said if they had not acted like mafia they would not have ended like that, He said I owe nothing to your friends. And if you don't like my attitude take a flying leap, He blew straight past, I was crying, and I started yelling at him about caring about any one but himself, why did he have to start trouble after all I am your wife. He said if the state would have allowed a divorce when I filed in 87 you would not be, he said I had not been his wife in in 20 years and went to bed, His father came over the next morning and told me I had to regain control, I said I would stay to be the bait but his son would not bite, I no longer had influence. My husband went the next seven years without a holiday or day off, Then he retired after telling the govenor of our state he did not work for the state and if he wanted a load of aluminum moved to another company for remelt then come up and tell him face to face, he would get the paperwork and a trailer hitch shoved up his rear and he could tow it. That brings us to 4 years ago, my husband developed MRSA in his spine He lost most the feeling from his upper leg down, it has created other problems, Like strokes and intestinal bleeds, last year he caught me with an old bf. MY husband hurt him bad, all it took was my BF trying to humiliate my husband. My husband even crippled was without remorse and ended up in a stress center for anger management, Two weeks latter his father had asked me to accompany a friend to a political event, the passes cost 3000.00. I had just finished getting ready when I heard the door open and my husband standing there, He said you look nice and I told the truth, My husband said I hope he has three passes, I called his father, My husband repeated himself, his father told him don't be stupide an said he was coming over with my husbands mother, I said I needed to finish, I thought he would understand. He said I hope he likes stag. I was not going, He said I owed 31 years of his life, I took off running. My dress was turned to confetti and he forced me. I begged I would meet him anywhere after the event, and we would talk, He said I have been talking and working and in pain for 31 years, No more once negotiation ends there has to be action taken, After he finished he got dressed and sat down, I went to put a bathrobe on, The man I was supposed to accompany came to the door. My husband said she wont be going, and he pushed my husband. His mother and father arrived just in time to see the man slam face first into a cement driveway, his mother came in to me, his father took his friend to ER, we did not make the event. My husband was protected under the Castle doctrine, This last weekend was memorial day, I was hosting a cookout at my and my husbands home, My husband paid for the food, it was his equipment. and his house, His father asked him what he was going to do while the cookout was going on, my husband informed him he would be right there. His father said that he had not been at a holiday gathering in 32 years, we had traditions he was not included in. He informed his son he was not invited and he had to leave, this was a few minutes before the guests arrived, my mother in law knew the look on my husbands face and said this is where pigs don't fly. My husband said ok, told his father to get out. Took a new chain and padlock, and was locking the porch, I was trying to reason with him when his mother told his father that it was my husbands right, His father said just because others have rights does not mean his son did, Our next door neighbor was a metro cop and came over asking what was going on, Husbands father explained, and wanted my husband arrested, The officer was laughing and said its his house he has the right, we had the cookout, my husband stayed, his father fumed along with some other guests that did not like my husband, One of the traditions was after the get together was we went out for drinks and dancing, My husband was always at work, I can remember him even being forced to go in to work on a holiday at gun point by his father. Said one day he will understand what it is to be a man. Well when the guy I was supposed to accompany put his arm up my husband stepped up and told him to scram if he wanted to keep his arm, my father in law said are you retarded, you know what you are not invited means, my husband said yes to both and his father slapped my husband earning a backhand in return, It lifted his father off the floor and dumped him. in the kitchen, Every one walked out feeling small and dirty, his mother said she had been trying to tell everyone my husband had no more patience with control, His brother and sister said its about time someone put our father in his place. I am just totally scared what will happen next, I called his councilor who said you and his father spent three decades creating this monster now we might have to live with it but put me in touch with the VA, The got into his records and found he had never been treated for the condition he had when he got out of the navy. They said he is displaying classic symptoms of PTSD he also found the journals I kept and is delighting in ruining the family life of men I had relations with while they were married, He says if I don't like it there is the street put your feet on it and pick a direction.

My cheating started 3 decades ago, My husband had a prior wife, she was called the US Navy, and she ...

Pride, Violence

i have been so good in not hurting anyone with my restraint. I really deserve an award. I have not hurt anyone.... sometimes it is so hard. but I have been so storng. I give myself a pat on the back. I know I am acting rationally.

i have been so good in not hurting anyone with my restraint. I really deserve an award. I have not...

Violence

I was 13 the first time I had sex with another woman. She was 30. I made a fake profile online, said I was 19, and used fake photos to trick her into meeting me. When we met, she saw right through it, but we had sex anyway. I never saw her again, but I used the same trick and got a lot better at making more convincing profiles. I had a woman, married with kids, think I was her secret 18-year-old high school girl "on the side" for almost six months when I was only 14. Part of me wishes I was still that young now.

I was 13 the first time I had sex with another woman. She was 30. I made a fake profile online, said...

Violence, Sex

leon and marie keep complaining about my sister having things in the way in her rooms, like what do they expect? why can't they have their ironing staff go to their place and iron. she is violent nd mean and messy. refuses to sleep on a bed to look pitiful even though I bought her one.

leon and marie keep complaining about my sister having things in the way in her rooms, like what do ...

Violence

I feel so dumb for even feeling this way! Basically after my ex left me and my kids I vowed I would never love again, I would focus my life on much needed self improvement and of course being the best parent I can be!

I feel so dumb for even feeling this way! Basically after my ex left me and my kids I vowed I would ...

Violence, Marriage

I don't know what to do...I'm a f*cked up person. I only 13 and I've watched my mom get beaten almost to death and watched her almost kill herself. I watched 3 people die before, the first was my grandma she died when I was 7 I watched her die in a nursing home slowly as cancer ate at her brain until she went crazy and finally past... I think that's when I changed. I used to be very happy on the inside and out but after my grandma died my parents got on drugs . in 2013 my grandpa died. He died right in front of me... I watched the light flicker from his eyes as he took his last breath telling me to go get help as he lied on the bed having a heart attack. After he died my parents drug addiction got worse... My mom was an alcoholic but as I grew older I realised my dad gave her alcohol so she would shut up. They always got into fights but it got bad when the fight began getting abusive. I became apathetic... I didn't care about anything anymore . I still dont.

I don't know what to do...I'm a f*cked up person. I only 13 and I've watched my mom get beaten almos...

Violence

I have mental issues. I have never been tested for any but I know I have them. My mom doesn't know or anybody in fact. My first problem is that I have psychopathic tendencies. I act on impulse without thinking about the consequences or how it could hurt me or someone else. Reality seems more fake than real to me and when I snap back to reality I get depressed and realize I am wasting my life. I am only 13 but every day I think of this. I don't have good grades, I break the rules, and I do what I want. I want to fight people a lot, heck I almost asked somebody today if they wanted to fight me. I feel like a disappointment to my parents. They do so much for me but I don't give a crap about it. I lose friends faster than I make them. I argue a lot and bully my friends. I make crude jokes about sexuality, gender, other lewd things. I lack empathy for others unless I really start to think about it. I don't know how to love or what it is.

I have mental issues. I have never been tested for any but I know I have them. My mom doesn't know o...

Love, Violence

I hate it that I will never be able to prove how much of my life have been suffocated, restricted by other people (most of times by fully grown adults too or people the same age as me) because in most times it is done indirectly and it is so frequent. The worst is that I Am the one accused of suffocating other people's lives and restricting them and imprisoning them. It is so rare when I ever impede somebody from doing something. I don't understand why I am the one accused of imprisoning and impeding anybody of achieving their dreams (unless their dream includes killing me). I don't imprison anybody, I don't impede anybody from getting whatever or whoever they want. Unless the person want to get it from me, for example if someone wants to drain my energy, I may try to impede this person from draining me. I am a fully grown adult I know that the sun shines for everybody.

I hate it that I will never be able to prove how much of my life have been suffocated, restricted by...

Adultery, Hate, Violence, Marriage

My wife make six times what I make, and our combined income puts us in the top 4% of income-earners in the US. I never thought I would be rich like this. I was raised trailer-park poor. But my wife's job requires her to criticize people all day. She's an editor and project manager. Literally she spends her entire day telling people what they did wrong. And she can't turn it off when she gets home. From the time she gets home at 5pm, to the time I put the kids to sleep and then retreat to the basement at 7pm, she's criticizing me. Virtually everything she says to me is a variation of: "You're doing it wrong." Then, at night, she wants me to "take charge" in the bedroom. I can't. I can't go from being the abused employee to the boss like that. So we rarely have sex. And when we do, I don't enjoy it. If I want to be honest with myself, I'll admit that I'm staying with her for our kids and for her income.

My wife make six times what I make, and our combined income puts us in the top 4% of income-earners ...

Adultery, Violence, Sex