I am depressed :-(

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete bloody useless waste of space deadpan wankers poofters, I am against gay marriage and I don't apologise for it, god didn't intent it and wait til wounded men want gay divorces and accuse men of rape and battery and forcing them into marriage etc. I am against gay marriage because it just makes it harder for women like me to find a husband. I mean you would swear I was the most vial woman in this town and I think I would be one of the more sexually moral and shy and modest women, I got up to a little silly things but I mean I really truely resent the way men have treated me here. I resent being ignored as a teen the way I was when young men SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASKING ME OUT BETTER MEN THAN WHAT WAS PUT ON DISPLAY FOR ME IN MY TEENS. i resent the way the churches have been towards me and a lot of people. I don't support gay marriage at all. I live at home because I have no husband, no man will get off his hole to know me, and the losers I have really liked who have don't put in enough effort, the losers I hated dragged me down to hell and it was hard to get rid of them to say "just fuck off" the better guys ignored me, I expected a man to buy me jewellery and take me out often. no man so far has lived up to my expectations, only a few have gone close and they seem to be ones that I never get sexual with, others I am glad I never got sexual with and one germ user nutcase ken I regret completely getting sexual with. while the men I like other people ruin it for me. I don't want to be around stupid people anymore. I know it might sound awful but I don't want to be around disability spastic abusive people anymore. I know even before I was in the car accident people seen me as spastic and more so after the car accident I was seen as a pathetic thing!

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete b...

I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depressed, shy, shut in or closed in as a person, bullied rappantly by teachers, admin staff and class groups, I didn't fit in, I had panic attacks the whole time which often I started skipping tutorials and just going to lectures, huge lecture halls then the panic attacks started there as well after a person attacked me one day while going to university I just was having a quiet little nervous breakdown and no one noticed, no one cared, I don't think I was ever missed, and then when I went to get help I met the wrong person completely who bullied me more, joyce. my sister was bullying me, my friends were, my mum and dad were, my brother was, all my outter distant relatives like aunts, uncles, cousins etc all hated me. I didn't have good friends network that was the worst part, there was no network that stuck by me through thick and thin, I stood by a lot of people in thick and thin and later regreted it. when I needed things no one was there for me.

I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depress...

I am sick of people using me. I deserve to be treated better then this. sometimes I feel like bashing that message into a few people. I don't like violence but I am sick of being ignored, abused, lied about, not getting the love and attentions and affections of friends and men I need, and sick of weirdos annoying me and just want them to fuck off and die. I hope everyone who abused me dies this year. i deserve more out of life. soon if things don't improve i am going to ring joyce up and abuse the hell out of that slut and yell at her and tell her i am going to take her to court she got too far and she needs a good bashing up! a woman who is provacative who should have been killed years ago - I don't know how someone hasn't killed her because she ruined a lot of lives and causes trouble to all her clients sooner or later they regret being near her. she has the weirdest concept of social justice and monetry justice and to win her favour she has a bizzar criteria I seen her do that at the baby shows with kids - she let it be known if she didn't like certain children, but she is so judgemental and everyone has to fit into her categories and if you don't she disguards you as useless and lazy and stupid. she has not got the answer for her own spastic life. spastic simple retarted dog little dumb woman joyce is, a spastic little dull dog woman I would love to kick her face in for her, that witchy lolitta widdle girl multiple personality disorder cluster b and more mental whore joyce is.

I am sick of people using me. I deserve to be treated better then this. sometimes I feel like bashin...