people have to understand that I did all that opus dei shit as a kid and young adult and at the age of 13 or 14 I even deliberately cut my clit to stop feeling horny from anger everytime that dirty foul pedo abused me and I hit myself over the head with a meat mallet when I kelly college would not give me my course , I mean I met business with this opus dei stuff as a kid and that was how we were bought up to think and I just don't believe in all the bullshit of it now. https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=1aO2LUAjiko that is why when that mongrel dog over at that dirty bayside family church started on me I told the nuns and a priest that they were trying to make me do things and were saying I had to do penance because penance to me ment self-mortification with physical pain and using things like needles and cilice barb wires to cut myself etc and living morbid without love and money and all kinds of things. I rejected sex for a long time and that was how I ended up raped because of joyce's abuse and other abuse and my doctor and the church have said I don't have to do penance and self-mortification. its a very offensive subject and I don't wish to talk about it to anyone. I just think all that shit is just out and out dangerous and mind-bending and occult like if used wrong. I am sick of smiling when I didn't want to for years and god has not graced me with much in return because I am sorry to say but there is no god as we understand it by church and the bible and there is no satan, there are no Jesus's and no hail mary's and no miracles and no saints on in the world. but there seems to be too many demons in the world now. and I just don't believe in any extreme churches anymore. so don't even try to bring up the topic.

pet peeves people who use phrases like "tell it to the hand cus the face don't want to listen" or "IMAO" in my arrogant opinion, these people have nothing to be arrogant about but should be grateful and humble and it is really insulting to be in the company of assholes who talk down at you but can't see that they do things that they critize you for, like defaming companies for minor traces of caffeine etc and yet don't make a issue over too much nuts or whatever and how they can cause illness and contradict themselves in other videos saying the opposite which I have noticed some health people do which is really confusing or thinking they are cool with stupid dialogue and utudy celebs who film every aspect of their lives talking too fast and raving on about mindless stuff that was once interesting on their videos that just lack substance. people who are constantly fiddling with their mobile while out with you are truely annoying and how rude at a meeting or medical appointment unless urgent to take a personal call ? and eat at a five star fine dining restaurant near the chef only to stare at a mobile all day during the menu. I must admit I have been working in industrial kitchens a few times and last time I was so ill and had to fake my interest in the chocolate the whole time it made me want to vomit and I had to fake my liking of it to be socially acceptable, then like I meet gay chefs from france who work in big hotels talking vulgar comments about piping meringue techniques while I am trying to prepare 100 or more parlor high tea sweets, so I did down the champagne in this huge kitchen after putting up with him. guys who talk to you as if you are their past partners and your just "no, I want out of this crap", and then there are these "hate talk" people like my sister and others who are just filled with hate talk that my doctor says he wanted to protect from because its so un-needed. sometimes the people who are labeled crazy for saying they are being violated or abused are not crazy and actually are being abused and not just attention seeking. wow what a new concept!

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