I moved in with Jeff over three years ago and have

I moved in with Jeff over three years ago and have to get out. I can't put up with it anymore but have nowhere to go and very little money. His house is a small two bedroom in a rural area. He is a heavy drinker and also does drugs often. When he is drunk or high he gets mad and nasty with me for no reason. Aside from hitting and spanking me he get rough with me when we have sex. Two months ago he let his "pig" brother move in with us when he lost his job. He constantly walks in on me when I'm naked either in my room or the bathroom. When I complain to Jeff about it he just laughs it off and doesn't seem to care. A little over two weeks ago Him and Jeff were doing drugs and drinking beer. Jeff was mad at me for something stupid so I dicided to shower and go to bed. I was in the shower when all the sudden Jeff stormed in and grabbed me by the hair. I still had soap on me but he dragged me to the living room and threw me on the floor. I knew his brother was there, but to my horror so was Jeff's friend Rick. When I tried to get up Jeff smacked me so hard I fell back on the floor. He ut his boot on my stomach and wouldn't let me get up. He started telling his brother and Rick I was a slut and a whore. I was crying and so humiliated I wanted to die. As Jeff sat down he grabbed my hair again and pulled me over his lap. My rear was facing his brother and Rick and he started spanking me in front of them. He was hitting me so hard I was kicking and screaming. Thatwhen he told his brother to hold my legs down. His brother got on the floor and held my legs as Jeff kept spanking me but kept pushing my legs apart. I knew he was doing it to see my vagina and anus better, but could do nothing about it. I could see both him and Rick leaning over and looking in between my legs. I was in so much pain by this time the embarrassment was secondary. Jeff finally stopped and pushed me back onto the floor but put his boot on my back so I couldn't get up. I was face down and his pig brother still had my legs pulled wide open. After a short time he let my legs go but Jeff still has his boot holding me down. At least I was able to close my legs but I was still crying and my butt was burning with pain. For about fifteen minutes I layed like that as the three of them drank beer. With me laying on the floor sobbing they talked about my body knowing I could hear every word. They dicussed my breasts saying I need an implant and also remarked about how I shavedmy pubic hair. Hearing them talk and being naked in front of them is so humiliating I can't even discribe how I felt. All I could do is cry. When he finally let me go it took hours before I could sleep. My rear hurt so bad even a cold shower didn't help. The next afternoon Jeff said he was sorry and hat he was so stoned he didn't know what he was doing. I can't beleive that and he doesn't know it yet but the first chance I get I'm leaving. His pig brother never said a word about that night and I avoid him as much as possible. He has come in the bathroom twice since then while I was in the shower. He just stands there looking at me and tells me I didn't lock the door. I always lock the door and know how he unlocks it with a butter knife. I scream and hollar at him but he just backs out of the room while staring at me. Jeff just shrugs his shoulders and smiles when I tell him. I told my cousin whats going on and as soon as we have enough we are getting an apartment in town together. My butt was brused fer over a week from that night. When I showed them to Jeff he told me he didn't know he hit me that hard. But he did.
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