Sorry Uncle Pennybags, Sorry Mr. Monopoly!

I'm in my second semester of my first year of college...and honestly...I fucking hate it......I feel so......lost...I feel like I'm heading down the wrong life path.....I'm majoring in Physics and engineering and while the careers and money for that career path are great....I can't help but feel like I should do art!......animation, writing ETC! I feel so out of place....I don't even have friends...I never get invited to places and I've become a complete hermit... I just want to reinvent myself... I want to learn to how accept people's criticism while making it known that it will not CHANGE ME AS A PERSON..... But I can't...and in the end....it always affects my character...and makes me hate myself when I do change myself to fit their criticism. I never stand up for myself..... Not against my family Not against other students Not against anybody... I hate that I'm SUCH A COWARD... I only feel safe in my own head...with the friends I've created in there....

I'm in my second semester of my first year of college...and honestly...I fucking hate it......I feel...

thankyou qc heather mover and shaker for abusing me sexually after joyce and katy did, thanks a lot. joyce say i have to thank abusive people I would prefer to have the cops on put them on trial to be honest for crimes against humanity and torture.

thankyou qc heather mover and shaker for abusing me sexually after joyce and katy did, thanks a lot...

Once you get used to the silence. Become numb to the pain. Deaf to the taunting voices. Ignorant to the social world. Become too stone when it comes to emotions. Learn in the end it's really only you that you have. That's its you, you wake up with and you that you go to bed with. And when looking in the mirror all you see is you especially when looking alone.

Once you get used to the silence. Become numb to the pain. Deaf to the taunting voices. Ignorant to ...