I'm a jerk to my ex's

I long to feel healthy, slim and safe again and like I have an abundant future ahead of me. sometimes I get lost in trying to do so much to make up for what I was not allowed to do and when I was sick and bullied because so many people called me ugly, lazy and stupid and were mean to me too much. I don't know when I last felt safe, I think it was when I was maybe 19 or 20. I had plans and worked towards them and I didn't realise the people who were taking me to a place I didn't want to be til it was too late and I desperately dispised their controlling because they stole from me, they stole my romances with the men I wanted, my sexual attractiveness and no one has the right to take what is not there's and ultimately they can't take when you make it clear to them your not going to take their bullying anymore.

I long to feel healthy, slim and safe again and like I have an abundant future ahead of me. sometime...

I know I am enough. I was good enough a ages ago and still am good enough for better men, better jobs, better house and income. I am not trying to talk it up I just know what I am worth and I refuse to feel guilty for expecting wage or dividend. I give so much. I wish I had more people to share my life with and I am much more choosi about who they are now.

I know I am enough. I was good enough a ages ago and still am good enough for better men, better job...

i went to the hospital today, which is always a way out experience, I wish I more nice experiences in hospitals. I still get upset near one hospital when I was really sick all I could see was the windows from the ambulance coming in terrified. I think ambulance people don't really know how terrified some people are.

i went to the hospital today, which is always a way out experience, I wish I more nice experiences i...