Mei,I did not leave for heaven with you...But I still miss

Dear you, every since we meet i think im starting to fall in love with you,but the fact that you keep talking about others girls when u know i love you is not cool,im feel that half my heart is missing when i see you,i want to cry when we start talking to each other but i dont,i try to be strong just so that no one will see me in pain,and its all your fault.. i love you more than anyone, but i guess you cant see that(i know this isnt really a sercet but i have to get it out) i wish that someday you will relize i have been waiting for you and have been there when you got hurt. just like you were there for me. i cant belive you like her and that made me cry so hard but you couldnt see it... and now i have to see you everyday this is not far from, forever lost without you

Dear you, every since we meet i think im starting to fall in love with you,but the fact that you kee...

It's just... not enough... I fooled around with this guy the other night. He invited me over to "watch a movie" and pounced me right away. It started out poorly... he was only kissing half of my mouth... he tasted like an ashtray as well... I was too embarrassed to stop him... even though he was throwing me all over the bed as if I was some dirty sheets he was trying to air out. Then we started getting undressed and I started thinking... okay this HAS to be better. And then... I see it... It's no bigger than my pinky... with like a lump of skin not even b**** attached. I had to stop myself from asking "Where is the rest of it!" Lets just say from there on out... it's bad... really bad... I feel bad because he's already talking about the future and what comes next... and I'm just ready to run... There isn't anything worth saving there either. Nothing really spectacular to save as far as a relationship... yet I feel guilty... He was just so cocky... How can he not know it's too small?! I have to say something... right?

It's just... not enough... I fooled around with this guy the other night. He invited me over to "wat...

I'm just so confused and hurt! I was talking with my brother, aunt and mom about how my parents were in Germany before they came to America and stuff and my mom said something that caught my attention. I asked her to repeat it, and she didn't even say it again. instead my brother told me. He said that I could've had a second older brother, but my parents had him aborted. What confuses me is why they couldn't have waited for a few more months and let him live. Maybe they could have given him for adoption at least. I'm also really hurt because NO ONE HAS EVER TOLD ME THIS!!! It's like they didn't want me to find out. Also, I remember my parents always saying that their relatives wanted them to abort me when I was a fetus. Why did they decide to keep me instead of my could-have-been older brother? I know a lot of secrets here are claimed to be "fake" but this happened literally this morning.... I just don't know what to do. My mom says it's her deepest regret, but I don't know how to forgive her. I could've had a second brother for crying out loud! (I'm only 16, but I still believe that everyone should have a chance at living). I'm just really hurt at this new discovery because my own PARENTS didn't even tell me. My brother had to. And everyone was so nonchalant about it two seconds after it sank in. Just... any advice on how to cope would help a lot. Thanks for reading, I guess....

I'm just so confused and hurt! I was talking with my brother, aunt and mom about how my parents were...