I am depressed :-(

Sometimes I really fucking hate being a nice person because people always take advantage of it and see me as a pushover. My supposed "best friend" (and 99% of people in my life) constantly takes me for granted and does not appreciate shit that I do for her. When I do something nice for people, I do not do it with the intent of receiving compensation, I do it because I care. It really sucks and angers me that I bend over backwards for her and never ask her for a damn thing while she constantly takes advantage of me. Whenever I try to stand up for myself suddenly I'm a bad person and that's what I try so hard to avoid doing because I know what it's like to have mean/awful people in your life. She ruined this one thing for me and had the nerve to give me an attitude because she's a selfish bitch and I've just about had it. I've slowly resented you but now I fucking hate you. I'm done with your bullshit because I just cannot handle you anymore. Honestly Fuck you.

Sometimes I really fucking hate being a nice person because people always take advantage of it and s...

I'm in my second semester of my first year of college...and honestly...I fucking hate it......I feel so......lost...I feel like I'm heading down the wrong life path.....I'm majoring in Physics and engineering and while the careers and money for that career path are great....I can't help but feel like I should do art!......animation, writing ETC! I feel so out of place....I don't even have friends...I never get invited to places and I've become a complete hermit... I just want to reinvent myself... I want to learn to how accept people's criticism while making it known that it will not CHANGE ME AS A PERSON..... But I can't...and in the end....it always affects my character...and makes me hate myself when I do change myself to fit their criticism. I never stand up for myself..... Not against my family Not against other students Not against anybody... I hate that I'm SUCH A COWARD... I only feel safe in my own head...with the friends I've created in there....

I'm in my second semester of my first year of college...and honestly...I fucking hate it......I feel...

thankyou qc heather mover and shaker for abusing me sexually after joyce and katy did, thanks a lot. joyce say i have to thank abusive people I would prefer to have the cops on put them on trial to be honest for crimes against humanity and torture.

thankyou qc heather mover and shaker for abusing me sexually after joyce and katy did, thanks a lot...