Degeneración....

even before that in 2000-2001 already my obsession over risk of hiv and std had taken hold, maybe even before that ? i was so depressed and bullied at university and have suffered from hypochondria for a long time, obsessions over germs and viruses and bacteria and illness of any kind. to the point it broke down relationships and work and education.

even before that in 2000-2001 already my obsession over risk of hiv and std had taken hold, maybe ev...

i would wake up at 2am and pace around the house having trouble thinking and breathing and cat attacking my face and I would hit myself over the head with hammers and anything I could get a hold of and attack everything around me with water and bashings while my parents were asleep and sister was married and brother married, no one knew but mum.

i would wake up at 2am and pace around the house having trouble thinking and breathing and cat attac...

there surely must be people out there who care and who give a damn about you. And if you're struggling with anything then you need to find a way to cope with it and overcome your difficulties, which may be harder than it sounds but you have to find a coping method. Whether it's a hobby, drawing, sport etc. Try and find something that will take your mind off of things. This may not have helped but when I've gone through crappy times I distract myself and put my mind somewhere else. And always remember that there are people you can talk to who honestly do care and are willing to help and cheer you up :) I hope you're alright!

there surely must be people out there who care and who give a damn about you. And if you're struggli...