I don't want to do a stripe show or burlesque or belly dance. I don't feel comfortable doing that , watching it not doing it. why do people think I am jealous of them when I am not. I am actually not jealous of stripers or tarts or people on tv or stars or royals anymore. I used to be as a child but I grew up out of that by the age of 16 I stopped seeing princesses and poop stars and dumb celebrities meant nothing to me other then entertainment value their nothing even more so now in my life and a joke. I see then as a joke and I see most people as a joke today. I have no person at all that I can look up to and admire as a role model at all. I don't even want to be like anyone in a career or relationship (YUK- that is repulsive to me the very thought of romantic relationships sickens me ) etc as perfect and just a human only. and during my 20s I wanted my own life to happen but no one wanted me. I met men who were not good enough for me. not attractive enough. not pretty enough, not intelligent enough. not strong enough. not independent enough. not loving enough. not good enough in personality and everything. sorry but no man has been good enough for me. The fat acceptance movement is not a fun or sensible thing to shoving down our throats. if the food isn't good then the fat love movement isn't good with getting off our fat ass to get healthier. sick of people expecting me to like being fat when I just don't and never will. I don't feel good or healthy. I don't like my what I see and nor do others who are honest.