last night I went out dancing at a steak out show rodeo and it was wild.

its best not to remember the good things that cause pain. i have never been insync and on time for luv so whats new.

its best not to remember the good things that cause pain. i have never been insync and on time for l...

i don't want to remember the feeling of falling in love much, because it was too painful being bashed and bullied, i have it locked in my biology and system now that the two feelings always go together and i can't win. its been that way since i was a child and teen, always being bashed over some guy and losing. its no fun at all. only as a child i bashed back i guess i should have as a teen and adult but being at law school i didn't want to cause problems, so i just spoke to police about it in private only.

i don't want to remember the feeling of falling in love much, because it was too painful being bashe...

rick made me cry so many times, i gave up counting love isn't crying to me, love is doing exciting grand things at grand scale enjoyment, not bs and soppy non-sense. I just like getting dressed up and eating out or going out a lot to feel alive. like yes i have to study and make quite time for that and my cats and health too but I like going out and getting dressed up a bit. it makes live more fun. if only I knew fun and had friends to have fun with. every night was sad and tears crap and I had ear infections and cried a lot alone at night for years and years, it was just something to do, cleared up the sinus a lot and lost weight. I would cry at the drop of a hat over anything. just cuz a few people kicked the bucket and no one liked me and i couldn't find any friends to fit in with anywhere and all my neighbors had parties all the time, the only parties we had were for my sisters lot, or radio old farts or as a child relatives and political dos at our house. I can't remeber experiencing any fun, I was never the cause of the party the life of the party, the reason for the party people didn't come to see me, as if anyone would like me! too nice and shy that was the problem.

rick made me cry so many times, i gave up counting love isn't crying to me, love is doing exciting g...