joyce was always telling me to go BAD and I didn't really know what that implied or how far one had to go? I just think that a lot of children who are abused like me, there is a part of them that ivery intouch with their inner child, I just loved uncomplication of a childs mind, but I have found other writing easier. romance is the least easiest to me, horros is easier bcause it is so easy to tap into your greatest fears that doesn't mean you want to live the fears out. one like to pcik their battles as much as pick your level of exposure to your fear.