🔥 i4giveu

I am finding it hard to get through the day and often all I want to do is sleep , because , well, things been so bad now since I dropped out of nursing training, well assisting workshops. I didn't plan to have poor relationship or business with them. I couldn't help getting ill. Still now I have heart problems and chest problems and caused the asthma to feel worse.

General
I am finding it hard to get through the day and often all I want to do is sleep , because , well, things been so bad now since I dropped out of nursing training, well assisting workshops. I didn't plan to have poor relationship or business with them. I couldn't help getting ill. Still now I have heart problems and chest problems and caused the asthma to feel worse.
20

Next post in 20s

Will redirect automatically

This confession was shared anonymously on i4giveu.com

More from 'General' category

these jokers say crap

these jokers say crap

General

Done With Working For Free Somebody said to me, "Don't ever do anything you do well for free." a few weeks ago. I realized a vast majority of what I spend my time on was free for other people. Since then I have created excuses and quit most of them. I was gaining less than zero from any of them. Have to figure out how to quit a "Charitable Organization" I got tied up in that costs me money and expects me to use way to much of my time for their goals. I need to come first in my life, not everybody and every thing else.

Done With Working For Free Somebody said to me, "Don't ever do anything you do well for free." a fe...

General

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...

General