Confessions about 'Hate'

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when I was thin guys were giving me advice about how I should put on weight and stop exercising and stop studying and I don't know what they expected me to do because they themselves didn't want me they just wanted to give advice and play a authoritive role that was boring to me, they would even say "oh you should be going out having sex more" but it was like "oh but not with me!" even the guy who date raped me he was like "you should be having sex more with guys and I will go check them out for you" and I thought "well why do you think you need to be so controlling you complete loser who has no sexual skills eventhough you think you do?" I thought what kind of dwip loser will he put me with some gorilla who is uneducated and lacking class and style? and so what before I was too thin now people say I am too fat, I called lazy, too busy and trying to do too much and fit in too much workload to down right lazy, boring to over excited, chatty to too shy and quiet. i mean I met guys in night clubs who didn't want to ask me out but wanted to get their mate to go out with me and I thought well why then don't you find an excuse to bring your mate over to talk to me where I feel safe and comfortable? I sometimes wonder what men are thinking? most times my attitude is "sex - thank god that is over and done with!" or just afraid to express much incase men i like don't like me. men always want to give advice but they are seriously bad at taking advice. I have told some guys who ask me for girl help... just be yourself! most girls will like you if you are nice to them, one guy i had to convince him to stop looking at every girl as if "she is such a snob look at her she thinks she is too good for me, her face is so stuck up in the air" and I said "most girls are really afraid to show kindness or even politeness and friendliness because they are afraid of men who go just too far, you smile and the next thing they are faceplanted into your bra which no girl wants. they want to get to know you. and its rubbish about girls decide within 5 seconds of meeting a guy if she will shag him, bullshit, she will make that decision 5mins after she has met you and hope to see you again, or at least I do if I am seriously in deep like of the guy because you don't want to come across like cheap and most women like a man that warms them to romance and courtship not forced into it. that is why it felt so wrong with k because i was not ready not interested and it was just a bullied into thing I would never do again. i have seriously learnt a lesson from that never ever go against your gut feelings, if are too sick to go to a cocktail party and they won't take no for an answer and make a time to see you when you feel better then forget it, all you will do is drink on top of heavy pills and get sick and vomit and get drunk too quick and do things you won't normally do and feel pressurized so I learnt that. never again! especially when the guy I wanted to meet that night no one introduced me to and no single guys would talk to me and if people arrange a party make sure you make people miggle and talk and dance and not just sit in one spot, make them move around and place nibbles in different parts of the area so they have to move to them and pass people and talk, have games or a prize. never ever have a party when no one is communicating and its strained its not worth it! you can tell a guy planned that party.

when I was thin guys were giving me advice about how I should put on weight and stop exercising and ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I hope they don't come on here. they annoy me with their ugly sex swap non-sense.

Hate

when will joyce allow me to have a life and marry and be in love and have a child of my own, she has no right to do this abuse on me and the churches have all been reported to police for their part in the abuse as well. my support group their contraband arguments on me are not on and have no substance at all.

when will joyce allow me to have a life and marry and be in love and have a child of my own, she has...

Abuse, Hate

i wonder when joyce plotted this pretend game out of being a victim with phobia to get to me and steal my life from me, then sudden quick recovery she had and how she got people to help ken to rape me. I never loved him and that is just the final word on it. i don't know how they could be so insane to do that to someone. I couldn't plot all that.

i wonder when joyce plotted this pretend game out of being a victim with phobia to get to me and ste...

Abuse, Hate

bastard bitch of a demonic devil woman joyce poorter! how did a spastic get a job working for armaguard when she is so afraid and panic attacked out like a freak? bullying everyone. spastic little fat turd and she is nothing like my father and mother they both hate her so much. if she only knew how much they hate her soul to peices. they hate joyce for what she has done to me since I was a little girl and her tricks and games with dirty van eede that other spastic bastard dirty dutch dingo. our family want nothing to do with with that evil witch ! how she has ruined lives and families and careers all for her ego! gun carrying retarted spastic monga whore dog loser con artist slut! lolitta widddle grrrrlllll! who is a liar liar cuz her pants are on fire for cock everywhere and that woman does not care who she harms to get cock. she has no morals, refuses to admit what she said and did. her immorality is her own personality. sad really!

bastard bitch of a demonic devil woman joyce poorter! how did a spastic get a job working for armagu...

Abuse, Hate

she made me dob in someone I didn't want to dob in over a medical issue that i can't prove. she pushed me and push me and bullied me to make sure he would hate me. it makes her feel so grand for all the men I like to hate me and its not fair she sets up these situations too often - its got to stop slut! joyce whore!

she made me dob in someone I didn't want to dob in over a medical issue that i can't prove. she push...

Abuse, Hate

all joyce wanted to teach me was loneliness, disputes and conflict and broken lives and rejection failure humiliation, letting go of everything that was important to me, yet why doesn't she give up everything and her fuck buddies and her money? she expects me to live like a pig for her sex whore life. what about the husbands she stole from me? when will she do penance for all the wrongs she has done, more wrongs then I have done.

all joyce wanted to teach me was loneliness, disputes and conflict and broken lives and rejection fa...

Abuse, Hate

and I could kill you over this mary.

Abuse, Hate

i keep having dreams about a island where there is a swell of water that could turn into a tidal wave and I am on holiday, or I am on a cruise boat with my cats and people are saying terrible things to me and I get sent to attractions and wished I never went and its been scary with volcanic areas I have had to walk around and rock climb and go near water I dont want to and its awful. I wake up feeling awful.

i keep having dreams about a island where there is a swell of water that could turn into a tidal wav...

Hate

he left thank god, that trunky guy gives me the creeps.

Hate

I am just going to tell you now I don't recomend the rsl and quests to anyone unless you like being bullied because it was supposed to be a fun social charity thing and all they did was verbally abuse, give dirty looks at the rsl and speak rudely and got me raped by a fat ugly married creepy pig, and not one friend in any of the girls, they ruin lives, we were promised outings to places that never happened and sent to places where we were assaulted and undignified and it was a complete disgrace. I was mentally ill at the time due to nervous breakdown and physical sickness and looking for something to do and I was a battered woman before I started and only battered and abuse more during it all and later. no one came to be part of the dinner to give me support from any major companies nor relatives, no boyfriend, no man to treat me the way I wanted to be treated, no one asked me what I wanted to gain out of it. I didn't get what I was expecting or needed or wanted. and gave them the flick and would never go back. I refused an invite to a party outright 10 years later. it was an insult. they make out they help girls get jobs and respect and all this rubbish, they never helped me at all. did the opposite.

I am just going to tell you now I don't recomend the rsl and quests to anyone unless you like being ...

Hate

how dirty I wouldn't feel jealous of that. I would not let a man fuck me in public like that, that is so disgusting and disrespectful.

how dirty I wouldn't feel jealous of that. I would not let a man fuck me in public like that, that i...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

they must get some great porn shots on that beach!

Hate

how could two dumb girls compete in choirs as to who has the better singing voice? and her alladin says "my singbird karkioki filipenia peddle puk"

how could two dumb girls compete in choirs as to who has the better singing voice? and her alladin s...

Hate

that bitch- ugg! basic bitch people! I am nothing like that. I never owned ugg boots, I never owned pants with sexy or stuff like that on them. I never use hashtags or dress up parties, I don't use spastic quotes like "that vegas basic bullshit", I never seen sorority rubbish and I only have a photo frame with "best cat in the whole world ever -purrr fect pet!" I never watch sex in the city cuz I find it offensively vulgar and trashy and common, I have no tattoos and I like cooking and gardening and shopping is maybe the closest basic bitch part of me. I dropped out of university because a fat mean old slut told me to! who poisoned my mind about everyone and everything! and I don't have sex or love of any kind in my life at all. as a compariety basic no-go zone person, I even dobbed in a rapist for raping me pushing me around a bed like i was a ragdoll and he was a guntting pig that literaally sickened me I vomited and doctors had to put me on stong antibiotics after the sexual act it made me so ill. i tried blueberry bagals for a while and got bored with them, I dont like scented candles that much and i don't watch friends, don't zumbo, or halloween and never would be a slutty nurse and I actually don't know how to have fun at all. I am not a picess and I don't have sex in the city brunches in hotels or money laundering, and I might have said yes to a few dresses in my time but that was just because I had to fill my time with something when everyone was ignoring me!

that bitch- ugg! basic bitch people! I am nothing like that. I never owned ugg boots, I never owned ...

Abuse, Hate

I can't workout why people who work in IT or forensics and certain wanky jobs and industries think they are so cool? like sally said to me her saggy old ass of 67 n how she drink drives and dumps her kids off to others and all these marriages makes her so cool? she is an old hag, she is a bitch. all she does is talk about her forensics cheap whore daughter who hates her and bungy jumping in dubai and getting pissed over a fucking face cream product launch. these IT idiots wank on with their jargon and all these complete losers in navy and military are just so violent and abusive and think they are so cool. really? its so cool to be some dirty talker silly senile paster talking faat cheap dirty talk when your a complete asshole of a son of a whore ugly creepy talking bullshit everyweek can't act polite to people and you think you are cool? shady saddie and her black evil eyes and all her sex toy business and she thinks she is cool? making money out of other womens loneliness and abused neglected lives, oh yeh she is restoring their soul with a vibrator! making money and living up like a whore with a fake doctors degree knows shit nothing but bullshit dirty sex talk while nicer girls are ignored. she is not even pretty. she is a complete dangerious evil slut bitch! isis terrorist little witch she is. I am so sick of the same old same oles with their dirty whore games and dirty dick crap and they think their cool. ??? heaps of people don't fucking like them! cuz these people are cunts, assholes, looooosers of the worse kind, they are narcsi-nazi falling inlove with an image of themselves fucking and all their dirty made money and power. yeh, its not as cool as it looks, its awfully spiteful and deadly there.

I can't workout why people who work in IT or forensics and certain wanky jobs and industries think t...

Abuse, Hate

the ones who are successful and married have heaps of skeltons along their path they slayed to get to the top.

the ones who are successful and married have heaps of skeltons along their path they slayed to get ...

Abuse, Hate

i am sick of the way people with degrees have jobs and fuck and have cars and houses and if they got bashed more they would all be levelled and equaled out some.

i am sick of the way people with degrees have jobs and fuck and have cars and houses and if they got...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i don't know who was behind the whole thing with kelly walking all over me and the way she turned on me after I told anita to frapup and I had enough of the leso receptionist trying to man handle me with her crap and I could tell she and anita didn't like me. then this accountant mathew came over and was talking fresh all the time to a 8year old called steph anitas daughter and I thought it was a bit dirty to be honest. and wondered where thehell that was leading. leaving me confused. anita and phil and their creepy big brick house that had no egos in it - pull the other one! and I just felt a victim of mary and john and kelly and leanne and then maggiepies:) turned on me and I didn't like her gossipy put downs and the way kelly for a mongie thinks that she is the most super intelligent person around as if she can fligh a space craft and land it in her back yard or something. to be honest I felt someone was trying to push me out and I knew I would get hurt there. old mary and others were pushing kellies bandwagon to the hospital as a little helper of gordons full of trouble! she turned on me nasty just because I said after the book throwing incident,"I don't know how much more of all this abuse I can take in the choirs" and she was always like "you have to put your health first don't take the rapist to court you won't win think of your health forget about that doctor and lawyer you liked and the other guys you liked just think of your health" like what advice is that? when my love life is causing my health problems. as if she has it all together. mary the therapist didn't want me introducing male dates to my parents, like what is it to her? I have every right to and a friend said to me, if that is your rules for love you have every right to do that after the rape and stroke you have been through. and all this mary therpaist could say was how men need to chose independant slut whores like her and she walked around with a diet coke can the whole time and I thought -- wish you would piss off to ken and nick and let me get on with finding someone better, you go out with craig and ken and see how you like it you dumb self impressed stupid bitch! she really was so impressed with her self as so called professional and her little office like mirunda thunder bum was. yeh she was so indepanded and a young happy chic daddy bought her a office and school to work in and she knew nothing about real life, deprivation and how it feels to be left behind attacked or ignored.

i don't know who was behind the whole thing with kelly walking all over me and the way she turned on...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

yeh so what did make old mary at vision in voice want to get in their and do something for the mongers? monger kelly tart whore who rides cock everywhere husband garry wasn't enough for the fat bullying tard turd she is. that dirty whore bullied me and things she is so hot with her spastic face and cutesy act she pulls when deep down she is a compete fucking manipulating calculative evil bitch. she wanted her dingdong honker cockold slit talker and little girl shirley, little lollita weedle girl of 68 still sucking thumb around the doctor like a weeddle grrrl on heat so she got him, and shut your dog faced cunts up then. I don't want to know ken and gordon and kelly and those spastics in that dirty spaz choir - old scotty marys horse play video action and marrying off spastic girls to dirty slit horny dirty doctors and navy dirty ugly phils. no thanks. chucky o!

yeh so what did make old mary at vision in voice want to get in their and do something for the monge...

Pride, Abuse, Hate