Confessions about 'Hate'

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I intend enjoying my life and living long irreverent of what others do! I got a lot of living to catch up on from what the job (non) access agency stole from me.

I intend enjoying my life and living long irreverent of what others do! I got a lot of living to cat...

Hate

Never had an orgasam I have honestly never had an orgasam, ether the person I was with was horrible or that I wasn't into it I have never had one. I can get to a point where I feel that I am close to having one but I never actually achieve it my body just shuts down and if it is master bating or having sux it would have to start all over again.

Never had an orgasam I have honestly never had an orgasam, ether the person I was with was horrible ...

Hate

aaahfff!

Abuse, Hate

we have been struggling for so long now. none of us have any superannuation or savings for age and retirement. We were promised jobs and they gave them to others. I need to find a way to bring in some extra money either part time work or working from home or something. I just need the extra money and freedom. I need to find the rainbow with more then this shit.

we have been struggling for so long now. none of us have any superannuation or savings for age and r...

Abuse, Hate, Blasphemy

This is my second time around being married. I got married the first time at 19 and it fell apart and became the ugliest divorce you would want to hear about. The court battles are ongoing, and the ex is after me for more child support every single year, despite the fact that she is re-married to a millionaire and I pretty much scrape by after what I already pay her. That's not so bad. I can deal with her bullshit and its not like I want to skip out on child support anyway. The worst part is I found a girlfriend a few years ago and right when I'd decided it was time to move on she got pregnant. Not being able to afford (as in I'd be homeless if I tried) child support on two fronts, I married this woman. Now, she's not a bad person. We co-exist fine in the same house, but I'd rather just not be married. Truth to tell, I'd rather not deal with women at all, relationship wise. I'm 40 years old and it just doesn't seem worth it to me anymore. Relationships are more headache than joy to me. So basically I stay married because its easier. I don't hate my wife, I just don't love her either. I'm pretty neutral about the whole thing. I know she'd become a blight on my life if we got a divorce though. She doesn't work, and she'd come after me for every penny she could get. I have a higher income than I did when we first got married, but it wouldn't matter, the court would just order me to pay more because of it, plus I'd have the original ex to deal with... So basically I'm stuck. I hate being married, I hate the day to day work of it, every single day I dream of being free of it. In the meantime I go through the motions. I tell my wife I love her, etc, but its all lies. I take her on the occasional date, buy her flowers, all to keep her quiet. If I'm going to suffer through this the last thing I want to hear is her bullshit about not being loved enough. Welcome to my life, lady. Things don't always work out the way we want. I'll leave if you promise not to come after me for every penny I have, but of course you would, because you're "entitled" to it even though you aren't willing to go get a job yourself. Yeah fuck that. If I'm going to have to deal with that, you're going to have to deal with the loveless marriage. If you don't like it, YOU can walk. That will probably make the whole thing more affordable. Yep, that's my life. I hope this little rant falls into the hands of anyone considering marriage, because there's a really good chance that when the love runs out (and it will) you'll be in this exact same position.

This is my second time around being married. I got married the first time at 19 and it fell apart an...

Abuse, Hate, Marriage

the fat dirty whorey slob mothers at the rsl baby shows were vial sicko women taking the lazy bastards way out of life having kids rather then working full time all the time.

the fat dirty whorey slob mothers at the rsl baby shows were vial sicko women taking the lazy bastar...

Abuse, Hate

this is a tone poem one of many of bowies. and it was our french lot the crystal makers of france and czech that started the whole patent law industry https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tg-9pL6k3CI

this is a tone poem one of many of bowies. and it was our french lot the crystal makers of france an...

Abuse, Hate

I love my parents and sister and brother and relatives and forgave them a long time ago. I don't understand the attutudes but I accept that my brother and sister and some relatives hate me over the admitting being molested. I had no choice. bunnypoeta threatened me with physical violence and threats of harming me.

I love my parents and sister and brother and relatives and forgave them a long time ago. I don't un...

Abuse, Hate

I feel like everyone hates me and I am always labelled as dumb, I keep wishing my aunty and cousins blessings and good luck with their lives and I say that to everyone. but why do some people send negative energy and abuses to me. I try to see as much good as I see sometimes not so good in my family members etc. like is it such a bad thing that I was always the Pollyanna saying the good things and believing the good things about people and then I woke up to find people were not returning them to me which is why I failed in life in my 20s. people didn't return the good will that I gave. that is fact. so I guess it will come back to them.

I feel like everyone hates me and I am always labelled as dumb, I keep wishing my aunty and cousins ...

Abuse, Hate

Step Daughter of 12 makes me want to leave and disappear I need help. I feel hopeless and so unhappy. I want to leave my husband. We have been together for 2 years, he has a 13 year old and 12 year old daughter and 18 year old son, i have a 11 year old girl and a son of 15. I am currently Pregnant, a high risk pregnancy. I have had issues with his daughter since the day before our wedding when i over heard her talking to her mother who has not seen her in almost 5 years. I feel uncomfortable in my own home. she makes comments when her dad is not around and gives me dirty looks, when her dad is around she is all sweet as pie. she came to me the other day and told me she is dating a 17 year old. she is 12 I told my husband, the next day he comes to me and tells me she is not and i must stop my s***. I don't know what to do any more. She is also influencing my lil one, to date boys and stuff. I feel so sad all the time and hurt and i will rather just go, because she has her dad confidence she is so sweet and nice, but she evil, i have never ever come across a child like this. She is always on the phone with her mother and she will say mean things about me to her so i can hear. Never when her dad is around. A few weeks ago I spoke to my husband about her dirty looks and thinks she says when he is not around. And he called her into the room, and she started crying and saying she would never so that. Again I made to look evil. She is even turning my daughter against me.

Step Daughter of 12 makes me want to leave and disappear I need help. I feel hopeless and so unhappy...

Hate

I still wet the bed and I'm 17...

Hate

just recently I sent a postal order via registered mail and it got lost so I complained and set up a case internal investigation and then still nothing and I couldn't afford to lose $235.00 in the cheque inside. I then contacted the ombudsmen and then a minister about it and it turned up about a week or two after that so I told them I was thankful for their help, what ever they did and the cheque had come back safe and I could get a refund but only if I had the postal order cheque and the docket and butt of proof of purchase. no one told me earlier I could cancel the money order and I thought it was strange because I thought it would be like at the bank you could put a freeze on it if someone presented it. so this dam cheque was lost of over a month and half with the registered mail envelope and when I went in to get refund she was like "you have to suffer the loss of postage and price of envolope seeing it was not our fault it was sent to the wrong address it was you fault, and I said "well it was your computer that gave the wrong address" I should have just rang the hospital to get the correct address anyway I said "look I am not worried about postage I just want the $240 back thankyou" which they gave back and then yesterday someone from a dept contacted me yesterday and said "No its not good enough that it took them all that time" and he gave me return fees for the postal envelope and postage cost. I never had this problem before but learnt a lesson.

just recently I sent a postal order via registered mail and it got lost so I complained and set up a...

Hate

So we are FB friends, and we both are seeing other people. But I saw a pic she posted today, and her hair looked just like it did the second time we had s, when I gave her her first o* ever. It was a night I thought about a lot, because she told me how amazing it was then. She had never c ever, not even with herself. But I managed to make her c -- very hard too -- and I used to fantasize about that night a lot. Well I saw the pic today, and it gave me a raging erection and I just had to m***** at that moment. I came way harder today than I have in a long time. The s with my current GF is just ... ok at best. Now I feel very guilty, but I can't stop looking at the ex's pic and wanting to do it again. Am I a bad person?

So we are FB friends, and we both are seeing other people. But I saw a pic she posted today, and her...

Adultery, Hate

I can't bare spending money without my panic and heart going into overdrive and racing at every cash register I can't stand it. I been that way for years that I hate spending money at all.

I can't bare spending money without my panic and heart going into overdrive and racing at every cash...

Abuse, Hate

yesterday was so hot I had heart racing after talking to financial advicer and upset over night with reflux and chest pains cuz I need to get back to the gym to work out. I went to the doctor today but I didn't tell him about the heart racing, its not like its the first time. I don't even know what set it off. I just need to go workout more. I am sick of being fat. over the past 3 years I have done a lot of weights and exercise and these medications are not shifting any weight and I am cranky over it. cholesterol still up and I am cranky over it. I shouldn't be having these health problems and I fear a heart attack. so don't stress me.

yesterday was so hot I had heart racing after talking to financial advicer and upset over night with...

Hate

last nights so hot. today is so hot. the night before out tv blew up from a lightning strike storm and it blew out our phone system as well. we're stuffed we need more money.

last nights so hot. today is so hot. the night before out tv blew up from a lightning strike storm a...

Hate

stop ripping me off kid!

Abuse, Hate

my sister has been a complete bitch here the last week since husband came from os. she won't speak to anyone in the family she doesn't want to know us saying we are not her family and her only family is her husband and his daughter and all she ever does is lie and abuse us day in and day out. she plays her son against us all time, like "I will get him to attack you all if you don't do this or that" and other stuff or "I won't let you see your grandson if you don't let me do this or that" for the last 20 years to parents and me. we are hurt by this abuse. her evil. then she said "filipinos have better houses then we do" yeh hon they ought to with all the cash flow you been sending them that you wouldn't help your own family out but expect her own family to go into debt to fund her and filipinos accounts while we are forced to live in squaller and her abuse. not fair mate. whole family so sick of the hurt and abuse and the devil voices she says the most evilest of things for the past 25 years that I couldn't even say to my enemy and if my brother thinks he has been insulted he should try her abuse we have copped for the last 25 years. he has no idea. she actually thinks she can suck up to him. but if he only knew the evil this she said about him and everyone. this "bugger everybody I will make all of you pay and suffer" for the past 25 years. all her lies. the lies. she wanted mum to lie again on a document to get money from the govt and mum said no, you always make out we are the assholes towards you. stop abusing us she said. your abusing me mum said. I am a 76 year old woman who raised her children stop abusing me. then I get my aunty on the phone crying to me about how her kids and grandkids abuse her. I need to be paid for this counseling and therapy. I might have done psychology and counseling with addiction and divorce etc but I am no expert, but why can't i be paid for this if joyce could be. they making everything too rigerous so people can't work with basic skills to earn money. I am sick of this abuse. it is abuse from everyone. i am sick of the disrespect.

my sister has been a complete bitch here the last week since husband came from os. she won't speak t...

Abuse, Hate

i not tell people what i do anymore, my former friend emma a few years back now taught me to shut up about anything cuz I just knew she would put down what I was doing. yet she expected me to beef up her ego and dumb old me was like "oh that is so good your studying again" the fact that it too was a not a quality elite college like me i never said one word about. I just gave her compliments of "hope you enjoy it" or "hope it all works out for you" and all she could say was "and what will that do for you?" about my course. so now I just say nothing. see how friends hurt you. don't let them. when they do that they are not a real friend, get rid of them. for all her good qualities that day finished me of her. she became so rude and arrogant about her clients calling them smelly bums. is that normal for a grown adult woman in her mid 40s to be calling her income paying people smelly bums? no its unprofessional. its like when I worked for a doctor the way they put down their clients if only those people knew they would never go back. i am sick of people doing that to me, speaking rude about people who i have to work with etc. and they pay for the services and yet others who are useless they gush over like as if they are some ultergod and their assholes but its like "oh him/her, they are great aren't they" and I am like "no! they are stupid rude and want everything free while the poorer people you abuse actually do pay and can't afford it and your insulting them for seeing you"? like go figure?

i not tell people what i do anymore, my former friend emma a few years back now taught me to shut up...

Hate

Syrian refugees trying to come to the USA I don't know why refugees keep trying to get to the USA... I thought they were trying to ESCAPE senseless hate, persecution, and mass shootings of public areas.

Syrian refugees trying to come to the USA I don't know why refugees keep trying to get to the USA......

Abuse, Hate