Confessions about 'Hate'

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once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competition now. you get thrown on a sexual, job and life scrap heap. my parents went through it and so have I. its life's way of kicking you down. like australia post stealing my mail. soon I am ringing the obudsmen to complain. probably my shithouse cousin is behind that out of vendetta just because he abused me as a kid. you can blame joyce , spongybum user bunnypoopeta bunnpoeta the joke of all jokes, i never wanted others knowing my business. his and joyce and ken's and leigh's threats made me do eratic things out of anxeity and phobic fear of being bashed. that is another reason i won't come into relationships. it usually starts and ends with being bashed by some slut dog or deranged male. nope. won't come into it. I laugh at others in relationships cuz you have to ask yourself. "how did that ugly bitch get him or how did that ugly bastard get her" and usually its violence that got them there just like in jobs too. politics all based on violence and threats not popularity. wake up world you sure need to be educated by me to be enlighten!

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competi...

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sarina ugly nigaa myob ugly sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob ugly russonigga sarina sarina ugly nigaa...

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rick said you have to be working to be in a relationship and he is american so it has to be right! right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rick said you have to be working to be in a relationship and he is american so it has to be right! r...

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i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself out there at parties on the ship i could have because i see myself as disgustingly ugly. i met a really nice doctor on the ship and his partner from russia and they were so nice she was taller then me but blumpy but i see her as exotic with her culture and his culture from another part of the world I can't remember where, but he was perfect and to me i just see this ugly old fat unhappy sad, lonely, no hoper that every one hates and i hate my body deeply. i think most overweight lonely people with illness don't embrace this fat body love crap and fat acceptance stuff. most fat people are deeply unhappy, the only benefit to being fat is, people don't bother you for sex or annoy you when your thin they expect you to hand out sex and smiles and flirts everywhere when your fat they expect you to be unhappy and sad and depressed and quiet and that is my true character, i have been more depressed in my life then anything else even with money or without money. flirting is not my thing. i am very matter of fact and business like with men. i only ever tried flirting for about 1- 2 year zone when i was 3-32 because i was thin. but even as a teen and young woman i never flirted and prefered to study and be alone with my cats and i mean it was clear men didn't like me and all the useless unwanted ugly old men would bother me. now they pick up the fuck off sign i were on my forhead everywhere i go. i am not interested at all til i am the person i want to be then i will let love in. another guy in support group feels the same way, he said "if i have no job then i won't allow myself a relationship and i am the same", it makes people realise you are not gonna just take what comes or sell yourself up or down for just sex. i am not interested in him he is way too old for me. my attitude is no career and no thinness no flirting and no sex and i place a price of currancy on everything about me when it is how i want it then i might flirt, but without a job your a nothing even if thin or family money, or university you're a nothing without a big job. i never paid for any dates with any men. i never made others a slave to me i would say others tried to make me a slave to them and i won't be that. they can be there own slaves. the presumption that anyone expected anything of a loser like ken just shows what a idiot he is. I am fat and ugly as he was then when he raped me and there is no hot young virgin male around for me to rape? and no one especially me, i never asked a spastic old scum to help me, he took. I was thin and single and deserved better only other people couldn't see that. i could see i deserved better, it was other people forcing things i didn't want like fat dog bec and rick and katy and i told police i have every reason to believe ken ken rick and katy and bec and all that group, its likely he knew joyce and william and others. my guess is william got him to rape me as that is the evil sort of person william is. I don't ever want to see him again because i do believe he was the one who caused all this. there was always something evil about that family and still is. i am exactally how others wanted my life to be, i stay in bed all day every day unless i need to go to the doctor or out for something. i don't talk much to people. I avoid a lot of people and i am recluse and shy again just like i was when bill abused me and ron assaulted me, they made me feel ugly. only a ugly girl gets molested by ugly old men. only ugly girls get raped by ugly fat men. only ugly girls get illnesses and only ugly girls get ignored and jobless and have no friends. its like roy sings 'only the lonely, is ugly... only the ugly" !!! and this ugly old witch dog pig faced redhead is not flirting with anyone and is openly rude sometimes if i can get away with it to certain people. i have accepted my lot in life of misery lonlenss and ugliness. only ugly people get abused as kids, or they end up ugly for being abused as kids. that is just nature and life sorting each other out. like when animals dump their young that are deformed, well it will die anyone so the mother rejects it. you have to learn to thing self self self. what is in it for me, how can i benefit from everything. being ugly and abused by ugly is a sign of gods hate for you! that is all the therapy I ever knew.

i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself ...

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i know she comes on here.

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the depression of summer. it starts from october til about april. the heat makes me feel so depressed and sad and miserable. not sure how anyone is supposed to live in this heat. its uninhabitable as far as i am concern which is only reason why i hate this place australia, there are a heap more reasons. no one can aspire to rise above poverty and a nigar or overseas person or asian here. its so suppressing if you half way normal.

the depression of summer. it starts from october til about april. the heat makes me feel so depresse...

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SNIFF fart bark shit on the floor FUCK SHEEP AROUSAL fuck in public fountains acid trip TRAINING. I am a blond 30 something wife with a 30 something husband. I have recently taught my husband to become aroused by the scent of my farts. It is to the point where he becomes completely excited when I cut the cheese and often asks me to fart in his face when we are intimate. I tease him by eating refried beans and onion chili, pigs ears and mutton gut and a drop of the old eppycak molases in public fuck on demand in shopping centres and then farting and dancing on tables for sexual relief. He begs me not to because it turns him on too much it makes he spontaneousy stiff and throws out a dick and masturbate infront of anyone in public and he cannot stand up in public after I fart near him so I just laugh and keep our circus act going til we are farted out off into space. One of our hottest fantasies was where he wore a latex hood burning it and melting it into his forhead of his cock and face and I ate several bean burritos and farted inside of the latex hood while I burn my ass on the carpet shittting and bumskids on the new carpets in carpet shops mostly. All he could breathe where my farts burn hot with fire and we scorch any lovers out off the earth compared to us and our super erotic love making in fountains and bean pole rooting in public no one can bare our company infact. My farts were his oxygen and everyone's memory for years to come til we killed ourselves with a fart tactical response group stage stunt involving a hot air balloon, three monkeys and 20 gas tanks of my pre-mixed farts over a period of 6 months capped some how it set off a earth quake and we kill everyone with our magnificent love . no regrets. CAN YOU TELL I AM ALREADY SICK OF THIS DEGRADATION ONE SIDED DEND END RELATIONSHIP, cuuz its so full of shit.

SNIFF fart bark shit on the floor FUCK SHEEP AROUSAL fuck in public fountains acid trip TRAINING. I...

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scrum

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sarina nigaa myob sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob russonigga sarina sarina nigaa myob bad nig myob r...

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sarina russo you are a very ugly manbeast leso abuser. how can you live with yourself?

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fuck off pedo rape. no one wants to listen to your sicko talk. I am not into rapeo pedos so fuck off! just fuck off. go on get out of here devil! get out of here or police will get you for stalking! and making threats of abuse! get lost devil!

fuck off pedo rape. no one wants to listen to your sicko talk. I am not into rapeo pedos so fuck off...

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i am a persistent complainer. I hate that part of me sometimes.

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I make complaints about ads!

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fuck off yourself!

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I hated my ex because he messed me up mentally I felt so worthless. Over time I got over it but I have this fear of men. It’s almost been 3 years.

I hated my ex because he messed me up mentally I felt so worthless. Over time I got over it but I ha...

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you don't know how much i want to get out of australia - this hell whole of shit country.

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my brothers godfather came from kassel Germany, my godparents family owned a world wild soft-drink company. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSuSGlAaZZk ; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GL1xoAnGHGI

my brothers godfather came from kassel Germany, my godparents family owned a world wild soft-drink c...

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I woke up really sick yesterday morning I was having a meltdown panic attack over it. I got up and I was flat out walking to the toilet and so incredibly dizzy and nauseated and had some gastro as well. I was beside myself crying that the mastoid infection thing could happen again or the RN said could I have had food poisoning because I told her I had had jauntis a few weeks ago bit was just in around the eyes and I get that from time to time. anyway before I rang the doctor I remembered I had some tablets for dizzy spells so I took 1 cuz my gp isn't back from holiday yet if I get really sick I will call a home doctor or go down to the VP24 they are better then the stupid hospital. I was crying tonight because I don't want to die from this thing and I have to go to hospital soon for something I can't talk about anyway. I don't want to die. I don't want to go through it again like last time. I would kill myself then go through it again. I said that back in 2000 after that huge middle ear infection I used to lay over the side of the bed facing the floor crying all day and all night for over 6 years and I thought that was bad enough. I thought i was gonna die then but each time it has got worse. I fear so much. I got to cope some how all alone in this. no one is gonna care when i die. no one has ever cared about me. I just don't want to have anymore senseless injections of shit in me and no more xrays and ct scans of my brain etc. Mri's fine but like the RN said for me not to take anymore tablets incase the doctor fines something more wrong but I have to go to hospital in a few weeks time for something else. I can't have all these problems, sure this was not as bad as when I needed the ambulance with my brain swelling after i washed my hair and everything was double and I couldn't walk straight for weeks. I used to slide side ways up and down the hall way checking on my mothers breathing a dozen times a night when I was really sick. I have to go to hospital in a few weeks and I don't want anyone worrying about me. I am alone in this illness and i am coping as best as i can. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YoG4z3c-rZY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgp2gheUjLA Rn asked me if I have recently hit my head, "hit my head, I can't remember! since the car accident" but usually its the dam cupboard in the kitchen I hit my head on or something else inflicted. but I am feeling a bit better today anyway.

I woke up really sick yesterday morning I was having a meltdown panic attack over it. I got up and I...

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I don't do incest. not my scene!

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yeh well you go bullying me for the rest of your life but the police are going to get you for stalking and abusing me you spastic loser! fuck off and go die in hell. go die go die go die go die. !!!!!!!!

yeh well you go bullying me for the rest of your life but the police are going to get you for stalki...

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