I am 29. I've tried to kill myself twice in my entire life. I think of suicide every day

I am married and had a few kids. I have been going to the same gynecologist for several years but last year I had to get another one because she stopped practicing in my city. My new Doctor is a male. I wasn't sure how it would work out but I admit that I think he is amazing. He has shown me what I have been missing as I get off on men feeling me up all the time and fancy myself and love to show off as much as I can when my husband is around or not. he loves me doing this too and wants us to have a threesome. The first time I was a little nervous with him being a male gynecologist. But my nerves went away as he talked to me during my exam. My old Doctor never even spole to me while she was touching me. He talked to me and even complemented me on how well I was shaven to which he had a bite into and my husband enjoyed watching the show for him. The exam didn't take long as most of it was all in my mind as I am so impressed with myself with any man and I feel like my husband neglects me often but he was totally in love with the idea of a group gropeup, but we talked as he fingered me and it felt wonderful. especially when my husband joined in and it took a hour to get the waiting room suspicious, I have black long hair and my husband is black and we wear spooky show clothing gothwear. He kept asking how it felt and I told him and so my husband wanted to do more but last xmas i divorced him and now i go alone and its even likely to be better next smear test. He knew exactly were to touch and how much pressure to apply or so i thought til he grabbed me and pulled on my retum and had a smerk to himself at the size of my ass and tits and said "how many babies have you had? and when was your last again?" . he knew how to finger me. He had laser eyes and speak about him and said ""i think i can feel a babies head are you sure your not.., uhm" I even told him that I was likely to be and I had my first squirt all over him. The next visit is goodmorrow and I am so excited I have skyping about this several times thinking about it. I am going to make sure my pushy is completly smelly for him and unclean and poo'th for him. My husband will not be with me this time. He didn't like standing outside the door of the office last time and he demanded to come in for some action too .my gynecologist, is a old sucker of 80 by now and I just think all men want me and I love playing with them at 55 can you blame me? I am so hot and we all tell our stories at mothers club and have a giggle about all our docotors stories and laugh and gossip about all of them. we could be up for slander if someone else heard the things we say and make fun of these dumbo docs. of course he is gay.

I am married and had a few kids. I have been going to the same gynecologist for several years but la...

I call her cunt face kate middlemouth! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwrs4OKZCDo she is a blokey dog, they are all spastic! assholes.

I call her cunt face kate middlemouth! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwrs4OKZCDo she is a blokey...

From one ex gf to the newest ex gf Want to know why I treated you so badly? Because you REPLACED me! Seeing you as my replacement was EMBARASSING! I knew from the moment first moment he mentioned you, I had a bad feeling. I had a bad feeling that something was off with you. Now you go and broke his heart, and whats worse was he thought you were the one. You go and find someone else so soon, as if what you had with him never mattered. Any little respect I ever had for you is completely gone. At least have some decency to wait a little longer. He hates you now and never wants to speak to you again. Yet, I am one of the reasons why you broke up and he wants me in his life. Why do I treat his new gf better? Why do I respect her and am now best friends with her? Because she is BETTER THAN YOU IN EVERY WAY! If I had to be replaced, she was the one whom I expect to be replace me. Not some low life white trash slut. You look at me and hate me for treating her better. I would feel bad if you didn't prove me right about everything I thought about you. Sorry I'm not sorry. Too bad I could never say this to your face.

From one ex gf to the newest ex gf Want to know why I treated you so badly? Because you REPLACED me...