I am depressed :-(

i was a rare time for me to go out nightclubbing about all of less then a dozen times in all my 44 years of life I have been in a nightclub less then a dozen times because I don't like drinking much, I don't like smoking and when I do go out at night I prefer to go to nice places and get a good night sleep, i often go through emotional upset when I am bashed and i lose the guy because the bitch with the power get them and i hurts but sometimes i go study or i just turn off emotions and just its easier to just say "well some of us are just not ment to be loved, but i have justice on my side?" or i left a job due to sexual harasment after being so fat and losing weight and i just didn't need someone destroying what little confidence i had about myself or body. and those people know they killed me, they just like being that way. and i have to learn to avoid them and if that means avoid men too so i do. i would rather have my pride and i always need to be right more then i need to be loved! - i mean the dream police and brehon judges in me, i can't change who i am .

i was a rare time for me to go out nightclubbing about all of less then a dozen times in all my 44 y...

I am not going to any melborne day cup events tomorrow I was very hurt by last year when my friends just dumbed me in another room with no friends to talk to so we talked to the head event manager instead.

I am not going to any melborne day cup events tomorrow I was very hurt by last year when my friends ...

some professionals and work people and in social groups have a professional blind conception about policy of integrity of staff and workplace. there is no point someone saying lies like "oh this is the best place to work in" "this is the best company etc or dept" when everyone from top down is off the beat. its lies, its not going to make it so just because you pretend its great. then you try to make others look bad or liars and then it all falls back at the person who was making out it was so great when it all falls down and is not working great just because one person said it is great when its not. be truthful don't live the lie or nothing gets improved. one day you will be on your ass and learn it the hard way. like i have heard so many bad reports from good people about our local hospital and all i can say is its cleaner and newer but not that nice but then no hospital is, and all this loser drug addict can do is rave on about how good the staff are and yet one of my poshy friends who was a classy lady and was well associated in our city she was treated badly there and so was I and others and my friend had way more class and money and she was blonde and beautiful as well . how come some deadbeat loser bum druggy whore dirtbag can say "oh they are so nice and great in there" like was she just trying to piss me off or hurt me or make out they prefer her type over me and my friend who have more class and are not drug addicts. just because one deadbeat loser druggy prostitute says its great doesn't make it so! a loser with other losers and yeh i find that offensive to abuse obvious classy women and help a loser deadbeat creepy whore. don't subject me to that dog karma again. or i will call police. I hate karma anyway, she is an annoying slut.

some professionals and work people and in social groups have a professional blind conception about p...