I am depressed :-(

as far as I am concern louise and all my relatives and their kids can all go get stuffed and they should be forced to suffer the abuse I have not be allowed to marry because they are not special, there is nothing worthy in them as people at all. they are completely undeserving worthless evil people and I don't want to know them. if they didn't want to see me a pretty young bride and didn't want to help me then I won't be helping them and nor will my parents. the relatives have a hide expecting me to live like a pig just so they get love and marriages young and there is nothing more important about them, only in their heads not in anyone elses. louise is a spoilt bitch who should have got off her ass to help me more to find a husband, you should help your family with jobs and relationships and she didn't do a thing for me at all. she only thinks of herself and my other relatives are much the same they all had jobs when were unemployed poor and I am sure they were spreading lies about us and stopping us having income out of jealousy. steven and his kids are complete scabs and users.

as far as I am concern louise and all my relatives and their kids can all go get stuffed and they sh...

I went to a flower show exhibit and I also bought some pretty hair accessories and fine petite delicate necklaces and t-shirt . I really love that light seersucker fabric and off the shoulders tops but they were a bit dear for me today, and I bought some flower arrangement baskets for a garden party with flowers. I bought some chocolate moulds I have a few party things I have been buying for a while now. i guess deep down I want to have a party but I fear anyone I asked no one would come because no one has ever liked me, few people even notice me, let alone listen to me or treat me nicely.

I went to a flower show exhibit and I also bought some pretty hair accessories and fine petite delic...

sometimes I feel like throwing in my legal and design degrees and I have a dummy spit now and then at the teachers college for being so shitty mean. I do like study but I wish I had a classroom and teacher, its ok to teach yourself some things on line etc but its good to get help as well and have class friends and get out of the house and get dressed up and I have a lot of interests, I guess i am sick of being my own teacher with some things. should I go to the workshops and I have other classes coming up soon as well and I am afraid to go. will anyone like me?

sometimes I feel like throwing in my legal and design degrees and I have a dummy spit now and then a...