I am depressed :-(

i want a job i did a uk nanny certificate and all i want is some part time work. i just wish i could find someone to trust in me for some work. i want to work part time. in office, or retail or anything humanable. i need the money. all i am expected to do is pay for my parents cruises and holidays all the time, food, pet bills, my own medical bills often come last. my education is expensive. i have a aunty who won $6 or million in lotto and her husband abused me and so have her kids and I just don't trust their daughter anymore. she has terrible children. at first I thought it was not nice of my aunty to be saying her granddaughter needed a kick up the bum all the time but she has been expelled 3 times from school and is not a nice person from what i have seen and how can you expect her to be with parents and grandparents like that. all my cousin does is show off at police men and other men when her father has been in jail, half of his family were in jail, he molested at me and my sister. they were in court cases and he was attacking people. my aunty says she doesn't miss him. I think of all the times i babysat those kids and i never once treated them less for what their father was. and I can see the mistake I made now. I had an attitude like "well if dad can't get work with all his skills and experience who the hell will employ me if i am some loser ugly kid who dropped out of school after being sexually attacked by a great uncle and I collapsed at school one day because someone put glass in the mince. i can't even look at stuffed capsicums anymore without fear and terror and trauma. I just want a job. i wish i had a zillion dollar walk in closet but gee it would be nice to be appreciated and loved and valued and earning money. i blame trevor for this because i am sure mr lanepain-in-the ass has been bad mouthing me. I worked during lunch breaks he doesn't even know about because he was too busy banging his wife at lunch breaks and the whole office was left to me to run while they were out partying. the same with other jobs. when I worked at the Mercurse hotel. I worked thru lunch breaks and didn't stop and I had a whole 24 room floor to manage to myself with penthouse suits and my boss trusted me. I did heaps of things and I want a bloody job!

i want a job i did a uk nanny certificate and all i want is some part time work. i just wish i could...

eat time we have lived in hope that my sister will be happy with a man and she should have been living a married life by now with her filipino husband in her own place and me living in my own place with a husband and not one who is a nutter attacker. we should have had more out of life by now.

eat time we have lived in hope that my sister will be happy with a man and she should have been livi...

being around nick cutting crew/ bugsy as a kid was like being around adam lambert and for all I care milo p can put the kirk/ coke can up his ass too or in mouth so long as the bastards are not need me. my godparents were not even catholic they were nutters old and useless rich scum!! while your at it. look at this fool its so "hames reyne hammerhead, Catholics take food from your mouth, your the like the devil in hell, hanging out with the nicest awful people in Catholics. silken slip of catholic evil" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMmBwCSk6sw&list=PLL8ssTVkmeoxdXqTkdRhfYlGu-FPI0bKa or is it george micheal wham all she wants" oh god help us.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7G8gTAjKXg who is this stupid leader of the pack? someone please send him back. enjoy the fame cuz it will cost you! try to wipe the wool across the worlds eyes, well I won't be. sorry if I am laughing at you. milo kerigan sort of, but my mum didn't like the catholic church when they allowed athethests who had no faith to be godparents, i think the church should make godparents to answer to a counselling to find out why they want to be a godparent and their faith and stop making fools of kids for richies ego. i have had enough of your abuses on me. the sexual abuse, the throwing things around, the sexual degridations and everything. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMo8JuPPb0M what they did to my sister and putting us in hospital and making us ill and expecting us to live like gay nuns? self torturing , not fucking normal.

being around nick cutting crew/ bugsy as a kid was like being around adam lambert and for all I care...