I am depressed :-(

most of the men I have liked have been academic university teachers or busines men from overseas or male models I had crushes on, but I make a point of avoiding a lot of people now and I want to meet people I love meeting new people and having friends but I have never had a real friend ever.

most of the men I have liked have been academic university teachers or busines men from overseas or ...

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best of times and gold bug and very tight with money and occasional flamboyant moves, I like strong investment and mostly reality land and stayed and steady type investments. I am rather old fashioned in a lot of things but not everything. like I found it highly offensive for so many teachers to be making comments about "the boys usually go into criminal law and debt collection and wills and estates and the girls mostly go into conveyancing and family law where there is no money to be made" and their sexist responses about a lot of things was highly offensive!

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best...

now I have 12-20 rose petal soap buds I was going to use in the fashion parade for breast cancer but seeing people were dropping out and W wouldn't keep in involved and just seemed to want the clothes and not me helping to put them together on models and have the fun. and the sally made me sick and was making fun of me said everyone was laughing at me, I guess it was a stupid idea I could do a fashion show, so I just gave W all the contacts cuz she was always sick and I got chest pains from sally upsetting me and her speeding and near accidents and her bitching at me." we are laughing at you" she said

now I have 12-20 rose petal soap buds I was going to use in the fashion parade for breast cancer but...